so i'm still on the waitlist for a class
i don't know how that's gonna go.
i find out
tonight or tomorrow morning.
so i'm kind of in a weird position.
i just wanna get in the class.
i even did the readings
i took notes on the readings
i'm that kind of person
i really want this class.
but also if i don't get it
i have backup options
it's honestly fine if i don't get it
there's interesting classes also to replace it.
but i really just-
let's see what happens i guess
this is technically the real first week of classes
last week i had
two days worth of classes because
it was only on wednesday and thursday
so this is my first full week and
i'm breaking out man i'm
look at that i never really had
something so big like right here it's always here
i know i have a lot of stuff here
which i'm used to because this is where
like all the gluten (that i consume) shows
i just washed my skin and all that
i did my night time routine and all that
when i study i need these glasses
i wear contact lenses just
so i look put together
but otherwise
studying's really hard with contact lenses
so i try to take off all my makeup as soon as possible
also if i don't take it off as soon as possible
i'll procrastinate taking my makeup off
then it'll be like 2 am
because i'm too tired.
i don't know i don't really mind her though
she's kinda cute she's like a little mole
right there
she's just there
nothing much i can do about it
i highly recommend not popping your pimples
no matter how much you want to do it
just let it go on its own, let it heal
i don't know the science behind it but
i just know that if i pop it on my own
there's just a huge scar and
it's just not worth it so i just let it stay there
and just let it do its thing, let it take its time.
also when i smile it's gone so
just gotta smile all the time i guess
even though i'm miserable
honestly i'll be better
once i find out what my waitlist situation is
i just don't
i don't like not knowing what's gonna happen.
i don't care if i'm off the waitlist
i don't care if i'm dropped from the class
i just want to know what happens
i'm tired of being at this in-between stage
i've never been waitlisted to this extent
it's always been like a waitlist,
and then eventually i get put into the class just because
it was like a hold, right? (right)
but this is the first time where i'm dealing with a waitlist
where there's literally only 5 seats left
and i have to beat out 25 other people
i've never dealt with anything like this
so i'm just trying to get through it
so i didn't film anything from this first day,
which is monday
but you know what i'm studying
it's a chill time
it's fine right now
this has been the longest week of my life
all my makeup is probably gone now
i've been up since 6 am
and it's 7 (pm) right now.
so i'm just-
thursday is the last day of school for the week
for me
so once my last class finishes
i just wanna go home
overall a lot of stuff happens
on your first week of college
whether it's your first year
or it's your fourth year
it's always going to be crazy
on monday i was still waitlisted for a class
so i was still showing up to a class
that i was waitlisted for
and now it's thursday
and i'm enrolled in a class
that i didn't think i was gonna take until next semester
so a lot happened this week
and i'm just like
emotionally, physically, mentally drained
i'm really really glad that i got into this class
I
don't know what to expect from it
but other than that i am finally enrolled in 4 classes
and now i just have to take 4 classes next semester
and hopefully that's it
UMMM
i just hope it doesn't
go badly
in the beginning of the week i was kind of upset
and shook
and just confused about what i was going to do
i just wanted to be added from the waitlist
so i was scrambling to find another class
everything works out in the end
i even complained about it on instagram
and you guys were like
no you can do it!
find another class!
good luck!
that kind of stuff
and y'all are right
there's always just that moment where i'm freaking out
where i think nothing's going well
but then i remember
somehow in some way i always get through it
i'm 20, and i've gotten through
every single thing i've been anxious about
every single thing i've complained about
all those things, i got through it, so
it's just
there's always that period of time
where i need to freak out
i don't know why
because i know something's going to come after this
but
i always just need to let out my fears and all that
the first day
and then over time
everything gets resolved
this week was honestly too much
i don't know if i'm ever going to deal with a waitlist
ever again
if i get waitlisted for a class i'm dropping it
because-
i was literally competing with 25 people
for 5 spots. i don't-
i was really counting on it.
but it didn't work out
hopefully next semester it all goes more smoothly
because i need to get out of here
on time
but yea that was my week of college
i am honestly
so tired, i am going to rest
this weekend, actually nO
i can't even rest
because i have to read like
200 pages worth of stuff
in its entirety
for my classes
i'll be okay, i'll be okay
this week went by
another week's going to go by
i'm going to be okay
i'm going to freak out obviously but i'm going to be okay
i'm going to
probably want to scream
and i'm probably going to want to punch something
but i'll be okay in the end
it's not the end of the world if something bad happens
i always find another way.
anyway that is it for this video
i'm gonna go
i'm gonna go rest
i hope you enjoyed this week with me
and i will see you in my next video
bring it in for a hug
i'm a little sweaty but it's fine
bYE BYE! :')