Hi everyone, welcome back to Joan day today's episode is going to be very different
It is not going to be counted towards the hundred episodes that I plan on uploading for season two
If you didn't know I uploaded
365 last year this time. I wanted to focus on 100 episodes
But that is because I was editing right now and I just don't want to upload this vlog
Let's start with what I have been up to this week
I attended a lot of events
Because Fashion Week in Seoul is coming up very soon
a lot of these designers have been inviting me to their showrooms and I also
attended events with Miu Miu and Hermes which was a big deal for me because there are two luxury brands that I
Always like admired and for them to invite me I felt so honored and I had a blast there was champagne
wine so much good food, and I just enjoyed that event and
After that, of course, I kept vlogging. I went to radio I
Went to some meetings met up with friends for coffee. And as you guys can see I did vlog
However, I'm editing and I just don't want to press upload
because last week
I uploaded a blog titled YG
entertainment pizza restaurant and a lot of you guys like wrote really positive comments and
Talked about how you guys missed that style of vlogging and at first I didn't think anything of it
But I've been meeting up with Uni unnie quite often
You guys might have seen her on my Instagram and I actually met her out in the event a couple months ago and she came
Up to me and told me that she's a huge fan of the Joan Day Vlog's
And I was really shocked because I don't have a lot of Korean viewers
but she was like telling me that she enjoyed it so so much and I
Got to know her recently and every time meet up with her
She tells me that she misses Joan Day 365 and of course every time she says that I say
You know joan day changed my life, but I don't think I can ever vlog every single day
this is mainly because I need my lazy days and I felt like when I was doing
365 my lazy days were also work days
Which is true because I would vlog like being at home
and I would edit at night and upload it still and she told me that she really
Liked that vibe and she kept bringing up like my recent episode were unfolding my towel
She was like, we really missed that and I was like really like oh
and I was really confused because for me season two, I wanted to focus on quality and
For me by quality Ament. Yes better like quality in terms of how the vlog looks
Rather than like six minutes logs
I really wanted to give you guys something longer cuz I did notice in the comment sections last year that you guys wished my blocks
Were longer so I wanted to focus on that and to I wanted to find better things to do than going to no--don't
All the time and as I was talking to her, I did realize that
Season two is definitely
More structured than before. There's less spontaneity, and I guess I did lose
the authentic touch from
season one
So that night I actually came back home and watched some of my older episodes and for me
It's really cringey and I get shocked by like my old hairstyles and things like that, but I did
Notice what she meant by how I looked happier in those blogs. I looked more carefree and
Oh my gosh
so
How do I probably do this in college? There's like this triangle. It's
Social life graves or sleep and you have to let go of one
So if you have social life and good grades
You probably don't get enough sleep if you want good grades and sleep
You probably don't have a social life and you get the idea but for Joan day it was
YouTube personal life or
Sleep and for me I chose to let go of the personal life Joan day
YouTube was my social life, but personally
Like I would only hang out with my family at home. I wasn't in a relationship
Like for the whole time, I did Joan day 365
I didn't go out drinking as often because I needed to come home by 11:00 p.m
To edit the vlogs. So in terms of personal life, I kind of lost it but I was so dedicated
to creating content for you guys every single day and
uh
It's like my mind is everywhere right now, I'm sorry
I'm like shaking right now because I'm like so nervous about like being this personal with you guys
But once I stopped daily vlogging
My lifestyle changed I spent more time with my family. I went on like trips with them without having to vlog it
I was in a relationship
and
Like I obviously went out for drinks more often than before although you probably
Can't see this change. I have been very
happy
But I feel like in my vlogs. I'm so focused on trying to make it fun
um going to these events finding new cafes and
Like I don't know like while I was editing this vlog
I just felt like it was just so structured and in comparison to the YG Entertainment
Pizza vlog
It was it's just like the format is so different and I can see what you guys meant by that
so I decided to not upload this vlog because I don't want to bore you guys with back-to-back events because
Even though it was fun for me to be there physically. It just might not be interesting to you guys
so
that's why I'm just gonna like let this one go and I promise to
upload an extra vlog like I'm gonna work really hard to get you three blocks next week because if I want to do vlogmas I
Have to finish 100 episodes by November. So I'm gonna try my best to keep uploading for you
But yes
that's like one of the reasons why I decided to not upload this flog and I just thought it would be
Appropriate for me to sit in front of the camera and talk to you guys
So something that has been on my mind I get a lot of comments
I do read them all I get a lot of comments about how I've
