i'm 53 years old and when i was 52 i lived a very healthy life i've always been in pretty good
health and all of a sudden i started noticing that my legs were feeling really stiff when i
would walk and then i started to have trouble walking my legs are normally very strong and i
actually fell just by bending down in my closet to pick something up i couldn't lift myself i fell
and i knew there was definitely something wrong so i went to the doctor and
he said you have to get to the hospital right away you i believe you have what's called gilliam bar
syndrome guillain-barre some people call it and i went to the hospital and they diagnosed me with it
they proceeded to do a procedure hang on hang on do you know what it is yeah
the immune system actually attacks the nervous system there's inner conflict going on in there
yeah my actual antibodies were attacking my own nerves and causing my legs not to work
and i started getting numb and so what happened i couldn't walk anymore it had progressed very
rapidly by the end of that same day that i was admitted i couldn't even i felt just trying to
stand up from going to the bathroom and i wound up having a procedure called plasmapheresis plasma
exchange and they put a catheter in my neck and they had to transfuse all of the blood out of my
body and replace my plasma with synthetic plasma and that's a process that takes 11 to 14 days so i
was in the hospital for that long and as soon as i went home i relapsed within three days even worse
and i was sent back i had to have it again i wound up being back and forth in the hospital six times
and i basically was living in the hospital for five months this is july of 19 through december
of 19. they all knew me at the hospital they saw me coming they're like oh she's back again
so that's bonnie as her past self make note
so they changed the diagnosis after i kept relapsing they say after eight weeks they change
it to what's called cidp and stands for chronic inflammatory demyelinating polyneuropathy you know
what that means you always have inflammation and pain in your body and your nervous system
is the the the sheaths on the nerves are breaking down for conductivity and it's happening
poly everywhere the whole entire body is under inflammation and attack and the nervous system
is demyelinating and that's why she has all these motor and sensory problems because the nervous
system is breaking down so they told me this is a chronic condition and that i was going to have to
live with it for the rest of my life that i might be having to use a wheelchair or a walker for the
rest of my life how many doctors told you that oh every doctor who i saw all the neurologists
in the hospital so they threw the voodoo curse at her every time they came into the room they
were telling me all the medicines i'm going to have to take and all the side effects that
could all the things that could happen from the medicines um plasmapheresis was an option steroids
and i said what are the long-term effects of steroid stocks in the audience
we get immune system yeah anyway go ahead
however the first time i was admitted
someone sent me a link to one of dr joe's interviews on youtube and said
he said have you ever heard of this guy and i had not and as soon as i saw him speak and heard what
he had to say i said yes that's me i got this from living in a state of stress i have a family
i have money issues and that's where i was living there was no other explanation i didn't
have a gut problem i didn't have a vaccine i didn't have anything else that would i knew
so i knew within myself that he was right and i was all into whatever he was saying to do
now at the time i didn't have the money to even buy the workshops the online workshops but i was
so desperate to do it that when we got our tax money my husband was supportive and said
do it so i did and from that moment on i immersed myself in dr joe's workshops that's all i did
every minute that i didn't have a doctor in the room a nurse or a visitor i was doing the
workshops i was watching the videos and i was taking notes i was back in school i was wanting
to learn everything that he had to say because he was my inspiration because i truly believed
what he was saying the meditations i did every single day at least once usually two or
three times a day i was that's all i did i was watching the videos doing the meditations when
i was you know paused on one video i continued to replay meditations that i had so that's all i did
during my down time and i put myself just like dr joe says to do i was doing everything
that he said i put myself into the state of being healed and felt that emotion and i remember being
in my hospital bed crying sobbing tears streaming down my face out of joy out of gratitude of the
feeling of being healed and i truly believed that i was going to be healed that i was healed
so then the body as the objective mind does not know the difference between the experience and
the outer world that's creating that emotion and the emotion she's fabricating by thought alone
the body's believing it's in a new condition a new environment and if the more intense the
emotion she feels the more she moves present moment that's when energy rot is in her body
she touches something divine touches a greater energy and that rewrites the biological
program because the body is is organizing genetically to the experience in front of it
