(00:00): Hello, beautiful soul. Here is a clip from
a recent live event that I did in New York city. Enjoy,
(00:23): Ah, I don't care what you're saying, Tina,
but I can't access intuition because I have O C D O C D. Do you understand what I do?
You see what I'm saying? It's not possible for me to do something because I have this
condition that I've been diagnosed with. Okay. So let's break through that energy. You see
that there's a little bit of resistance. We have to break through that. And, and sometimes
I know this is hard because when we're diagnosed with something, there's an expectation and
a lot of templates on top of that, nothing, nothing worse. Probably the worst template
that can be given is when a doctor says to someone, you have ex uh, cancer and you have
six months to live. I don't think that should ever by any ethical physician be said ever.
But this is just an example because I don't care how many medical degrees I have.
(01:26): I will never be able to tell you when you're
gonna die ever. And there's no physician in the world or psychiatrist in the world that
can tell you, you have O C D, and you always will. And you just have to learn how to cope
with it. And here's a nice little medication for you to help you out. There's nothing wrong
with medication. It can be very, very helpful, but we have to go underneath under that underbelly
of it and understand that everything that manifests in physical form has an energy blueprint
behind it. And healing means connecting to the energy blueprint. And sometimes healing
can mean different things, depending on what we're going through. So sometimes for some
people, for you, the label of O C D it may be something that sticks with you. It may
not, I don't know. I don't have that answer, but I would never look at you and say that
you have O C D therefore you can't connect with your intuition.
(02:26): So the O C D is on an extreme side. It could
be diagnosable, but it's on an extreme side, but I can talk to everybody else and say that
on a less extreme side, it's a busy mind that never stops. It's a busy mind that needs to
control everything. It's just on a little bit of an, of an, the extreme, but all of
us in this room know what that feels like in a less extreme state. So the advice that
I would give to you would be the advice that I'm giving to everyone, the connecting to
feminine energy is gonna be super important to you because that O C D energetically the
excessive thoughts, energetically means my masculine energy is outta control outta control.
So from a, is, from an energy perspective. When someone with O C D comes to me, I'm looking
at excessive, unruly masculine energy and the feminine being so suppressed that she's
not even being able to balance the, the young energy within.
(03:33): And so the young is so overly dominant that
the energy balance is, is difficult now, but I love we're using the, but again, okay. Another
question I have for you and, and this, this is a question that's good for everyone, regardless
of not OCD or no OCD. It's we talked about this earlier. Whoever is in this room that
feels like they have a strong ego because they come from some kind of trauma or pain
in the past. The likelihood that the ego is stronger is higher. So is there for you? Is
there trauma in the past that maybe is not completely healed? Yes. Do you wanna go into
that? Just a tiny bit. You don't have to go into the whole story, but maybe just, can
you give us a general, just give us a sentence,
(04:27): Uh, neglect.
(04:29): Okay. Okay. So take a deep breath. Okay. So
can, can everybody can every, what's your name again? Sorry, Jackie. Jackie say Jackie.
Jackie. Okay. So can everybody see Jackie? So as soon as I said, can you, can you give
us a sentence? She was like, did you see that? Did you see her body? That's where the OCDs
coming from. Okay. So it's that overly that unruly. You know what that is? It's a distraction
the longer, oh, you know, turn on the light switch, turn off the light switch, do this,
do that, do that, whatever. I don't know how extreme your OCD is, but I've had clients
where literally they can't leave the house until they turn their switch up and down 40
times. It's gotta be 40 times. Okay. Yeah.
(05:21): Mine's mostly just rumination. Okay. So you
don't see it
(05:25): At all. Okay. All right. So you're on the
less extreme end of the OCD spectrum. Okay. So, but for you, that's what rumination is
now. Notice this is, is a protection mechanism. The longer you're distracted, the less, you're
gonna be able to go down, down, down, down, down, down, down to connect with the abandonment.
The word I'm getting is abandonment. Okay? Yes. Okay. So down, down, down. So let's,
let's do this now. Are, do you trust, do you trust us?
(06:08): Yes. .
(06:09): Oh, that took a while.
(06:13): She's like, yes. .
(06:18): Okay. So relax your body. Just relax your
body. Okay. That's another I'll. I'll give you another little tidbit. You wanna release
that? O C D relax your body. The more you relax your body, the more the mind calms.
Okay. So that you're gonna visualize or see or feel. And while, while we're doing this,
I'd like you all to please project your energy, loving, healing, beautiful energy towards
Jackie. So that we blast right through that excessively combative ego, cuz we can. Okay.
So you're just gonna take a nice deep breath and you're gonna see or feel the energy, excessive
energy in your skull. And it's just gonna drain down, down, down, down, down here. You're
gonna relax your body down, down. It's okay. It's okay. It's okay. You can trust us. You're
safe down, down, down
(07:48): Here, here, here,
(07:55): Down, down, down, down, down, down. You're
safe. There's nothing unsafe happening. You are safe. No, no, no, no,
(08:05): No.
