okay so i'm getting ready to go to the gym it's pretty early it's like 6
30 a.m and i've been starting off a new routine to start going to the gym
in the morning like i used to just with the mental state that i've kind of been
in lately i want to give myself like a fighting chance to have a positive
start to my day it kind of like releases like that heavy weight of stress of like all the things that
i have to do that i kind of wake up with every morning that comes you know with anxiety it
allows me to address it right away and not allow it to stop the rest of my day like when people say
they love going to the gym it makes them feel better and they get like addicted to the gym
what they're talking about is the endorphins that it gives them so i've been loving loving starting
off an early morning workout it has made such a difference in my days in the way that it makes me
feel i'm gonna do some cardio and a hit workout lately it's just been my thing i'm gonna go
downstairs in my gym and just like really get it out i'm just gonna do a hit workout on my future
app you guys know i love future i love working out with my trainer i've definitely changed up my
workouts a little bit with my trainer i've definitely had her kind of make them a lot heavier
and i've been going to the gym and i've just been loving the way that it makes me feel so if you've
never heard a future it's a virtual fitness app that allows you to work one-on-one with a personal
trainer to help you reach your fitness goals you sign up you go on their website and you pick out
a personal trainer that works best for you fits your schedule and kind of can help you with what
you're looking for i had a one-on-one meeting with mine fell in love with her and we've been working
together ever since you talk about your goals they'll message you throughout the week curate
workout plans for you that fit your schedule like for me i'm always traveling my trainer is able to
make a workout for me whether i'm in a hotel or i have a gym or i have no equipment or i have
lots of equipment they also lend you a free apple watch when you sign up and that's how they track
your progress right through all your metrics that is reported from your apple watch to the app and
they can just kind of see how it's working for you what really got your heart rate going and
what didn't just to make sure that it's actually effective which i love so they're also keeping
track of your workouts making adjustments as you need they work with celebrities people that are
like have really really busy lifestyles parents you name it like they have worked with it and can
figure out a schedule that works with you i always recommend future to people who are just scared of
the gym and if not comfortable in the gym and just not knowing what to do in the gym and they're kind
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thank you so much future for sponsoring this portion of the video but i am gonna go do
my future workout good morning good morning yes i just got back from the gym took a shower
and got right back in my pajamas i was gonna really really try to film like a really elaborate
video for you guys today on this topic but i don't know why i keep doing this with myself
and fighting myself but i just can't do it so i'm just gonna sit here and talk to you guys about it
anyway um i got really really good feedback from my last sit down video where we just sit and talk
so i was just like you know what i'm not gonna try to overdo something or overproduce something
because this is all i can mentally do just continue on this trend but after that this
will be my last video for a couple weeks but something that's been on my mind a lot
throughout this process the last couple days is self-worth how to navigate your self-worth
when you're feeling a little bit off and you're feeling a little bit lost and you're feeling like
you need that reset and you don't have motivation to really do anything a lot of that can be
heavy on your self-worth and make you feel like you're worthless or you're not as worthy because
you're feeling the way that you do or you're not measuring up to what society says you should be
measuring up to or just you're not measuring up to the way you view yourself and the way you think
you should be and what you should be doing and these pressures that we put on ourselves
to succeed and i just want to normalize that we all feel that way we all have gone through
that process where we just don't feel as worthy as we have in the past or we just haven't felt
worthy at all we have really really low self-esteem which is something i've struggled with
for years and being at the age that i am and barely accepting who i am and understanding who
i am and being okay with who i am and realizing it's actually a beautiful thing and it's making
my life so much easier and then trying to always try to change myself and just have these kind
of self-deprecating thoughts about myself that i hold on to and anytime something doesn't work out
i bring up those thoughts and like see that's why see i knew i was right about myself i'm uncapable
of this so i'm uncapable of that and always just got to be down on myself this last year in 2022
i've become so aware of my self-worth and it has started to naturally become something that i am
fixing as i show myself love and as i go through my own healing journey and as i go through
my own healing journey i'm just naturally seeing how i evolved when it comes to my self-worth and
now that i'm on this side of things where i do view myself as worthy i do view myself
as beautiful i do view myself as deserving i do view myself in a way that i don't have to
get other people to like me or feel the need to have other people like me or feel the need to
chase love the way that i used to chase love because i find the worth in myself and it took
years i'm telling you this is probably the first year where i realized my true self-worth and felt
comfortable i truly believe that came from the self-love i poured into myself like i am in my
world i am like why treat myself any different or allow anybody else to treat me any different or
chase love and validation that does not serve me that i do not deserve and i deserve so much better
in those times i can be in my own company if that's what it takes rather than settling for
things that don't serve me but i definitely want to talk about a few pointers that have
really really helped me over the last year to really get to this position the one thing you
will always have is yourself the one thing you can always rely on is yourself so being able to
have a healthy relationship with yourself will only make your life a lot easier healthier and
