my grades are out
hi everyone my name is caroline i am a first-year law student at the university of michigan i just
started my second semester at law school and today grades from first semester came out so i'm going
to be opening them and reacting to them on camera they actually came out about two hours ago right
as i was starting my class like my two hour class so i couldn't open them in class because like
obviously i wanted to record it and second of all like i whatever reaction i want to have i
don't want to be having it in class so i had to go through two hours of class with no idea what i
got but knowing that my marks were there so it's been it's been a lot, also this week in general
has been crazy i am vlogging though so make sure to keep an eye out for my first week back
video! but yeah so before we open it i'm really nervous i these marks took so long
to come out i finished the dams like december 20th like before that it's been a full month and
it's actually kind of really frustrating because i need my marks to apply to jobs so this so the
fact that it's taking this long-term puts me at a disadvantage when i'm applying to jobs
but it's fine they're out now we're gonna open them i'm so nervous i got like we were told that
they would come up for the 22nd today's the 21st and so as it got closer and closer to the 22 my
anxiety just got worse and worse it's the point where last night there was a rumor going around
all the 1Ls that they would come out today i like physically felt sick i was that anxious
it's just like and the thing is because with law school exams you have no idea what to
expect because not only are you doing that kind of exam for the first time i have like literally no
idea how i did i could have done really well for even badly but because you're graded on a curve
how you do depends on how everyone else does so i have no idea how everyone else did like these are
all smart people they all go to michigan while of course they're all probably gonna do well so
i'm like terrified like i'm physically nauseous i'm so scared yeah but okay but enough talking
let's get to the marks i really need high marks because i feel like just the pressure is higher
because like i have nothing to fall back on i have an undergraduate degree which everyone has
like little work experience it's just i need good grades also i had no idea that in the u.s
a b is in the 80s in canada like if you get from an 80 to 85 that's an a minus that's a 3.7
here like in 80 that's a 3.3 that's like a b it which is nuts to me like oh my god anyway so i
had to get used to that curve but yeah alright so i have my laptop i have the page open in a tab
um i'm just going to log in and see what happens i like i feel sick i feel like i'm going
to be sick like does your anxiety just get so bad that you just feel
it in your chest like i feel like i cannot breathe oh my god all right how do i check
all right okay grades let me log in view final grades uh
i've never been this nervous about grades in my life like never in undergrad
oh my god oh my god
oh my god all right i oh my god i'm like crying i'm like y'all think i'm like okay i'm like
not really crying but like my eyes are watery um like i'm sure you guys think i'm like overreacting
but i've i'm not even like playing this up i've never felt this much anxiety in my life
like you're not even applying a lot stroke but i've never had so much writing on these marks
i've never oh my god i'm like kind of overwhelmed um these okay i'm not going to
give you exact numbers or grades but i'm going to say that i stored
above average i oh our mission law curves to a 3.3 which is a b plus that's the curve so
on the median is that's what most people get um i'm gonna say that generally i came out above
oh my god i feel just so much relief i think the reason i was so anxious as i was saying before
this was because i've never had so much writing on this your first remarks not only dictate
your first year employment it did save your second year employment like your second year your
two-hour job and your two-hour job did takes your postgraduate job like your oci is going to tl that
that's these grades and yes i just want to point out like grades are not everything you are so much
more than your grades i'm sure we've all like i think i've gotten like 20 different emails in the
past month telling me that i'm not my grades and i understand that and i don't think that people
who did poorly this semester are not smart and i don't think that they didn't put the effort in
like i think doing well in law school requires such a specific way of preparing and thinking that
doesn't necessarily translate to success in the real world but um this is how wall street has
chosen to define success through grades and as much as lost wasn't to tell me that grades don't
matter of course they matter otherwise why would you be giving them to me you know i mean so like
as much as i would like for schools to just toss away grades or make it less stressful but like
it's always a good feeling to get decent grades i oh my god i'm like like i'm like am i seeing this
wrong like my gpa going to michigan is below their median so that means out of everyone who goes the
law still here academically i didn't do as well in undergrad as the majority of people here so i was
really worried that that was going to translate into meaning that i'm not going to do as well
in law school like i was terrified and lost is so expensive like it's like it's just it can just be
really hard there's just all these things in the background mine are like okay like i know grades
aren't everything but like they're they're a lot um anyways that's just me rambling for
seven minutes about my grades oh my god i need to call my mom i can call my parents something
michigan does differently is in most hospitals you have class rankings so you know how well you did
in terms of holy sh oh yeah so everyone is ranked and lost like that's why you know when people are
like oh i finished half of my class but in michigan they don't tell you you're ranking
until you graduate so i don't really know how i did amongst my peers um necessarily like that i'm
sure that they will release class like medians as well as distributions and when they do i'll
share that information with you guys i'm a lot more comfortable sharing that because
that like doesn't specifically kind of just give away what i have it's just more like general data
um but yeah i will share that um but yeah so wow i i have so much reading to do
um but this is a welcome relief it's been a crazy semester last semester
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