- Hi guys.
So, this is probably the shortest video
I've ever uploaded to this channel.
And normally I don't share personal things on this channel,
but I do have a big announcement
that I wanted to share with you guys.
So some of you who watch my podcast,
my personal podcast, The Sesh,
which I do with my cousin, it's a really fun show.
You should check it out if you haven't already.
I'll have the links for that below.
But I did do an episode talking about
the miscarriage that I had back in October,
and that was definitely one of the hardest things
I have ever been through in my life,
and I just wanted to say to everyone out there
who has experienced a miscarriage
or will experience a miscarriage in their life
that my heart goes out to you
because it's truly hard to even explain
how painful it really was.
However, I am super, super excited to tell you guys today
that Josh and I
are having our rainbow baby this August,
and we are just completely over the moon.
We feel extremely fortunate to have gotten pregnant
so quickly after our miscarriage,
and it really, obviously helped me heal from that.
I am beyond excited to be a mother.
I can't even put into words
how truly overjoyed and thrilled I am.
It's just the best thing that's ever happened to me
and I'm so happy
to be able to be making this announcement to you guys now.
So I'm not going to be doing pregnancy-related content
on this channel.
This is probably the last time I'll be talking about it here
for quite a while.
However, I did decide
that I want to do occasional vlogs here and there
because I really want to capture
as much of this journey as I can,
and also, I really want the support
from other moms out there who have,
or other parents who have been through this
because it's a scary journey, not gonna lie,
it's so unpredictable.
You know, every day is something new.
I've been feeling really good at times,
then feeling really bad at other times.
but honestly, just the excitement of it all
has been carrying me through,
so that's why I've still been recording,
but I did take quite a bit of time off over the holidays
to just kinda rest, tell my family,
and focus on me and Josh.
And I thank you guys all
for being really cool about my break.
It was, like I said, very good for me,
but not that much is gonna be changing here on this channel.
I'll still be uploading about once a week.
Obviously, when the baby does come,
I'm going to have to take a break, clearly.
But if you are interested
in following along with my pregnancy journey,
I will have my vlog channel linked below.
Just looking at my sonogram
brings such huge smile to my face.
I can't tell you how just grateful I feel at this moment
to be able to be sitting down,
making this announcement
after all the anxiety I've had through this first trimester,
it just feels so good to finally let you guys know,
and I know so many of you have been watching my channel
for like 10 years now.
And so, I'm just so happy to be able to include you guys
in this next chapter of my life.
Josh and I are just so, so excited,
so, so terrified as well, might I add
because we are really the first of our friends and family
to have a baby.
(chuckles)
I haven't held a baby since I,
I think since high school when I used to babysit.
So, it's going to be a huge learning experience for me,
but I'm so excited to go through that.
I'm so excited to learn everything there is to know
about being a parent.
I can't believe I'm saying that, I'm gonna be a mother.
Before I get all emotional about this,
I'm going to wrap up this video
'cause it was supposed to be just a short announcement.
I know this is not the content
that a lot of you guys are here for,
but you're a big part of my life
and I wanted to tell you guys this amazing news.
But that's all I have to say, really, on this channel.
Like I said, I'm not really planning
on doing any pregnancy or baby-related content here.
All of that will be on my second channel.
And I'll be back with another true crime video next week.
Make sure that you check out the video I just posted
on House of Gucci, such an interesting story.
I'm actually about to record that right now,
that's why I'm wearing the same outfit.
But thanks in advance for all the love,
support, and encouragement I know Josh and I are gonna get.
It really means the world to us.
And yeah, that's it, we're having a baby.
And that's it for me today, guys.
I will see you next time.
Bernie, are you excited?
Are you excited to be a brother?
His whole life is gonna change.
He has no idea what he's in for.
- [Doctor] Oh my gosh.
- Oh, look at him - [Josh] Oh wow.
- [Doctor] That is a big movement.
- [Josh] Just flipped around... what?
It's like... kicking.
- It's like, "I'll do a somersault for you, mom."
- [Josh] Yeah.
- Look at his legs.
- Oh my gosh
- [Josh] Stretching 'em out.
Wow.
- Yeah, nah, just a little spurt in there.
- [Josh] Oh wow, you can see the legs so clearly, wow.
- I'm blown away right now, I cannot believe that's a baby.
- [Josh] I know, a little jumping bean.
(lighthearted hip hop music)