hi my name is Ashley I am 21 years old I
graduated college I live alone and I'm a
real adult now
or so that's what I've been told hey
guys it is Thursday morning and I'm
running a spicy four hours of sleep now
you might be wondering Ashley you have
all week to make your video you work for
yourself why are you so sleep-deprived
and that is due to a personal condition
that I don't talk about often called I'm
21 years old I have no idea what the
hell I'm doing I have no time management
skills whatsoever and I'm still running
on the all-nighter mentality that barely
got me through college so that's what my
life is like right now so today I
thought I would bring you guys along on
what I call my get your [ __ ] together
day this happens every week after I have
emerged from like my video haze up for
like four days just straight working on
my video and editing and ignoring all of
my other responsibilities I look up and
suddenly like my apartment is a mess
I am emails to answer I have adult
responsibilities to attend you I have
plans to water I have food to make like
all of this other adult thing stuff in
my life I have to take care of like
nobody warming how much entropy there is
an adult life like all of my stuff is
just like slowly defaulting to chaos and
it takes so much effort to like bring it
all back together so yeah this should be
a fun and productive although very
sleep-deprived day in my life I am gonna
make myself some pancakes because that
is literally the only food life that I
have in my apartment I'm gonna make my
favorite matcha oat milk latte like the
hipster la gal that I am also I just
require caffeine to get my brain started
and I'm gonna pin my bangs back which is
how you know I'm about to get into some
serious concentrated adult vote welcome
to my little home office corner
obviously the main part of my job that I
see is the videos I make and that is
100% of the post
part of my job but what you guys don't
see it's locked behind the scenes when
it comes to organizing all these extra
opportunities like I'm doing a Q&A on
youtubes instagrams tomorrow I also have
a big project it's launching very soon
which is exciting but also taking a lot
of like administrative work the first
thing I have to tackle right now is I
have a brand deal coming out in November
but right now we're starting they're
like planning and pre-production process
so I have to send the end of my selects
of all the products that I want to style
in the video I also have to send photos
of my apartment and ask my building
manager if we are allowed to film in my
apartment built in which fingers fruits
she says yes because otherwise I don't
really know what I'm gonna do also fun
fact that is all due in like 30 minutes
so if call it just Tommy anything it is
how to finish your assignment with an
aggressively short amount of time
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here's the most satisfying part when you
can close all of your tabs
ah I think I just haven't orgasm before
we move on to the rest of the day I want
to show you guys a quick look at how I
am at least attempting to organize my
life so as you might have noticed I have
this giant and monthly calendar which I
will link down below this is where I
keep all of my appointments and
deadlines I don't use Google Drive
because I am an old person and I'd like
to do things physically Oh recently I've
been trying to figure out a way to
motivate myself to do work more so I got
myself these colorful post-its and I've
been using them to write down all my
video ideas and when I should make
Instagram posts and even like things to
look forward to on the weekend something
about my brain really just likes being
able to see like a sticky note
physically represent a task that I have
to do and then when I'm done with the
task like when I do my Instagram post
which I'm trying to do twice a week but
I'm not being like super strict about it
I just like can peel it off and it feels
like I did something physical which is
nice because my job is like so digital
and sometimes I go from week to week I
don't even feel like I've done anything
because like there's no physical proof
that I did something which might be get
all online I also use this bullet
journal and I just write out on one side
all of my tasks that I want to get done
in a week I've organized it by big
things little things emails errands and
stuff to do later that isn't like an
urgent task for that week and then on
the other side I'll write out a schedule
for everything that I want to do in a
certain day to be honest I've been
really bad about actually using my
planner recently and planning out my
days I don't think I've done it in like
three weeks and I've just been like
pushing around in the space-time
continuum not sure what I should do at
any given point in time so today I want
to get back on schedule I'm gonna create
a rough weekly outline for myself and
what I should be doing every single day
fingers crossed that actually stick to
it this week and I'm also gonna update
some of these sticky notes because
anytime you get plans changed over Julie
I had an embroidery and TED talk day but
I think I'm gonna go to Malibu with my
friend so one of those sounds a lot more
exciting and it's definitely
embroidering in my own room and
listening to TED Talks but occasionally
sacrifices
okay so the that I've neglected to
mention so far is that every week after
