I can't put together the words to say
you can't use words her horrifying.
Or anything. I just remember Houston
becoming a new home for me and being
excited to finally get to share a little
bit about what I love about Houston.
And having my best friend coming to town.
And that was all we were looking
forward to this concert.
Just making memories and everything
and always being on alert knowing OK,
these concerts are scary people
making jokes about it,
but I always like to be aware.
I remember that day we were
going to get there later,
but something just kept telling me
let's go earlier, let's go earlier.
We went around two and I remember.
It was just a mass, it was.
It was horrible.
There was people just walking in and
out everywhere like it was an organized.
You wouldn't see securities.
I remember getting to the checkpoint
and looking at my best friend and be
like why are there people here like
why are they just standing here?
There's no one here, you know,
covering them like I don't feel safe.
I hope everything is OK.
Not knowing what happened earlier in the day,
then I finally got in.
They never checked my bag or anything.
They were letting people pass by with beers,
cans and all these different things.
They weren't even checking on anything.
I remember getting to the merge
and just being like OK,
it's probably crowded in there.
Let's see this merch line.
Let's wait here and all of a sudden
you just hear yelling and you just
see people running and I just
remember I just got in defense mode
and looked at my best friend and
told him we need to leave.
We need to get out of here.
We're going to get trampled and he I
remember him just being like it's OK.
Don't freak out you're good you're
overreacting and I'm being like no,
I'm not overreacting.
I told you from the beginning these
people are waiting for something,
they're waiting.
It's raining there like everyone
knows that people planned this
out and it's just frustrating knowing that.
I was just a person that never
experienced any of this and
I could see it and not seeing
any workers anywhere.
No police or anything.
And then I got lucky to be able to
cut into the right merch line and
I remember waiting there thinking.
OK, the chaos is done.
I remember seeing people getting
thrown on the ground and I remember
making the comment to my best friend.
I refuse to ever be at a place
and witnessed someone die in front
of me and me not be able to do
anything and I remember thinking OK
it said old people aren't
gonna come in anymore.
I remember seeing security.
Recording everything and I'm
like confused what's going on.
It took some minutes.
And finally, you see a bunch
of sharrows common horses.
Going thing is, instead
of them going to block
off the VIP section, preventing
from more crazy people to come in,
they all just face us and you
just see them recording us
and it was just a horrible feeling thinking
people that supposed to protect us. It's
just looking at us like we're.
Some fools like we're supposed
to basically protect each other,
and I remember just yelling at them.
Why are you guys pointing at us?
Why you guys, intimating us we were here?
We're trying to avoid all this chaos.
I remember 2 hours past people were getting
really crazy on the left side of the merge.
They were blocking it off.
They weren't letting people come into
that merch line and I remember just
saying something crazy is going to happen.
I still don't feel comfortable here and
I remember my friends trying to joke
off trying to get me to feel good about
it and not overreact like I always do.
But I just didn't feel good and then all
of a sudden you just see people cheering
and then everyone just breaks in that
line and they get crazy and they started
pushing each other just to get merge.
And then I remember I was like no.
I was like my line is short.
I know something is going to happen
and just I just remember looking
back and then everyone just running,
jumping them, pushing us to the side,
not caring and I remember yelling at them
like why are you guys acting like this
like it's nothing like we've been here
for hours like at least be respectful.
Don't throw us to the side
or anything and I remember.
Dealing with that for four hours being
in that merch line asking people,
can you please give people water?
Can you give us this?
And I remember security.
Just joking with us.
Laughing at us telling us oh you
guys are OK and everything trying
to joke around about us about the
merge and all these things and I'm
like this is so insensitive.
Thank goodness for that merch line because
I was able to also meet two other people.
And those two other people,
we stuck together.
It was about 6:30 when we finally
were able to go into the event.
And I remember I need to go
get water for everyone.
I need to make sure that we're good
and everything you guys stay together
and I went with one of my friends.
We were in the long lines.
You couldn't even get water.
The horrible thing is the free
water stations.
They only had one in the beginning
when you enter and then went all
the way at the end and no one could
see where the Porta potties were
in the lines were ridiculous and
the only way that you could get
water is if you had a container.
