they were older than me and I was like what the Frick are we watching why are
you guys closing the curtains where he goes locking the doors what's happening
and I was so scared and then I got to see well a naked woman and I freaked the
eff out I was like what is this yogurt
so guys welcome back to the channel if you don't know already my name is Jeff
kidding I make a lot of videos in regards to no FAP that's probably why
you're cleaning on this video right here but also I make some fitness videos and
some kind of camasta videos and some mindset videos so you know what just all
in all like and subscribe so before we go any further I need to give a huge
ginormous thank you and shout out to survival dude alright cuz he suggested
that my next video be about my first time fapping alright so where to start
you know funny thing I actually have my first time fapping on video so let's
watch that right now I'm kidding don't worry guys I'm not gonna show you guys
playing with a Vienna sausage alright haha okay so my first time fapping was
in a sixth-grade okay one of the things is that I was actually watching porn
before I even fat all right so example being I first saw porn from my cousin
but cousin actually showed it to me when we went to his friend's house they were
older than me and I was like what the Frick are we watching why are you guys
closing the curtains where you guys locking the doors what's happening and I
was so scared and then I got to see well a naked woman and another woman TV I'm
like wired two women doing that what I don't understand it but that was my
first time watching it okay so fast-forward that sparked my curiosity I
was like wow naked women is actually fun to look at
it was honestly the naked man part that kind of grossed me out I was like what
the Frick what do I want to see you guys balls you know what I'm saying but when
I saw a guy and a woman I'm like whoa that could be me and I got started my
whole dream of becoming a porn star just kidding that never happens but I started
to really be more curious on watching adult material okay so whatever a
parents would leave the house I would start I would actually actually I would
like try to look at my dad's cover and steal some VHS is and watch it
imagine the life the life of a millennial before technology all right
we had VHS back then guys that's what porn was on so I'll be watching VHS is
and then one day after school sixth grade I was home alone alright I think
my dad went to drop off my sister and her friend to some school thing they're
like six years older than me which is kind of ironic that this happened in
sixth grade you know the number six anyways so they left close the curtains
and I was watching one of the VHS is that I was so accustomed to watching all
right and keep in mind like this is VHS back then this was before the whole
internet boom alright so watching the same material watching the same scene
watching the same again watching the same same thing if you will still turn
me on I had a lack of variety to watch so just
this one video that I was watching it it was enough to get me excited every
single time I watched it so this day for some reason I was playing with my well I
was basically playing with myself it never happened before but for some
reason I was curious okay I was curious it's like you know what what if I
started rubbing my boner this is so awkward to talk about anyways I started
rubbing it and I was like yeah this kind of feels good even though I didn't
really understand what I was doing while I was doing it
can you guys relate to this comment down below because this is depressing the
shit out of me and it's kind of weird to talk about especially if my family sees
it they're gonna make that's why he closed the curtains in this room okay
whatever Here I am I'm not even I'm going raw all right guys I'm not even
using any lotion or anything like that I don't even know what I was doing I was
sick this feels kind of nice let me just keep on going with it and watch what I'm
watching so I just I just going with it you know what I mean I'm like yeah
whatever let's just see where this leaves it feels good it felt like like
it didn't feel like I was reaching anything it just felt good at the moment
just like scratching an itch like yeah just scratch my itch it's
feels nice except scratching it till the itch goes away but I just was I kept on
scratching at my balls and my dick I just kept I just kept doing what I was
doing I was stroking and out of nowhere I'm like whoa where's a feeling like
that and then I splashed on myself and I freaked the F out I was like what is
this yogurt I didn't think that I didn't even know it was sperm all right I
thought I peed myself I thought it was a D formality in myself
I thought I peed out some type of weird liquid and I needed to see the doctor
all right and part of the reason was because I
just I didn't though nobody told me that hey if he jerk off if you rub your penis
you're gonna secrete sperm nobody taught me that all right
sixth grade didn't have six Edie I don't think I don't remember you know what
that just shows that I I didn't learn shit in sixth grade about sex ed okay