I film my video I leave a joint in my
apartment and I don't stop to clean up
that nest until I'm done editing on
Thursday hence why my apartment looks
like this luckily this week I filmed a
sit down and cat video so my apartment
looks like it was only stressed by like
a category-2 hurricane and not a full on
clothing tsunami like it usually does
anyways I'm just gonna put on some music
which will then be covered up by
copyright free music because I've lost
like half of my Adsense due to copyright
strikes recently love that for me
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I got this from Emily recently by the
way they're like an ethical plus
sustainable company isn't this the
cutest jacket design you've ever seen it
has this little pocket and like one of
the pockets is on the inside for like
hiding snacks okay this is the most
hilarious dilemma I think anybody has
ever had basically the other day I got
this gigantic PR package from starbursts
it's literally like here let me get like
a here's a potato for scale do you see
that's like 50 potatoes worth of
starbursts I don't know what to do with
this much candy
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my camera currently is dirtier than my
mind when I'm on my period
does anybody else get like period horny
or is that just me and for some reason
recently I've been having a period every
like two weeks so I'm just alternating
between extremely horny and extremely
upset and horny
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birthdays are also my days for watering
my plants because as you guys may have
noticed I have a slight plant obsession
and bias like plant obsession I mean I
have like 50 [ __ ] plans in my
apartment I repotted besides recently
into these little thrift store
containers that I got like a dollar from
Goodwill I think that the most precious
thing I did put like pebbles at the
bottom but you have to be really careful
with how much you water them because
there obviously is not a drainage hole
which has killed many a plant in my day
like this one I just end up having to
get up there and take it down and then I
ran over the kitchen sink and I give it
a little plant bath
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and then I get shake it out and hang it
up over here and while I Drive I don't
know what he's about the bathroom but
this pen is [ __ ] thriving like oh
he's glowing what highlighter does she
use is that venti along my windowsill
I've been trying to route some new
plants so obviously you can see I have a
lot of photos I basically just cut off a
couple new leaves that are sprouting
from one of my existing poke those
plants and then I pop them in a kombucha
jar that I took the label off of like
the hipster la piece of trash that I am
my little baby plants are honestly
pretty self-sufficient because obviously
they have some more water than they
could ever ask for but at least what I
read online is that over time they
deplete the oxygen in the water so
around like every two weeks or so I'll
swap out the water just egg it out give
the news back and for my plans that are
getting a pretty intense root system
like this one I also pop in like half a
pump of plant food because it helps it
get like all the nutrients it needs to
grow all right
so my camera battery died while I was at
Trader Joe's so all I have are these
three shaky iPhone clips of bell peppers
but never fear Here I am back in the
kitchen where I belong ready to cook a
nice meal for me and my imaginary
husband
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today I'm gonna be cooking some good
old-fashioned beef and broccoli this is
what me and my mom would always make
when we were like feeling kind of lazy
and just wanting something quick to eat
which describes my situation perfectly
right now for all you you good good
moral vegan and vegetarian people I am
trying to eat less meat but there is
something strange to me about the fact
that this whole new environmentalist way
but overall I think of the great
influence is mostly like women enforcing
it on other women online like I have
never seen a comment on a male
influencers Instagram or YouTube asking
him to go vegan especially when it comes
to diets the burden is really put on
young woman which in combination with
like unhealthy body standards isn't
always the best combination I know you
can be vegan and like super healthy and
have great body image but it's kind of
like intertwine with this guilt that
will me not supposed to take up space
they're not supposed to take up
resources we're supposed to be tiny and
skinny and diminutive and feeling guilty
about what we eat is such a gender
specific thing
cutting ginger was the bane of my
existence as a child like how do you why
is it so nothing
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Gordon Ramsay I know you're out there
summary of judging my knife skills but
take it easy on me okay I'm like halfway
through mental breakdown the key to
cooking I've learned in my years of
corny experiences to just narrate it in
your head like Gordon Ramsay just almost
like a little time and just let it
drizzle out Oh
then just a drizzle this is awful I'm
putting my family to shame people always
ask me to do a British accent for my
dad's a British and like it's gotten
worse and worse over the years I
actually used to narrate every single
thing in my head in a British accent so