And I remember people begging,
asking for empty water bottles,
asking for anything,
and being able to just OK.
I'm going to take care of
my team and we were good.
Little little baby performed.
It wasn't that wild.
And then it was time to
move to the Travis stage.
And when I saw people there, I was.
Just I didn't think much of it.
I was just like, OK, I hope they're OK.
I remember people just suffocating because
people were just smoking in the crowds.
There was different things going on in that
type of environment like that you can't.
Have a lot of the oxygen taken away.
And I remember just looking at
my friends like if we need to
eat let's go get everything.
Now let's get together and do this and that.
OK, we got food we came back we
were excited we're like OK all that
traumatizing stuff let's put it to the
side hoping everything is going to be
good I remember just looking everywhere
and then my friends warning me about
everything they remember them telling
me it's gonna get really pressured
here make sure that you know that
you can breathe good make sure that
you have space make sure that if you
feel claustrophobic you go sideways
do not go forward do not go straight.
Do not do anything.
Go sideways and try to leave because
it will get packed here and then.
I remember just having people literally
pushes cut us in front of us.
I had guys over 6 feet tall in front of
me talking about were gonna rage right here.
One of them had crutches.
I remember him saying I'm going to
hit people with this crutch and just
making signals and stuff like that.
And I remember just having anxiety
and telling my friend I can't do this.
I know you're joking around about it
saying that it gets really pressured
and you can't breathe,
but I just can't and I remember
looking at the two people.
That I saw there and then all of
a sudden someone just fell on us.
And that's what honestly freaked
me out the most.
And I looked at them and I told them
I can't do this and it was really
one minute left for the countdown
for him to come out.
The moment I heard that time go down and
that annoying music finally stopped,
which I can't stop hearing that music.
By the way,
like every day is just playing back
and forth and it's just traumatizing.
And I remember just looking at
them and tell him I can't do this.
I can't. I have to go.
And
the thing that breaks my heart the most
is I don't know if one of the people
there is so severely injured
or not. And I remember
just seeing news is and I hate that
people are making false claims,
saying that someone died,
and I mean trying to figure
out OK, is this first thing
good or not? Why didn't
he tell them to leave with me?
Because the moment that countdown went
down, my friend just grabbed each
other and we went sideways and I
remember everyone just pushing
forward and it was hard breathing.
But we were able to get out and we
were in a section away from everyone.
But I remember the whole time I
just kept looking around and I
was like this doesn't feel good.
Something's going on and I remember
him just saying words like I need
this stage to feel I need earthquake.
And I was saying why is he telling
people that I'm seeing a bunch
of emergency response?
I barely see anybody around
there was no security everywhere.
It wasn't organized very well.
I remember people just begging
for water and me getting mad.
Why is it you guys have so much money?
Why can't you just give free
water for everyone?
The water was selling out and
it was hard for you to get it.
The concert was done and we all just thought,
OK, it's just a concert.
People are probably just dehydrated.
They fell and everything and literally.
Nearly the last moment that I turned around,
I witnessed someone on the ground.
They were getting compressed and there
was an EMT machine on them and I just
remember yelling at the paramedics.
Please do your job,
but you're not doing it right.
You're not taking care of him.
And just yelling and then you do
see them literally grab the body and
just throw it in a cart like nothing
and that broke my heart because
all I wanted to do was go in and
run behind them to make sure
that that person was OK. But
I couldn't. 'cause everyone was trying
to leave and it was just chaotic and.
Leaving that place was horrible.
I lost my friends. I got lucky that
I knew where my parking lot was,
but all that moment I didn't know how crazy
everything was because I had no service.
And then waking up the next
morning having calls and texts
from people asking are you OK?
Are you good? This and that?
And I was wondering what's going on
and then finally looking at the news
and seeing the stuff that I saw.
It wasn't juice what I was thinking.
Was really. More than traumatizing.
That word can't even.
It actually even speak of it because
it's such a horrible feeling
thinking that I witnessed someone.
Lose their life right in front of
me and help people there just say
oh it's drugs or it's just this and
that and me saying it's a life.
But it could have been more and
then seeing the face of who it was.
It breaks my heart to this day and
it's horrible because all of this
could have been prevented before
the event couldn't even happened.