I became a vegan back in September 2017 although I told everyone that it was
this ethical argument and I really wanted to save the planet and the
animals it was I'd say at least subconsciously
part of my eating disorder weight-loss yeah favorite food naturally lentil
Bolognese which is like really healthy and boring but it's okay before I became
ill I used to love cooking I did it as a GCSE actually when I was at the worst of
my eating I definitely didn't eat this sort of thing
I was scared of lots of different ingredients kind of see it's almost like
self-care now because I never used to do it and now I'm like no you need to
actually like cook yourself a meal because otherwise you'll feel rubbish
and it will just set you back I was diagnosed with anorexia in June 2016 but
I've always had kind of food issues I can go one on my first diet when I was
11 I'd watched loads of documentaries and vloggers and stuff like going vegan
I think with every dietary decision I made up until recently it was all about
weight loss it was all about trying to be the smallest version of myself
vegan fits very vegan inspo i already followed a load of fitness wellness
bloggers slowly a lot of them went vegan and so I found myself consumed by this
constant vegan messaging on Instagram in began Yuri were not super going vegan
there's people out there who are doing it completely for the right reasons
veganism is a lifestyle it's not a fickle lifestyle it didn't even cross my
mind that it could be a problem
I think I don't I think I'm not being I'm just like my mental state while I
was vegan was pretty horrendous I think the problem with anorexia is that it
kind of shuts off the nut rational side of your brain the vegan lifestyle that
I'd adopted wasn't right for me in it and I was in denial about it for a long
time I think and it wasn't until my parents kind of sat me down and they're
like look you've lost all this way and we're worried about you
and that was what kind of made me think and perhaps this isn't the right diet
for me I look back at that former version of myself and I just feel sorry
for her I think you're supposed to enjoy food and it's such a miserable existence
and it's really sad my relationship with food is the best it's been in about
three years I kind of coins the 10th league and I was like it's kind of like
flexitarian flexible vegan I'm seeing an eating disorder therapist at the
University at the moment but I'm a lot better than he used to be but the rules
are definitely still there I'd say if you've had an eating disorder especially
a restrictive one fair enough comes to veganism when you're recovered and
you're in a good place with food I'm not saying that veganism is a negative way
to eat it's a sustainable lifestyle but that's not necessarily one that people
with eating disorders should adopt