What do
Sam Harris
CGP Grey
Beethoven
Vincent van Gogh
and Charles Darwin have in common?
Besides the fact that their work has influenced millions of people
Every one of them suffered from tinnitus
The best way to describe Tinnitus for someone who is unfamiliar with it
is to imagine the sound of call of duty flashbangs.
Got it?
Now imagine hearing this nonstop 24/7
That’s what Tinnitus feels like.
There’s no cure for it.
And it is life wrecking.
So today
I’m gonna share my story with Tinnitus and explain
why I haven’t killed myself yet…
I was lying in bed, half-awake, and suddenly noticed a high-frequency noise in my ear.
I remember the moment distinctly.
Seven months have passed, and the ringing hasn’t stopped.
I want you to imagine a boy in his early 20s, who has a long beautiful life to live, and
out of nowhere comes this demon that annoys the hell of him.
What on earth did I do to deserve this curse?
I don’t expose my ears to loud noises.
I live a pretty normal life.
The science community is still trying to understand tinnitus
But it’s one of those tragic things that we have no cure for.
I could definitely see why people lose their hope and go suicidal from this.
I went through a similar phase also.
But sometimes I get so busy to the point where a few days pass without me paying attention
to that noise, and I forget that it’s actually there.
Other times, however, I feel like such a weak person for letting that tiny monster to ruin
my life.
People with severe injuries manage to overcome their problems, yet here I am.
Unable to enjoy life because of that noise because of that eeeee.
I start feeling bad about feeling bad; you know what I mean?
And the absolute worst part of it is when I go to sleep, and the room is mostly silence.
Humans hate losing control out of something.
With all that being said, I tend to be optimistic in general.
So I wanna end on a positive note.
To the person who is suffering, not just from Tinnitus, but from any illness out there,
you have every right to be angry, you have every right to be depressed.
But some say that in Hinduism the ultimate goal in life is to reduce suffering as much
as possible.
And when you keep worrying about the future with all of its problems, you suffer twice.
“What if this is permanent?
What if this gets worse?”
It’s a sure-fire recipe for unhappiness
The truth is that I don’t know how I’ll feel an hour from now, let alone next year.
Every time I worry about the future I reopen this video, it’s one of my favorites, it
helps me let go of everything and focus on the moment.
I prefer to keep these personal issues private.
But my goal was to let you know that everybody has their different weaknesses.
I used to look at people and assume that they’re blissfully getting on with life in perfect
health and perfect mental state—and this illusion worsens my suffering.
But if I look closer, I start to find that everybody has that physical or mental flaw
that’s bugging them.
So I decided to expose my personal issues also to tell the Internet, that I don’t
have a perfect life nor does everybody else.
Best thing we can do is to hang tight and hope for a cure.
Thanks for watching.