(cards shuffling)
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- What are you hesitant to tell me?
Oh boy.
What am I hesitant to tell you?
I guess that,
I really have to think about this,
but if you wanna answer first, oh God that'd be great.
(chuckles)
- [Luna] How have we changed the most
since the last time we were here?
- Well the most obvious is we're in a relationship now.
(laughs loudly)
- Yeah that's pretty like-- - So that's,
that's fun, more intimate.
- Yeah.
- More trusting of each other,
closer and more aware of each other.
Yeah.
What is a memory we created over the past couple of months
you never want to forget?
- Probably like, what was it like June, something like that,
but like one of like the first, like the second nights,
that like you slept over and like we couldn't fall asleep,
( chuckles) at school we were just like
fucking looking at each other.
Like, yeah.
(chuckles)
- Can I answer that question?
- Go.
- It's gonna be very simple.
The laundry room.
- Oh yeah the laundry room.
- Yeah that was a good one.
- Yep.
- Not gonna (chuckles)
Not gonna forget that.
- What do you think I need most from you
and are you providing it?
- Tricky question, don't know how you're gonna receive
my answer, but a certain type of understanding,
you know, something sticks out in my head that you told me
a few years back and I've like, I've never forgotten it
because it just like stuck out to me.
And you said that it's hard for you to be in a room full
of people whose energy don't match at that moment.
- Yeah, I remember.
- Yeah. - Wait, I said that to you?
- You said that to me.
- About you?
- And then I said, I agree, and same thing for me.
- Okay
- You said sometimes my energy is just not,
it doesn't equate to other people's energy
and it's hard for me to be around that energy, you know
and I feel like I try to give you that.
- Yeah you do.
- Like when you're feeling low energy or down,
I try my best regardless of where my energy
or like my head's at to be in a state where like
you feel like you don't have to jump up to reach me
and I'm trying to give it to you more.
- Yeah, no honestly I'd say that you like, you always have.
- Thanks.
- Yeah I can say that confidently.
- Thanks.
I appreciate that.
(chuckles)
That acknowledgement I appreciate that.
You answer the question.
(sighs)
- Patience, maybe.
I feel like you need a lot of like patience from me.
And I feel like I've gotten better with providing it
as I understand more, but I definitely still am not like
at the level where I wanna be you know,
I do try though I try really hard.
- I know, I see it.
- And yeah, I feel like that's.
- You're the most patient person that I have right now.
So-- - Thank you.
I want you to know that.
You put up with a lot and you're very patient about it.
- I don't feel like I put up a lot, I feel like I don't
understand a lot, you know.
- Maybe so but,
that lack of understanding doesn't make you
react negatively.
And so in that sense you're very patient about it.
Yeah.
What am I always carrying that I should let go of?
- I see your relationship with your dad.
- Oh boy.
(laughs loudly)
- And it just reminds me of my relationship with mine.
And like over the years of being like around him so much,
I've just, I don't want you to hold on to like any kind
of like emotions that would, are not gonna like help you
but-- - For a minute I thought
you were gonna say I should just let go of my dad.
(chuckles)
- No.
- I was gonna say yeah, it's a good idea.
- Oh God.
Yeah I know, I just don't want anything to like eat you up,
you know?
- Yeah but that one's tricky.
- Yeah that's what I'm saying you know, everyone processes
things at you know, their own speed and I think that
the way that you're handling it is pretty well.
- Yeah.
(chuckles)
Okay.
- What do I do that turns you on I'm not aware of?
- Can you go first?
- No.
- Please.
- No, your question.
- I think that, like (chuckles) my favorite thing is
to watch you have a conversation passionately with somebody
else, and like the way that you stand when you're like
thinking about something and you're about to like,
make a point or like say something, you like do this thing
where you like put your arms like this and you're like,
absorbing it and you go like that, and then you go like this
and you point at the person.
- I point at the person?
- Yeah.
- Why?
- And then you like start speaking.
I don't know, it's just like your intelligence is,
it's sexy to me I don't know I love it.
- Thank you.
- When have you seen me the most vulnerable
and what have you learned from it?
- Maybe like the end of November.
Yeah.
It was really enlightening.
It was really like,
I know like what I have to do.
You know.
- And what is that?
- I had to be patient, I think that was the thing that was
most asked of me.
Not by you but--
- By the circumstance.
- Yeah.
And
yeah, I think it was the easiest thing that I've done
to be honest, like, I didn't think about it
and I didn't really want to think about it like you,
I think usually you're so strong and grounded
and you know, you know, you just know, you know things.
(chuckles)
But this was very different and it caught me off guard
and I noticed it immediately.
And that was very like, that communicated a lot.
- It was hard to be away from you for so long.
- Yeah, that was really hard.
It was very strange.
- It was seeing you under those circumstances.
- Hmm.
- But,
I didn't take for granted that you like took
the effort to come see me and talk to me every day
on that stupid phone.
I think that
you,
kind of sticking by me through that,
cemented certain things for me.
Cause I was like terrified that you're gonna think that
like you were riding on the crazy train,
like into crazy town and (chuckles) you wanna take the train
all the way back out.
- No,
no, you know, no, no.
- Thank you.
- Yeah, you don't have to thank me it's like.
What does my love feel like?
- There was this day that surprisingly I was with my dad
and he had a friend who owned horses,
and there was this one horse that I liked in particular.
It was like a black and gray horse
and the friend let me ride the horse without a saddle.
So I was just like holding onto the horse's mane while
my dad was holding onto the horses mane like running
next to me and like as a kid, it was like really
like freeing and like my lungs felt like they were
wide open, my diaphragm felt like it was wide open
and I was getting all the fresh air that I possibly could
all at once, like running through this giant,
giant field on this horse.
And
that's what it feels like.
But also the horse was afraid of mud
and-- (chuckles)
we came to a mud pile and the horse stopped short
and I went flying off the horse into the mud
and it feels like that too.
- Oh God.
(laughs loudly)
- It feels like both.
- Gabby you're wild.
- But mostly the first one, sometimes the second one.
(chuckles)
- That's fair.
Yeah.
- You just feel like I can breathe.
- Thank you.
- How do you love me?
- There's like something about you that's really,
it just reminds me of being human and like,
but like the most beautiful part of being human
and like how that's expressed, you know,
like the nature of it, how it's expressed like through
the earth and like,
I think for that reason like, there's so many things
that I look at and like they just remind me of you,
you know, in like the best way.
And
yeah I feel like everything that I look at and I'm like,
wow, like that's how I love you, you know,
that sense of wonder is like,
it all kind of just leads back to you at some point.
- It's crazy,
I like, you know, like I have an obsession with the moon.
- Yeah.
- It's so just complete coincidence an obsession
with the moon and it's because it's like,
there's it's like I'm drawn to it, you know
and I don't know why.
I mean I do, but I don't.
Like I do but nobody can understand why you're drawn
to the things that like you're drawn to
when you're just drawn to them.
And,
that's how loving you feels, you know,
like how I love the moon.
And that's corny cause of your name, but.
- Forgiven.
- Yeah.
- Jayden here from The Skin Deep.
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