so how did I feel after my relapse
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last video right over here I talked about my relapse I talked about
what caused it what was going through my mind as I committed the crime of pmo I
kind of want to reflect on how I felt right after relapsing and of course
after relapsing you have the whole negative emotions like feelings of guilt
disappointment hate you know to me you end up hating yourself and really just
honestly just crushing your spirit one of the hardest things to do is to
forgive and forgiving yourself especially for something so stupid it's
very hard to do but here's the crazy thing guys
the day after relapsing my motivation was downhill alright
I felt less masculine I felt less alpha and unconfident and I feel like just
being unconfident in itself is the umbrella that holds every other emotion
so I'll just unconfident which led me to being unhappy which led me to be pretty
much depressed for almost a whole day here's another weird thing guys it
honestly felt like my dick shriveled up but if it couldn't get any smaller
already let me tell you let's share with it it felt like it felt like a prune
turned into a raisin that's overdramatic but seriously it
just felt like a chop stick and more like a toothpick okay enough with those
stupid jokes but it did feel like it wasn't working as it should be keep in
mind is only for a day now fast-forward to the next day so
here's a 9:30 relapse here's the full day of depression and then the next day
it's as if I was almost a completely different person it's as if the day
before never even happened just like flipping a coin one day was
heads and now I'm living in tails all right and my emotions my clarity my
ambitions my confidence you know everything changed I felt like I was
king of the worlds my interactions with people I could look at them straight in
the eye I was no longer afraid to interact with people socializing wasn't
an issue and just uh just a clarity on who I was and where I was going was no
longer an issue all of these emotions are probably not just linked to nofap of
course right now I'm going through all these other stages in my life where I'm
just learning about the nofap and the whole Redco thinking so of course
there's other factors that's playing into my emotional well-being for the
days ahead of me but this is just me and this is my story and this is what I felt
all right the second day after relapse I felt like
I was a king so one of the things that I noticed personally is that I became more
driven my ambitions with this youtube channel has become skyrocketed I'm
becoming more purposeful with what I want to do with this channel I want to
impact lives I want to impact you guys but not only
that I felt like my aggression also went home all right I became almost like I
became to a point where it's like I don't give a fuck where other guys say
towards me what they think of me all right even swearing in this video like
back then I didn't want to swear in videos because I felt like I didn't want
to offend anyone I come to realize that guy's life is short if you're if you're
focusing on bettering yourself every day you're gonna have to get over the fact
that people have their own lives and their opinions does not need to affect
yours if you let their opinions affect your life you're automatically not gonna
grow you let other people's opinions and thoughts of who you are affect where
you're going and your emotions then you are no longer in control of your life I
need to stress that Enterprise let's repeat that shall we let other people's
opinions and thoughts of who you are affect where you're going and your
emotions then you are no longer in control of your life it's key right
there that's key and that's something that you guys need to realize all right
so it is just a short video guys this is what I noticed personally the day after
the day of my relapse I think the reason that two days after the relapse how I
felt so on top of the world was because before the relapse
I had a long initial nofap streak it was like probably two months 2 months 3
months of nofap which leads me to another point I think that the longer
that you do a streak of nofap when you actually do relapse it's not as bad as
you think it is you don't have to start on day 1 you're not gonna become a binge
addicts and start back into porn as much times as possible I don't think
that's gonna happen I think I think that the longer your nofap and if you ever
have a slip of a relapse that you bounce back very quickly all right
that's one of the key point to this story anyways guys thanks for watching I
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