just feel a lot better first step for me when it came to really realizing my self-worth and
understanding what my self-worth was and what it looked like for me i had to go through a journey
of self-acceptance and the past that came with me as well things that have happened to you things
that wish you did you didn't do all the shame the guilt you once had it in it just accepting things
as they have happened and stop trying to run away from them or change them accepting it as part of
my story as who i am and instead of being sad and upset about it or trying to run away from it and
that brewing into more self-hatred which then made my self-esteem even lower my confidence even lower
one day i was getting so tired of it i just decided to accept it when i started to you know
heal myself and work on myself and accept things i was able to gain sympathy for myself and realize
a lot of the things that have happened is just a part of life for one but also
not my fault right like i can't fault myself for being born into a situation that you know
i wish i wasn't you know and instead accepting it as it is trying to find the positive in it
and use it to drive me in life in a positive direction instead of weighing me down and just
kind of reversing the meaning that it has in my mind just be at peace and make decisions from a
peaceful place from a place of self-love instead of a place of self-loathing when you can't accept
you it also reflects on the outside right then other people feel that energy and also don't
accept you right so then your brain picks up like see it's proving me right this person doesn't like
me or this is going on in my life because of this really what it is is the energy that's being put
out and just being reciprocated back to you that's why self acceptance is so important
really all it is is just having your own back like just being there for you and believing in who you
are no matter what anything or anyone tries to come into your life and tells you or a negative
thought that tries to take over and consistently be in your mind all the time you're able to stop
it all in its tracks and be like ah no i know who i am i know my self-worth i have no shame
of what has happened to me that things that i have done or any type of shame about who i am
as a person and when you do that you can literally become the most unaffected
person and i'm telling you once that changed and i was able to move past that accept myself
self-worth just came pouring in and it's so dangerous when you don't know your own worth
anything can come and tell you what you're worth okay how many times have i allowed that to happen
in my life how many times did i let a situation or a thing or a person come in and tell me my worth
because i didn't believe in my own worth i didn't have my own back i didn't know and i i didn't like
myself so who cares if the other person treated me any different than the way i treat myself and
i didn't realize any of that until i accepted myself and was willing to have my own back and
fight for myself that goes into the next topic that i want to talk about which is actually crazy
when i think about it i feel like a lot of people walk around in life not willing to have their own
back or believe in themselves and they allow those self-deprecating thoughts to just take
over every area of our life if you think about it we're the only ones that know the way we think and
we don't have to say every single thought out loud if you're constantly thinking negative thoughts
throughout the day and all the time and all your decisions get filtered through those negative
thoughts can you look at your life and see how those negative self-deprecating thoughts of not
being able to back yourself or have your back or believe in yourself has affected your life like
can you look around right now and say wow okay the thought that the negative thought that i'm
always telling myself i can see how my decisions are filtered through that and now i understand why
some of the things that are happening in my life currently are happening it's so natural to the
point where you don't even realize you're doing it that's where it gets a little scary but you can
always change that just by simply having your own back being there for you truly believing
in yourself no matter what sometimes we hold on to these negative self-deprecating thoughts because
it's actually our comfort zone we've lived in it for so long we've told ourselves it for so long
to try to believe anything else would feel odd would feel scary would feel not right the crazy
thing about life and the beauty about life is you can change those belief systems those thoughts
you have about yourself the way you feel about yourself at any moment it's just up to you right
now it could take time because you're going to have to rewire those thoughts to thoughts about
believing in who you are what you're capable of what you deserve standing up for yourself when
you need to letting go of thoughts that no longer serve you in today's time figuring out where those
thoughts came from pull them out at the root and be okay with letting them go really start letting
love in you know self-worth it all stems from the way you feel about yourself inside last and
the next thing that i want to talk about is when you feel unworthy next to someone you idolize or
think is better than you what society makes people portray that who they are online
or in their job even if like you're a doctor like you know one take offense to this doctors go to
school for years and have respect for that but at the end of the day even a doctor is a human being
and can make a mistake to get to the level of expertise they spent years to go to
school to learn that they didn't start off an amazing surgeon right an amazing doctor
that saves lives they had to learn and become an expert in that field now if you took a doctor and
you and you made them work for nasa they're going to look like an amateur they're going to look like
a person that doesn't know what they're talking about they're going to look super uncomfortable
they're not going to know what to say or what to do they're going to be asking questions and
feel uncomfortable in that room therefore there's no one more worthy than anybody
else there's just experts in certain fields that's it and i feel like we emphasize so much
on what people have and what people do as their worth these people have worked hard
for years and they started off as amateurs they started off not being this person you're seeing
in front of you today you just didn't see their path and the mistakes they've made they're never
going to tell you so they look like this noble person that just is so much better than you
but if you took them out of their comfort zone the one skill that they've worked on their whole life
