(00:05): In 2021,
I suffered a severe burnout and an Epstein bar viral infection that made me very,
very sick. I couldn't get outta bed, had absolutely no energy. My whole body just
wanted to be curled up in a ball forever, to a point where I even had to stop working and
making videos on my YouTube channel because I was exhausted and couldn't think straight.
When I temporarily quit YouTube as expected, the views on my channel went down by a lot. But then
as I slowly recovered from my burnout and started to go back to work and do videos for YouTube
again, I noticed that less and less people were watching them, and I started wondering if maybe
I had lost my mojo, or that maybe I was doing something wrong. And in the middle of all of
these feelings, I started to feel something that I haven't felt in a really long time. I felt like
a failure failure, (00:59):
Really deep insecurity started to surface that I was a bit surprised to feel that maybe I no longer
had anything relevant to say or to teach, that I was losing my skill as a teacher, and ultimately
that I was failing in my mission to reach as many people as possible and help them during their
challenging spiritual awakenings. I mean, if I couldn't reach people with my videos and my mind,
that meant that I was failing as a teacher. And this energy of failure is such a downward,
spiraling, really heavy energy that I didn't wanna be stuck in it very long. So what I decided to do
was I was going to understand this feeling of failure from a biological and spiritual
perspective, and that I was gonna move through it quickly so it no longer held me back. But,
oh man, moving through a feeling of failure is not always easy.
(01:48): Sometimes one big reason the fear of
failure is so prevalent in humans is that it has a strong biological part to it. So biologically,
the fear of failure comes from a deep bodily and unconscious drive to keep us safe. So what the
unconscious mind and the body are doing is they're trying to help us prevent failure . So
failure just means roughly that I try to do something new, and whatever that new thing that I
do goes horribly wrong. Okay? So that's generally what failure means. And so what the body is doing,
what the biological aspects of ourselves are doing is they are really trying to help us prevent that
horrible outcome. Whatever the horrible outcome is, this means that the fear of failure is deeply
rooted in risk aversion. And from an evolutionary perspective, being risk averse has come in handy
for our species on many occasions. For example, imagine I'm standing at the edge of a cliff with
water below, and I'm contemplating if I wanna jump in the water and let's say the water is
dark. So I can't see how deep it is, or if there are sharks or any other dangerous animal
(02:58): Should I jump? This risk assessment is wonderful
because it can keep me alive in a very real sense. But as we've evolved from nomads that lived in the
middle of wilderness and that were constantly surrounded by danger to now being in a modern
life or a modern environment, the risk assessment component of our brain has kind of gone haywire.
And now the brain can very easily perceive risk sometimes where it doesn't exist, the brain can
then think that anything new, like starting a new business or learning how to paint or doing YouTube
videos as a possibility of failure, and we can then become paralyzed by this fear failure. And
this is exactly what happened to me when I came back to YouTube after my burnout, I intuitively
knew that it was time to try new things to adapt to how YouTube and viewers were changing.
(03:47): So I went into my student mode
and I started to learn everything I could about the subject. I read about how the top creators
on YouTube worked, how they made videos, and how YouTube itself was changing. I learned that
the best way to now teach on YouTube is through storytelling, that I need to tell more stories
so people could connect with what I was teaching on an emotional level. But then when I started to
write my videos in this new way, since it was something so new to me, I began to feel really
vulnerable and insecure. The fear of failure kept creeping up, and my mind would say things like,
you can't tell a good story. You should just stick to what you know. People are going to
hate your new videos. And these voices got so bad that I actually pulled back, like I started to
feel less excited, and I started to pull back, and I started to feel this stagnation and this
kind of, um, this energy of feeling stuck, feeling paralyzed, like I couldn't really move forward.
(04:46): I also started to feel this really,
really deep voice that was kind of almost pushing me to let go of these uncomfortable feelings.
And it was saying to me, you know, if you just stick to comfort, if you just stay where it's
comfortable, you don't have to feel any of these vulnerabilities or these insecurities. And I was
feeling this voice that was kind of pushing me to just stick to what is comfortable. And that
really, really started to bother me. Then one day I noticed I felt horrible. I was tired. I
was watching too much tv. I didn't feel like doing anything. I was basically depressed,
and then a light went off in my mind, (05:29):
I'm self sabotaging. As soon as I realized that my pesky little brain was keeping me on that couch,
watching TV as a way of preventing me from doing something new, a k a preventing me from
any failure. As soon as I realized this, I got right up off the couch and I went back to work.
I took an immersive online course that taught me so much about storytelling. Then I just started
writing my first video script using these new ideas. And although it was important for me to
get off the couch and start doing things, it was also important for me to connect and become very
conscious of the spiritual perspective around the fear of failure too. Here's the biggest nugget
that I found about this. There is no such thing as failure on a soul level. All those fears and
insecurities that come with a fear of failure, they are coming from what's known as the lower
self or the human component of you. (06:23):
They're coming from the biological human part of you. They are not coming from your soul energy
because your soul energy is never afraid of failing. Your soul energy is always ready to
try new things, to keep expanding forward, to keep reaching for more, reaching for more. That's the
natural state of your soul energy. So when you do feel that feeling of failure, really what that,
what that means on an energy level is that it is a stagnation of expansive soul energy movement. When
the soul wants to move and try something new and do something different, but your human component
is stuck, either it's stuck in the biological triggers or it's stuck in trauma, or it's
stuck in whatever beliefs it has. When that human component gets stuck and the soul start, the soul
energy starts to pull on it, that's when you feel this stagnation can be created in your system.