because I didn't know it I did I was so confused dude I was confused with did
you did you guys get confused did you guys get freaked out when you first
jerked off like I seriously thought I had to go to the doctor I'm such a
hypochondriac all right so that happened clean myself off I tried to act like it
was nothing and then I actually did the same shit the same day like I just all I
know I'll I knew was that it felt good that I was like hey let's see if we can
do that again so later that night I think I guess after after I ate some
pineapples just kidding later that night I was I think I was in the bathroom
because my parents are home selves in the bathroom and I was like let's see if
I can have fun scratching that itch again so it happened I was in the
bathroom and as you know what it happens again and I'm like yeah this is and keep
in mind I went raw again I didn't do I did nobody told me about using lotion or
Astroglide or jerking off into a sock I just straight up
Boosh and one of the things that confused me was that well it didn't
confuse me but one of the things I was thinking about is like wow I'm not
shooting as much sperm as the guys in the videos that's what I was thinking I
was like why don't I have as much but at the same time it also made me feel like
a man oddly enough it made me feel like I was
an adult now you know what I mean after jerking off for the first time I felt
like come on real world I am ready for you okay and I just felt I could
literally feel my balls getting bigger and my beard just growing no that didn't
happen either but I just I did feel more more manly after that it
felt like this like I have the power now to have sex with a woman impregnate a
woman and have a kid I felt grown up I felt adult ish and I'm pretty sure a lot
of you guys feel that and honestly I feel like that's why a lot of us guys
continue to do so watching porn masturbating supporting a good it gives
us a validation that I'm no longer a boy and I am now a man I now have the
physical attributes to call myself a man I can get a boner I could potentially
satisfy a woman after brains out of her and make her scream my name and feel
validated by doing so obviously you guys know that I'm against that I do not
think that F finger girl's brains out is the way to masculinity
I think masculinity is found in bettering yourself becoming a man who
was able to provide for himself and his future wife and also for his future
children if that's what your marriage needs to more of that later integrity
and all that other JibJab about masculinity more on that later subscribe
subscribe but that's how I felt and again man like I really feel like that's
part of the retied just realized that right now that's definitely part of the
reason why a lot of guys jerk off because it validates them and makes them
feel manly but not knowing that conditioning your brain to be only
satisfied through that means is gonna disrupt the way you interact with women
or interact with the woman that you love in the future so don't
all right so continue on that's my first experience the first day I jerked off
twice I was freaked out I felt like what am I not shooting enough sperm here the
videos show a lot more I also felt a little little insecure that my tingling
was not a freakin a freakin a well up like the videos in orem saying which is
part of the reason why porn is bad it just gives you guys insecurity and
performance anxiety but anyways the effed up thing was that I told my sister
about what I did and you know what she did this very same hour she's like hah
hah hah hah hah hah hah hah hah hah her friend was laughing at me and they go
and tell my dad that I fucking jerk tits and then my dad is like oh it's normal
it's normal it's normal yeah yeah it's normal I guess but and
it's awkward to talk about family you know what I mean well as you get older
you kind of realized that it's not that embarrassing because it's a way of life
all right Anatomy human body women has boobs guys have ding-a-lings and women
are vaginas and guys has balls all right my lesson for you guys is that whether
if you're watching this and you never jerked off before yeah try it out it's a
normal way of life but be precautious if you are gonna continue doing so watching
porn porn is bad what is very bad um also if you guys relate to this video
comment down below because I do not want to be the only guy who is embarrassed
about his first time jerking off story okay so yeah can you get to relate to
this video comment down below if you guys are on no FAP come down below you
get to brag about your streak of how long you've been on no strap down below
no strap put no strap off you get to brag about how long you've been on no
FAP down below so let's build a community here guys fab stir knots
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support each other and motivate each other again that's what I want to try
not to be more about motivate you guys to become the better man that you're
meant to be guys thank you so much for your time remember whatever struggles
you are going through is all uphill from here so thanks for tuning in as always
god bless you guys and have a blessed day ever
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