i didn't even think to make a script for this video i guess this means that you're just gonna
get the raw uncut unfiltered version of me um talking to my phone at midnight um
yeah i guess i just wanted to talk about kind of the fear and and how how [ __ ] weird it
feels honestly that everything's not going back to normal but it's like on the horizon
like i got my vaccine the other day which is obviously really exciting um
but it's kind of like i i mean i thought like a year ago around this time
i genuinely thought that by august everyone would be vaccinated and by september we'd be back to
normal i know that was just like wishful thinking looking back but to me a vaccine just represents
that things will go back to normal eventually
and i feel like i've just now gotten used to whatever it is that we're currently doing
um so yeah it's a little weird to think that things will
change if that makes sense
change again because it won't ever i don't think go back to how it was before 2020
but yeah um but i think what scares me
there's a lot that doesn't scare me there's a lot i'm excited about
if i'm being honest i'm excited to be able to hug my friends to
see my friends to be able to hang out with people not have to to worry about
just not have to worry as much
yeah that's going to be really nice but at the same time there has been a slight amount
of comfort that has come with all of this which sounds so [ __ ] up because it's like
people are literally dying every day um
where is the comfort in that but
yeah maybe that it's just forced us all to kind of
recognize what we have
to recognize that things can change so suddenly
so suddenly that it's kind of terrifying
but i think that that is a good reminder as well
so i guess i'm thankful but i i'm scared
for sure
like i i feel like i've changed so much in this last year and i think everyone has
changed a lot and the thought of going back out into the world
in a version of myself that has pretty much only seen the four walls of this room that
i'm sitting in right now is just weird like i don't know how that's gonna work necessarily
but we will figure it out together
it'll be interesting
and i know it's like not back to normal soon
i know it's not going to happen overnight i know it's going to take time and i know that
the new normal is going to be totally different than the old normal um
but yeah there's some sort of change that's coming
and it is scary and exciting i think mostly exciting but
i'm also nervous about it so yeah i think a lot of people are though let me know if you uh feel
the same but yeah thankful to be vaccinated that's for sure it's kind of knocked me out
the last few days but yeah anyway hope you have a good one i'm sending you love i've missed you you