and put them somewhere else they're gonna look as much as an amateur as you would doing the same
thing everyone has to start somewhere but also on top of that everyone is human if you think you
are the only person who is not confident who has these thoughts about yourself who feels this way
about yourself who had to go through things to get where they are and everyone else's life is perfect
that is a lie you are telling yourself i don't view anyone as better than me anymore i used to
i used to but i don't i don't care if you're the president of the united states i don't view you as
better than i am so now when i approach a person that i would used to be like oh i need this person
to like me they're so much better than me look what they have look what they're doing oh my gosh
i'm so inspired by them don't get me wrong i'm you can still be inspired by people and learn
from people it's so beautiful i know this might sound like a little cocky but it's just a way
you got to shift your brain you know you always want to still come from love and it's not to be
cocky or you know think you're better than other people no what i'm saying is everyone is at an
equal level playing field because at the end of the day they are a human being difference
between you and this person is that they picked a field they studied for years became an expert
in it got successful in it and now they have a life experience to share about it with you
and that is what you're seeing at the end of the day they're still the same type of human being
that you are and you are capable of accomplishing that same exact thing that they have done
if you wanted to it doesn't make them more worthy than you just because you haven't done it yet
for me when i walk into a room or when i approach people that would normally have that effect on me
i naturally will never think anyone is worth more than me is better than me i honestly i don't care
where they come from or who they are i've grown that muscle so much that i'm not intimidated by
anyone everyone is just a human being trying to make it through life and now that i view people
like that it allowed me to kind of remove the facade that everyone was putting on for themselves
right you got to think about it the reality of the annoying stuff in your life that goes
on it is also happening for other people i don't care what they tell you they are a human being
and life happens to us as human beings and there's nothing we can do about it it's the beauty of life
and that will make it so much easier to realize there's nothing wrong with you there's absolutely
nothing wrong they are just as human as you are no one in this world can make you feel unworthy
because they have probably gone through the same scenario you just don't know about it we base
so much of our self-worth and what is happening in society and the way other people view us and
what is going on in someone else's life that's not going in our life without really logically
thinking about how that person is just as human as i am and they're living their life experience
no one is more worthy than you no one is more deserving of you there's no one in a position
of life that deserves more than you just because of where they're at in their life and who they are
that actually doesn't make any logical sense so the next time you have these thoughts
tell yourself that humanize people like normal lies humanizing people and stop idolizing people
because if you want it to be just as noble you can start tomorrow not all of it but a lot of the pain
we feel is self-inflicting and and it can be a pattern for us especially if you grew up in trauma
or you grew up in an environment where traumatic things were always happening we can start to
create that environment for ourselves because we don't know any better or we don't know anything
else and we're used to things always being happening to be hostile or dramatic when no
we can live a happy simple life it's just a shift in mindset it's just a shift in perspective and
life can be loving and beautiful even in the hard times and that is what's carrying me through this
like you guys that is what's carrying me through this my body is going through its normal pattern
of like oh we had a high we must have a low and i realized that about myself i'm like oh okay
we need to work on this and this is something that i've been working on the past week that
has just made me feel so much better like you know i know who i am i love myself and i know my worth
i'm worth it all i'm worth anything i deserve it all you know and it just gives you this sense of
peace when you have your own back and you know you're there for yourself and you know you can
trust yourself and you can switch that around by a simple decision if you're feeling down and feeling
down on yourself and you know it may be coming from inside trying to look at where you are in
your journey when it comes to self-worth because a lot of these outward problems that we're having
always start from within whether that be from a decision we made something we allowed to happen
in our surrounding areas something we knew we should have changed but have not made the change
yet or started the process to change it right because we're holding ourselves back or we are
in an environment where people that are hurting us and no longer serving us and we need to figure out
a way to get out of it even if it's someone you love or it's family it's okay to leave right and
we have to get to that spot where we believe it's okay to leave we we believe in ourselves enough to
put ourselves in a safer environment um even if we don't have the help and it's going to be hard but
it's never impossible who you are is so special so beautiful worth it all you deserve everything
like this is your one chance at life like this is your life what are you gonna do with it don't
allow your past to hold you hostage anymore let it go allow yourself to be free i know it's so scary
but allow yourself to be free allow yourself to love yourself you know a healing journey isn't
an end-all be-all it's forever and you will always have to be there for yourself and you always have
to show up for yourself but you should want to it should be a thing that you should want to do i
mean if you don't want to start from there there's nothing wrong with that and and if you don't feel
like you want to start doing this stuff there's nothing wrong with that you could just not be
there yet to ready to make that change but start working on it slowly and if receiving this type of
knowledge is opening your brain up to start making those changes even if you don't feel it yet so i
love you guys so so much we are in it together and i will see you guys in the next video bye