- I think I feel most creative at like,
three in the morning when I'm spiraling.
That's what happens at three in the morning.
You know, if you're in bed just thinking.
Spirals.
That's what happens, you know?
Right?
Leonardo DiCaprio (beep) watches 'Euphoria'.
Our cast has a group chat, and it has been
like about that literally just
reveling in the fact that he watches, that's insane.
Barbie has just sent us a draft for T-shirts
of his quote about 'Euphoria'.
I think she just ordered them.
We're really excited.
It was really cool to witness
a young trans girl
realizing that she does not have to be attached
to this certain route of receiving affirmation,
and I think the way it plays out with Jules
is that she is moving into a form of queerness
like by proxy self-love that I don't think
she knew she had inside of her, or was possible.
And, of course, that comes with its complications
just because things with Rue aren't super perfect either.
But I just, I have hope for them.
Jules' arc is also something that I haven't really
seen on TV before in the way that
we've done it on 'Euphoria'.
I don't know, I think I was like,
really terrified of crying for a long time,
and like, we had to cry a lot on this show.
So I think it just made realize it's okay to cry.
And it's like normal there.
You and your scene partner will have to do it together.
I don't know, there's just something like,
normalized about the full spectrum
of emotions through this experience that,
I don't know, like feeling things is nice.
It's cool to be able to
see that whole spectrum and like, feel it.
Working with Zendaya, she is such a force.
When you're in a scene with somebody
and you're like, bouncing off of each other,
it's so exciting, because it all starts to feel
very real, and it makes the acting part easier.
And so, I think Z was just so committed
to doing it, holding space for me
and that made it that much easier
to reciprocate and to make our world
very visceral and immersive.
And also she's just like, the sweetest person ever.
So down to earth.
The scene in episode three where Rue kisses Jules
for the first time, and it's kind of unreciprocated,
I just remember that was-- it was so sad
just seeing her standing there,
and just so vulnerable.
And I know that must've been really hard.
And so, yeah, I was really proud of her after that.
I would describe Rules's relationship as home.
Sweet.
But then also, messy.
And maybe like walls,
because they have communication issues.
Sometimes they make each other feel
like they're at the top of the world,
and then other times it's like, they're kind of
ripping each other's hearts out, maybe not on purpose, but.
It's really complicated, because-- and it's something
I've actually been thinking about,
'cause I've been publicly shipping Rules,
and then I have actually watched the episodes now
and realized how toxic their relationship is.
And I feel a little bad for shipping them,
at least at this point in their relationship.
But I think it's just, it's conflicting,
because I think underneath everything
they have a really beautiful connection
that only they can really find with each other.
And it's just sort of circumstantial and
specific to each of them, what's kind of keeping them
from really being able to be together without issues.
Whether that's Rue's addiction
or Jules using Rue as a sort of rebound.
Yeah, it's a little messy right now.
I think my biggest takeaway from 'Euphoria'
was just having a new relationship
to feeling things.
Just over the course of the season
I had been kind of learning this craft that is acting
along the way and learning from my co-stars
and watching people do it,
and it's changed my relationship to
letting myself feel emotions completely.
And, I don't know, I'm really thankful for that,
because it's acted a lot like therapy in that way.
Yeah, and then also just coming out of it
with a massive family that is everyone who made 'Euphoria'.
Acting was not in my plan at all whatsoever.
I didn't really even think I was
capable of performing in that way.
Making clothes and like fashion design
was kind of where I wanted to go,
and then this kind of came up
and flipped everything upside down
and I'm so thankful for it.