(08:09): It's okay. It's okay. It's okay. It's okay
to work through discomfort of the physical body. It's okay. You're you're finally allowing
the energy to move. You're allowing the energy to move instead of guarding it. You're allowing
the energy to move down down, down, down, down, down, down, down, down, relax. This
masculine. Let the feminine take over the feminine. Is your healer. The feminine is
your healer down, down, down.
(08:50): Relax
(08:51): Down into here.
(08:57): Relax that body.
(09:01): Here you go. Okay. Put your hands down here.
Put your hands down here. Take a deep breath. Relax. Okay. I want you to keep doing this
at home every day now. Okay. Every day you're gonna ask for the feminine to rise within
you. You're gonna ask for the feminine to take over. You're gonna ask for the feminine
to embrace you. And you're just gonna go down, down, down. Here's a great exercise that I
want Jackie to do. What everyone to do. This is one of my favorite ways to connect with
the feminine. It it's, it's a little bit harder sitting up, but we can't lie down. So, but
at home you're gonna, you're gonna be lying down with your knees bent or straight, depending
on how, how you feel comfortable, but you're gonna be lying down. And you're gonna put
your hand on your stomach and then you're gonna take a nice deep breath and you're gonna
vocalize. But the vocalization of the feminine is coming literally from the pits of your
stomach. So look at the difference. It's not this, ah, that's coming up here. It, can you
feel the difference? Can you, can you feel feminine energy? When I start doing that,
do this with me, take a deep breath. Put your hands on your stomach. And for some people,
sometimes this is a little bit frightening. Cuz when you start to do this, this feminine
will start rising. Okay. So
(11:17): Do it with me. The lowest vocalization you
can give.
(11:20): Oh,
(11:24): Uh,
(11:27): Lower when it's not even a vocalization, it's
more just like,
(11:32): Ugh,
(11:38): You see, you see what this provokes in some
people too, when you're starting to work with this, your vocal chords, aren't used to doing
this. So you sometimes you'll cough.
(11:52): Uh,
(11:54): You see, but you see Jackie, how you it's.
Okay. It's okay. You're still guarding up. It's hard. It's but you see let's try it again.
Okay. So, so listen to me down here, down
(12:15): Here. Oh you ah but
(12:25): Did you see, did you see what she did? She
(12:27): Started. Oh, not comfortable. Oh, not, not
comfortable.
(12:31): I'm more comfortable up here. You see? Yeah.
But can you, did you feel the first couple of seconds? Yeah.
(12:38): Also
(12:40): I feel also wider. I feel like it's almost
for like the first time my sacral is like opened up and it feels heavy.
(12:53): Yes there.
(12:54): Yes. Like it's the strength right
(12:56): There. Let's let's go into this. Let's go
into this. When I connect with my feminine energy and I go down. So the, the reason that
I'm, that I'm directing you guys downward is that the majority of our trauma is contained
or past experiences. Painful. Unresolved, past experiences are contained in your lower
three chakras.
(13:15): Cause you know, usually our biggest wounds
occur early on in our lives or at a point when we're in the physical development of
the lower three chakras, that's when the most jarring things happen to us. And so the, the
first three chakras develop, uh, by the age of like 12, 13 is when that third chakra,
uh, starts to come in. That's why teenagers tend to be rebellious and start to have these,
their identities and you know, start to dress goth or whatever. They have their own little,
their, their own little experiments cuz they're coming into their individuality. That's the
third chakra. And so the first chakra starts before you're born in your mother's womb.
The first chakra is the first chakra to go online. And then the second chakra starts
to come in around five, six, and then we move up in the system. So when we're healing, the
biggest pains of our lives, it's usually in those lower chakras. Okay. Now when I direct
my energy down there, pain and unresolved trauma is felt in the body as heaviness. So
you see what your body's doing? Your body's simply saying, yeah, look, there's a lot of
weight here, but not in a bad way. It's just look, there's just, there's just energy here.
So the fact that you're feeling the heaviness means you're connecting to that area, which
really excites me. Right. Like, yeah. So you see
(14:41): Finally. Awesome. Yeah.
(14:42): Yeah. So, so the major thing for whether you
have OCD or not, the main thing to remember is when my mind is overly active, my masculine
energy is a little bit out of balance a little bit or a lot of bit, by the time you get to
O C D territory, it's a lot a bit. So when I, when I look at O C D and in reformulating
your question, it's not something that I look at as permanent. It's not something that I
look at that you have to cope with. I look at it energetically and I just go into the
idea that my masculine energy is very, very unbalanced and the ruminations are protect,
protect air quotes are protecting me from something. Another way of saying this is my
mental ruminations are impeding me from going deeper into things that I need to address
that I have never addressed.