changed as a person and for me, I felt really offended when people wrote that because it seemed like
how are you gonna judge me when you haven't personally met me or talked to me in a deeper level and
I was offended because every time I visited my friends from home
They would always say John you have not changed
but the only thing that has changed is my lifestyle and I
never share about this because I hate pity but my
Friends know how hard I worked to get to where I am today
so
I'm sorry. I like I like don't cry on YouTube
I mean the last time I cry on YouTube was for John day 365 the final episode, but I
actually cried at the que con le
Panel called life in Korea and a subscriber asked us what the best memory
like our best memory
so there was Friday me Edward Grace and my brother and we all shared like
Our best memory in Korea and I couldn't answer that question because for me I moved to Korea with two suitcases
With my future being super uncertain in college
I applied to so many jobs. I went to so many interviews and
I was just so sick and tired of that
Lifestyle that I wanted to to Korea to just get my mind off of things
um, oh man, I don't want this to sound super like
Like I don't know like I don't want this to be like a sad vlog. Um
so in college, I found out that my
Like due to like shady people
um, our family actually went through bankruptcy and we like lost everything and so that's why
While I was studying I had to work two jobs, and I never asked my parents for money
Who okay, I'm sorry
I feel like there's gonna be so many cuts because I just don't want all the crying to show in this vlog
but I actually went through depression and I just felt super hopeless and
Um after I graduated I was working as an event planner, but I just was not happy
so, um, I did study education while I was in college and there were flyers about
Like talk which is teach and learning Korea. So I applied for that job and I decided to move here temporarily for one year and
it's not my port because
So much has changed
My family is no longer dealing with money problems because I'm able to provide for them
I'm able to buy things without feeling
jealous of people all the time
I'm able to help my sick extended family members because of
Everything that I'm doing now
um uploading ten vlogs changed my life because I'm
able to
Provide for people that I love
because back then I couldn't and we were all struggling I
Remember back in college I used to work for free
broadcasting stations because I just needed the experience I
Attended events for free. I just like did so much for free because I wanted to expand my
experiences on my resume and I don't oh
Sorry guys, I'm shaking and if it's like a lot of cuts, I just don't want to show the crying
but yeah, what I want to say is I
Started YouTube because I want to practice
Broadcasting I did it without making any money in the beginning and as I was doing YouTube and radio
when my youtube channel grew I was able to let one go and
Fully focus on the vlogs, so that's why I was able to upload ten videos a week
Which is crazy to me, and I'm so thankful that you guys
enjoyed that like to me
I'm like
Why would you watch me getting my nails done or why would you watch me like making a plant shelf or things like that?
And I was so amazed by
Your guys's support I get a lot of questions about what motivates me and to be honest in the beginning
It was for my family
It was for my family and
Later it became I was so thankful for the support you guys gave me because I was able to get out of that struggle
Because you guys watched my videos let nice comments like my videos like that
so I
want to thank you guys for
Being very understanding of me
growing with me and being patient with me and
I wanted to apologize for
For the change in the vlogging style because
To me what I thought was better
was obviously not
for some of you guys and
I want to apologize because I did hype up season 2 and some of you guys did leave comments saying where's the quality or
like this isn't better quality or
it's getting really repetitive things like that and I
and sorry for that and I feel like I need to
Upload this video before I upload episode 76. This is like we're 3/4 in
But like the next 25 episodes I'm going to try really hard to
kind of bring the
Feels back by doing more walking shots more popping shots. I don't know things like that because I
Know you guys enjoyed that and thank you for leaving such positive comments in that
vlog because if it wasn't for that, I don't think I would have
thought about
this change so
Thank you. Oh, I'm so warm right now. I
Don't know where I'm going with this
But I did want to give you guys this quick update before
uploading my next vlog because that just seems fair and
Some of you guys might be like, what are you talking about?
but I don't know my recent vlog the YG Entertainment Pizza vlog just
kind of changed my I
Don't know like yesterday
I also uploaded my empties video and so many of you guys missed that and I was like, wow, I
Started my channel with empties and so many of you guys
Wanted to watch empties and that style of videos on my main channel
sorry camera stopped recording
but I just wanted to address this and let you guys know that I am going to work really hard and
I'm excited for the next 25 episodes as well as my main channel contents. So thank you guys so much for
like
Watching this update. I'm sorry. It was a bit messy
but if you made it this far
Thank you, and I'll see you guys in the regular John Day upload next week
Have a great weekend have Sunday