I want to read a part of a letter that you posted
on your Instagram account in December, 2020, okay?
- Yeah. - And you wrote...
So can you describe the weeks and the months
and maybe even the years
that led up to you posting that letter.
What were the factors that helped you make
that monumental decision?
Goodness. Um, I mean, definitely, uh,
obviously quite the journey.
I'd say leading up to it and the months before,
what I really had was a moment for myself, um,
where-- and this is obviously quite a privileged thing to say,
but I wasn't working, um, because of the current situation
we're in with the pandemic, and I was up in Nova Scotia,
and I spent a lot of time just by myself.
Um, and I think it really allowed me sort of
separating from, you know, that world, so to speak, uh,
for a moment, um, to really get to
sit with myself and certain, um, aspects
that I had never given myself the opportunity to do,
and I think that was definitely on purpose to a degree.
Even though I wasn't necessarily aware of it,
just, you know, avoiding so much in a way.
The busyness of life allowed and has allowed most people
to not to look inward.
And so what you're sharing is is that you had this time alone
in No-- were-- were you physically alone?
I was pretty alone in Nova Scotia, yeah, like--
- Okay. - I mean, seeing people,
of course, too, but really purposefully was--
it was probably the first time in my life
where I really felt okay and comfortable alone.
It used to just be incredibly difficult for me
to even just sort of sit with myself.
Um, and this was a time where that was possible
and really, uh, relax and let my body relax.
I think I realized getting to that space
and getting surrounded by nature more...
- Yeah. - It almost was like steps
into relaxation. It was like I would notice
my body sort of go into that space more and more.
And I think on some level, it probably allowed me
to connect to my body in a way that I--
I could really fully listen to myself.
And I think for so long I...
didn't even have a concept of what I was feeling, you know?