welcome back in today's video I'm gonna do something haven't done in a long time
which is just sit here and talk to you give you guys a couple updates of stuff
that's going on in my life without me saying um too much hopefully so I did I
went to the hospital yesterday and we just kind of checkup how my brain is
doing has been doing since my accident I did an MMS II which is a it stands for
mini-mental State Examination which I scored a seventeen which is good I think
because I'm I might pop up on the screen the scale it gauges your cognitive
functioning which zero turn on is not good ten to nineteen is middle stage
moderate twenty-two twenty-three is mild cognitive impairment and twenty four to
thirty is normal range I scored a seventeen which is honestly a
lot better than it was so that tells me that my TBI and my cognitive functions
is it's increasing it's getting better I do have to go start back to physical
therapy for my leg because my leg was injured in the accident and it seems to
not be getting any better it wasn't as bad and I think it's because I was
working out more I was doing my best to do stretches and stuff but since this
year's been a really difficult year so I got extremely stressed out and I don't
know I just it stopped going to the gym as much
which I'm not not going to stop because I've always went to the gym and it's
been something that makes me a lot more happy so I got to start that back so
physical therapy starts I think next week sometime so that's going to be
interesting let's talk about the year I've had so far it's not very it's not
it's not been the best year but I'm a big believer on turning negatives into
positives which is what we've always done if you've been a watcher for this
channel for very long anytime something anytime we're faced
with something that's just it seems insurmountable we overcome and that's a
big message that I like to talk about here because we focus on turning our
negatives into positives there's a big reason for that goes into positive
thinking Law of Attraction a bunch of other things that you've heard me talk
about before on this channel talk about it a little bit now because well first
of all how's everybody doing out there it's been a good minute since we've got
to sit down like this but I do want to take the time to tell you guys that I am
very very very very grateful for you and everybody that that watches my videos
and everybody that finds something in my videos that helps them I noticed that a
lot of people have been in the comments section and on discord it they've been
not feeling great they've been talking more negative and I want to talk about
that it takes practice a lot of people I tell them I'm like what are you what are
you practicing they say things to me like they can't help to be negative
because all these things are happening in their life and I understand that to a
degree because like I said I've not had the best year so whatever you're
thinking you're also practicing practice feeling good about yourself practice
telling yourself good affirmations like I am beautiful and I am confident and
just things like that know that my sin silly but it really helps out and goes a
long way I've compared it to learning how to play an
instrument like if you're learning how to play guitar or something like that
you're practicing that and when you first start are you good at it probably
not not as good as you'd like to be but you do get better and a lot of people
don't understand that that is that goes the same way with practice and things
like compassion positivity just being happy in general you're not gonna be
good at it at first and it might be some kind of bizarre concept to you but
that's the case if you sit there and you think that your your that's right Greg
you guys gotta listen to Greg if you sit there and you think that you're
worthless and get you're nothing you were actually practicing that and
that muscle in your head is gonna build and build and build and then you're just
gonna be really sad I know a lot of people are bound by different things but
everything starts in here and if I can stay positive then you can stay positive
and I have you you have me we can help each other we just want to talk about my
hair I was wanting to grow out my natural hair color cuz the bleached part
is like so damaged I was afraid if I can't bleach in it it was just gonna
like fall out but I I don't like the way that it's cut I feel like the layers are
all messed up I've had a series of just awful horrible
fascinatingly disturbing haircuts and whatever hair grows back but I don't
like the state that my hairs in it I just kind of feel like I just want to
shape the whole thing off at this point I don't know what to do with it I do
want to put some colors in it but I'm afraid it's too damaged we we were about
right here on the natural hair out but mainly I just wanted to ask you guys
what you thought what do you think I should do tomorrow I have to go to the
hospital that's why I'm doing this video I don't have time to do a proper video
and I'm trying to get back to daily uploads because I miss doing them and I
think it's since making videos makes me have makes me feel better I feel like
that's probably what I need to get back into and then I got it back in the gym
gotta do I got a I don't want to do these things
I need to get back in there I cannot just not do the things that are required
of me or just push those things to the side my therapist told me and this is a
really good thing I can share with you guys and it because it's really helpful
so he gives me an imaginary hat so I take the Hat and I put it on and then he
says to me everything under that hat is something that you can control and
everything outside of the Hat is out of your control
very simple enough then he goes on to talk about false emotions and things
that are ultimately out of my control maybe some things that I've I have guilt
for that are consequently really not my fault a good example is there are people
in my family that I feel like their life situation is not as good as I would like
it to be for them and that is something that's outside the Hat I want to help
them I've worked very hard in in my career to be able to be in a position
that I can help them and not just them but other people but I have a certain
amount of guilt because I've put so much time into what I'm doing here that I
feel like if I was a part more of a part of their life more of an influence then
their lives would be a little bit better and that is outside of the Hat that is
not something I can control and it's called I think he said it was a false
emotion which is was really profound me because I never thought of it like that
so I have this guilt because I wasn't there but the thing about it is is the
decisions that they have made the decisions that we've all made have led
us to the point that we are in life I can't control their thoughts and their
actions I can only control me and that is a powerful powerful message
when you start trying to go outside of the Hat and trying to control these
other things that's where you're gonna get anxiety depression and all these
things like that in I'm not a licensed mental health expert or anything like
that but this is coming from somebody that is licensed in middle health and
you know everybody's different so keep that in mind but lastly I'm here for you
guys and I'm not going anywhere
things have been rough we'll bond those within those rough things the best
qualities the best parts and we'll focus and emphasize on that and we'll build on
that because that's what we do here so if you guys need me you know how to
reach out to me you can reach out to me on Instagram the dot represent Witter at
Zillah rage any way you want to get ahold of me that's easiest for you I'm
here for you working on a conspiracy video you might have it out tomorrow
and if you have any suggestions for that just let me know below I'm also going to
do the sub Sunday next Sunday so I will take a suggestion and it doesn't matter
what it is just gonna pick one and we're just gonna roll with it which should be
exciting so I'll see you in the next video