I could do a killer British accent back
then but now all my thoughts are
narrated by the donkey from Shrek
so no I'm getting my thoughts our own in
America now so my accent is awful do you
ever think about the fact that Gordon
Ramsay sounds like mildly orgasmic every
time he's talking about cooking like
man's is breathing heavy that's all I'm
saying
steak in the pen Oh secondhand well this
is just all the answers to mine we eat
in a secondhand here for the
Bobo didn't see there is this chilling
with roughly in my fence over yonder on
this side of the scope I'm gonna boil ow
[ __ ] hell I promise I'm not even
being dramatic for the video there's
literally just my own pan hating me
reminds me you guys ever have like I
think it's slide just cool into my nose
do you ever have is weird like house
white fantasy like I love my career I
love my independent I'm also absolutely
for what cooking as we now on though but
really sometimes I'm just like you know
what see nice to Merry Widow really rich
by and be able to spend all day choosing
outlines and just chillin in my mansion
in the hills maybe what I'm describing
it's just called being retired also
maybe that makes me about feminist in
reality I think I could have fun being a
housewife for us out like three months
before I went fully insane and started
having us there for work actually
enjoying soap operas and then I give
myself about a year and a half before I
went hold on girl and just decided to
frame my husband for murder because what
the hell am I supposed to do with my
free time and you guys wonder why I'm
single
okay honestly this is looking pretty
good right now I'm gonna take you guys
in for a sexy sexy close-up [ __ ] I just
realized I forgot to make the rice mmm
my mom would be so mad at me now if I
still lived at home
you have email
so I finished up my dinner and I am
headed to the park right now I've really
been making an effort to drag my ass out
of the apartment once every like four
days because otherwise like I will just
shrivel up and get in my depression hole
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it is just about sunset and I am at my
favorite little spot at the park yes
like an old person I used to put all
this pressure on myself to go to these
trendy coffee shops and pay like 750 for
a tiny mediocre matcha latte but
honestly this makes me a lot happier I'm
releasing my inner picnic [ __ ] there's
a dogs here sometimes and I don't think
I need to say anything else about this
Park there's dogs I'm just gonna wrap up
today doing a little bit of journaling
yeah like I used to think that having a
diary was so geeky and something that I
would never be into but over the past
month I've written this much in my
journal I think it's about 150 pages I
wanna say and it all honesty it has
really helped like recenter myself it's
helped me to think about my emotions a
lot I don't have like a therapist or
anything and I don't have a whole lot of
close friends out here it's nice to have
away on a daily basis to kind of debrief
all of my thoughts and like honestly
it's kind of it's not a guilty pleasure
but it is honestly something that I
really enjoy at this point it seems like
something indulgent almost to just be
able to sit down listen to my favorite
song and like write about my life I
don't know it's super fun that's how
we're gonna wrap up today I'm gonna
reflect on what happened today I guess
I'll give you guys like a little journal
preview you guys can be like my video
journal I suppose that is what a vlog is
really I had a good day today and I felt
pretty content with my life which is a
good feeling and not something that I
feel super often but I woke up today
really really anxious about my video
normally when I post my video I'll sit
at my computer for about like three
hours reloading the views and trying to
figure out whether I need to change the
thumbnail or title if it's
underperforming which is a little bit
hard because I never know which
thumbnail option is the right option and
I feel like no matter what I've chosen
the wrong option so I'm learning I'm
just letting that go though and just
letting the video be whatever happens
happens my girl talks video this week
thought slightly fewer views than no
but I'm really trying to get to the
point with my videos where I stopped
trying to put all this focus on the
views and I stopped trying to appeal to
a massive audience every single time
like at a basic level it seems like the
more views the more successful I am but
I think once you get to a certain point
more views can just equal more generic
or more quick ad content and I've never
liked click baited but I have made some
pretty like generic fashion videos
partially in an attempt to keep
outperforming my last video and yeah I'm
getting to a point where I would much
rather make something meaningful for
fewer people than something generic for
a lot of people I was really proud of my
video this week I made the video that I
wanted to make I had fun filming it and
I think the people who did watch it
enjoyed it so I don't know that's really
the most I can [ __ ] ask for I mean
that and like 10 million views but
that's not the YouTube world that we
live in anyways I am going to put those
thoughts on paper and more and I will
see you guys next week thank you guys so
much for watching this video as always
but
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