anyway go ahead and there were days that there really wasn't that much time for it because i had
tests i had to have done or you know procedures that were being done or people coming into my room
but no matter what i made sure i got my meditation in i did it after everyone left i did it i woke
up earlier in the morning i i pretended i was sleeping when the nurses would come in i would
ignore them because i wanted to do my meditation they probably said oh she's such an easy patient
no victim there now listen audience do you think there were days she didn't feel like doing her
meditation guess what this was her medicine she took it twice a day if she had to to feel better
are you with me still you think there were days where she was afraid that she wouldn't be able to
take care of her family and do the things she wanted to do and live her normal life because
she's she was a healthy person it all followed all the rules ate the right food all that stuff
i think there were days where she was gripped with fear and just thought oh god i may not
make it here and and and the doctor told me i'm gonna be living in a wheelchair she could have
just stopped right there frozen in fear but she overcame her fear a little bit that day yes or no
and there were days i'm certain that she was doubtful but when she doubted she went
back and read the information she went back and relearned the material she studied it
she wanted to understand what she was doing and why she was doing it so when it came time to
meditate the how would having some empowerment behind it some intention some she could assign
meaning to it and get greater value out of it how many people are with me you may continue
also when the doctors would come in all they would give me is all the negatives
you know the side effects of the medications all the negative things and
i would in my head go want what won't i was ignoring
and as soon as they left the room i would play dr joe's tapes his workshops and that's
kept me in a state of empowerment of knowing that they're totally wrong
and i know what i'm doing and i would tell them i told the nurses i told the doctors
even i said i'm going to heal myself and when i do i'm going to help others do the same
you just helped a lot of people
so i also manifested being here because i didn't know
how i would ever make it here because i didn't have the money to do it but i
i thought i was going to have to be here in order to heal myself i felt desperate i have
to get to an advanced workshop to heal myself well it turns out that i healed myself anyway
did she overcome that belief hey in order for her to overcome that belief
she'd have to believe in herself more yes or no she'd say i don't need that i mean i know
what happens at the event but i'm going to go all in with me i'm not going to be
around all these people and the energy in the room and all that stuff i'm going to see if i
can master myself on my own that's that you have to overcome the belief that you can't
and me being here today is solely the gift of give to give hey she deserves to be here
and i'm just making the promise that i created abundance
and when it starts to manifest i'm giving back and then some
and she's part of the research she was randomly selected for the research we caught a fish
isn't that cool keep going girl there's an example of truth right in front of you but i lived in a
state of fear for a very short time until i was encountered and you know introduced to dr joe
i was so afraid that i was never going to walk again i was never going to dance again
i love to dance i that i would never run or jump again i i never i didn't know if
i was ever going to be able to do any of these things again and look at me now now
the condition exists in the old personality yes or no
she's somebody else and she kept overcoming overcoming overcoming overcoming overcoming until
she became that person the future her that already existed already exists she just had to get there
thank you so much you're welcome for living this work
you know what she told me backstage
she watched 400 different testimonials on the website 400 of them just to keep her energy up
just keep her belief that it was possible for herself to keep showing up for herself
she didn't talk herself out of possibility because of some feeling because of some circumstance
because of time because of the hospital because of the nurses that just never stood in the way
between her and becoming that very person that was healed you can program yourself for healing
you can program yourself for abundance why why wouldn't you be able to do that
if you can program yourself for sickness if you watch enough whatever are you listening to me
there goes the four minute mile it's evidence right in front of me she pierced
through the limited consciousness you know the doctors are right that's what happens
normally to the normal person who never changes and the gene is programmed
but she up regulated the gene for health she's down regular gene for chronic inflammatory
demyelin in polyneuritis it doesn't doesn't it's not part of her world anymore she
doesn't associate with that that's not her identity the gratitude the elevated emotion
the clear intention the believing in possibility every single day she walked her body dragged her
right into that future it was programmed into that future she had to arrive there