I had a boy about the same age as me
turn to me and say
"OOH what happened to your face"
And I looked at him dead in the eye
And I said um "I've got a horrible disease that you'll catch if I breath on you"
and then I went *blows air* and he went off screaming
Why don't you just get plastic surgery?
Oh God
It's...it's really not as easy as just getting plastic surgery
Oh I hate this question 'cause then you have to explain to them that your are fine.
You could spend
thousands of pounds and so much of your time
going to see a doctor and getting as much surgery or treatment or like-
And that would become your entire life.
Yeah, like you couldn't do anything else, literally just spend all your time in a hospital or bed
I'd be so miserable
I'd be so bored
What happened to you?
I'd started to get bored of telling people what happened
I'd started to make stuff up
It was a driving accident, I was the only one that survived.
I'd saved kids from a fire and stuff
And I also told a kid once that, um, if they lied that they'll start to look like me
I don't actually mind people asking me that question- I love it
I would prefer to just tell people the truth then them just assuming something
It's actually polite and they think that its a bad thing to ask someone what happened
Or its a bad thing to ask people questions and its not
there's lots of different types of staring I think
then there's awkward moment, isn't it, when you sort of
when youv'e clocked them and they've clocked you and it's like whatcha gonna do
There's the one where they stare at you and when you look back at them they pretend not to stare.
or there's the thing where you walk down the street
and you could see someone and you know
you could see in your peripheral vision that their looking as you walk past
I'm not really keen on going out into town
because I, you know, when you've got people walking past and you could see that they look
and you could tell that their making their initial assumptions about you
and their just moving on.
Okay, I know something that will help.
People say that "oh, you should try this I read it in the newspaper last week that
if you do this that your scars will go"
No I don't think your cream is going to work,
your aloe vera juice isn't going to work
Oh and bio oil. oh bio oils
it doesn't work, bio oil doesn't work
I've had complete strangers ask me this.
I actually like got a decent boyfriend
AFTER, I've got my scar.
Up until, honestly, up until that point I just attracted, absolute-like my type was like
i don't know, commitment issues like absolutly dick heads.
I don't have a boyfriend now
um, which is a bit sad but
I just don't think that my husband would approve.
I was in the hospital for quite a long time
and...it wasn't until, maybe four months after the accident
that I got to see what my face looked like
and I'll be honest I cried for weeks about it.
In some ways yes because I don't like the way it fits my eyes.
I don't like the way, um, it affects my vision.
But then I sort of came to the conclusion that well that's that
and I can't change it at all.
It might improve but it's never gonna go away.
I sometimes think I probably would've been an absolute dick if it didn't happen to me.
That's what some-
you might have been
It gives you like some ammunition I guess
Yeah 'cause you, you'll be like with a bunch of girls
and they would be like
"Oh I've got a spot" "Oh my hair"
like "Oh I hate my hair" "I've got like a really big chin"
"Oh my nose is so big" Yeah
Everyone I've ever met looks different.
Everyone I've ever met has a different personality.
A different hair style, a different clothing, a different..a... wants and needs and
the term normal
is a very...abnormal term.
It makes me more interesting.
Yeah, like look at all these other like boring humans
like we're, we're quite like
Yeah, we're way more interesting.
Who wants to be friends with a normal human?