(07:16): And this stagnation in, in
energy. Your soul energy wants to move, but the human part is blocking that movement that can
create a stagnation in energy that you can feel as depression or feeling low or feeling stuck,
feeling like you're in a rut. This, these are all very common feelings of when your
soul energy is trying to pull you in a certain direction, but your human avatar is blocking that
energy. Another spiritual thing that the fear of failure can elicit is it puts the body in a
stress state. And when my body is in stress, it produces hormones like cortisol and adrenaline,
which in turn shuts down my spiritual connection to my heart, which is my intuitive side, and
to my soul. The more I am in a stress, a stress state, the more those hormones are being secreted,
the less I'm able to listen to my intuition, to listen to the rumblings of my heart and to listen
to the messages of my soul. (08:09):
And when that happens, the fear of failure can feel, can be exacerbated, and it can feel even
worse if you're struggling with the fear of failure right now, here are three things to
remember and implement in your life. The first one is that soul consciousness can override outdated
biological drives. I love this one because what it means is that if you just sit down,
quiet your mind, just have a little moment of silence, close your eyes and just quiet your
mind down and connect to your soul. And you can just connect to your soul by just saying,
you know, I invite my soul, or, or just having the intention of connecting to your soul energy.
If you stay in this state, the longer that you stay in this state, the more quiet you become,
the more you start connecting to this soul energy. You'll notice that the fear of failure starts to
diminish. (08:58):
Your body will calm down, your body will start to become calmer. It'll relax. And as the body
relaxes, the fear of failure, the fear of doing something new diminishes significantly. The second
thing is that you're always guided and loved by the universe. Okay? So a lot of times we feel an
exaggerated sense or fear of failure because we mistakenly think, we're think we're always doing
things alone. You know, we're we do life alone. We make things happen alone. The the mind has this
understanding that we are these isolated little things, and that in order for things to happen
in our lives, we are doing them by ourselves. And that's not true. That's very misguided.
So when you decide to do something new, when your soul is pulling you to try something new,
to expand more, you are, you are always, always assisted. The universe loves you so much.
(09:48): You live in a benevolent universe
that is always doing everything to help you. So when you step forward, the universe will step
towards you also and provide synchronicities and guidance and signs and, and assistance from other
people and other circumstances that happen. So you're always guided and you're always loved. And
the more that you remember that even if you have to meditate on it, sit down, breathe in. And even
if you have to say to yourself, I am loved and guided always by the universe, that's also gonna
bring a sense of calm to your body because you are not in this alone. Nothing that you do down here,
you are alone in doing it. And the more that you understand this guidance and this help that you
get from the universe, the more that fear of failure is gonna start to diminish. The third
thing is to take one little step at a time. (10:33):
Oh, I'm such a fan of this tip, because a lot of times what happens is that fear of failure again,
is that downward spiraling energy, and it can literally make you feel depressed and stuck on
the couch like I was. And, and when that energy is stagnant, it's so heavy that sometimes it can
feel like a herculean effort to get off that couch and start to do something. But here's the trick,
spiritual trick here. If you just take one tiny little step, that one tiny little step
will open up energy. That's, that's how spiritual teachers and alchemists talk about this. When you
take one little action, when the energy is stagnant and you just take one little step,
the energy in front of you opens up, and that means that the next step becomes easier,
and then the next step becomes easier because the energy opens up, it starts to circulate.
(11:21): You break through that stagnation,
and it means that every action that you take, every decision that you make afterwards, every
step that you take afterwards, it gets easier and easier and easier. So if you just start with one
little step, so in my example, just getting up off the couch, , turning the TV off, stop
watching Netflix, getting up off the couch and saying to myself, no, I'm gonna take one little
step. That little step, getting up off the couch was one little step, and then the other, and then
the other, and then the other. And, and you know, that fear of failure pretty much disappeared in
this area for me, me, okay? Now, this is something that you could do too, one little step at a time.
So if you feel stagnant right now, if you feel like you're in this, in this spiraling thing
of fear of failure, think about what's the tiny little step that you can take next that can open
up the energy for you to get out of that rut. (12:09):
Now, here's a little warning. Even with all the healing work that you do and that I outlined
here in this video, the fear of failure may not disappear completely. And that's because
biological drives are sometimes really difficult to get rid of completely. But that's okay. You
don't have to aim for no fear at all. But what's important is that you just have the awareness. You
heal what you can heal, and then you have the awareness that if or when the fear of failure
comes up, you are just very aware of it, and you no longer let that fear of failure hold you back.
That is the key. The key isn't really that the fear of failure disappears completely. The key
is that if and when a fear of failure comes up, you're very aware of it, and you just don't let
that fear hold you back from the things that you are meant to do in this world, and you are meant
to do amazing things. Now, I know that being sick is what led me to go into this downward spiral of
insecurity and fear of failure, but it wasn't all bad. I did learn three important spiritual
lessons when I was sick, and these spiritual lessons can help you prevent a burnout. Also,
check out those spiritual lessons here in this video so you can stay healthy and keep on going
without burning out like I did. (13:25):
I'm so sabotaging.