so this is the this is the personality at the au7 hits this jackpot high note of spirituality
at the same time with the age of if seven know kind of a mishap happens in the family the father
passes away at a very young age it is said if a boy loses a father at a very young age because
the boy always looks up to the father from kind of rational understanding explanation about the world
become worldly wise and suddenly if at a very young age the father is taken away
the boy will pay a price he became very withdrawn now this boy became very withdrawn
and he started going on into into into kind of lonely places and sitting there and thinking about
reality very young but was showing tremendous maturity started to think of higher things
worldly things would no longer attract him would no longer attract him when they said learn this
subject learn the grammar so you can become a teacher learn all the ritual practices so
he can then become given a pujari and do all these things and earn a living he said to eat little bit
of rice and dal or something do i need to spend my whole life just to survive like an animal i wish
to learn that i wish to get that education which resolves the issues of humanity i wish to touch
high i want the highest education i would not make do with the lower one yet great difficulty because
now you see this minded turn to higher things you see already holds a jackpot in his pocket without
realizing what's hit him he has already hit the high note he continues in that particular mode
continues to go to his school and so on and there's another incident in his life which is very
special because it throws light on how easy it is for this boy to become one pointed at a drop of a
hat he become very one pointed i'll just give an example when he's about 10 years old in the little
village they were going to perform on a shivaratri night they were going to perform a play on shiva
so they'd go all the little boys and girls and little actors to play the parts of various deities
and somebody to play the part of shiva start our stuff in a little village how do they celebrate
gods and goddesses so the play was going to be performed and then just on the night of the that
particular day shivratri the actor was supposed to play the part of shiva at rumbling in his tummy
so he had to because he suddenly you can't have shiva running to the loo you know suddenly
so they excuse them they said we'll leave you out you know you somebody was so they said they look
round who will play the part of shiva and then they look to this little boy called gadadhar said
you please say no no no i want to play as a break you know pray shiva knight i don't want
to do place i'll just pray no no you play the part of shiva they said he said all right let's do the
part of shiva last person who should have been you know asked to do the performance was the poor chap
and he was you know they decided on him so this gather was dressed up you know with whatever poor
villagers could you know kind of uniform was you know clothing they could find to depict shiva they
dressed him up he was just ten-year-old chap and now with the drum beating shiva entering
the stage you know so this poor boy was led down to the stage he came with his trishud and little
kind of something curled around his neck was supposed to be a snake and he walked in but this
little boy you see you should not because without prompting he was hitting the high notes now he's
being prompted by the public to play the part of shiva that's the last thing you do to this boy
and he was asked to come on the stage he came with his little tissue you know this trident dressed
up he came in the middle of the stage he looked at everybody his eyes started to water you know
tears of joy flowing and again i tell youngsters you know because children like to distinguish
between tears of joy and tears of pain and this is something very technical it's good to tell
the tears of pain come closer to the nose they flow this way
so when you smack somebody or you get smacked you know where they come the tears come from
the tears of joy come from the outer edges somehow there's some technical reason for it and this boy
was standing in the pores of shiva posture of shiva and tears of joy were flowing like torrent
only down his eyes and the audience was stuck dumb stuck so what to do the play came to a halt
because how can you do a play with the shiva standing like this with tears or coming down and
this is a true story he was like that continuously throughout so the play came to immediate hold
because shiva was not playing his part anymore so the play came to a halt and he had to be carried
away because he was like that he had to be carried away and the shiva role did not finish for another
24 hours he was like that he couldn't get out why why let me tell you why you see when you are one
pointed and you already prepared you already come the ground is prepared you are not doing sadhana
to achieve some end you are already siddha you already established in highest level of meditation
it's just that nobody has prodded you to show your colors so when they approach you by you
know making you wear shiva costume then they're asking for trouble once you prick that outer layer
the reality flows out so that boy was in the mood of shiva instantaneously being able to transform
himself and become one pointed on the principle of shiva and lose his individuality you see we
struggle to lose our individuality we are stuck we are shackled by our individuality and we think we
we kind of embrace you think ah this me this me what me there's a nuisance but this boy
when you prick that individuality suddenly bursts forth and shows nothing but the spirit
so this shiva play came to an end and the boy showed his colors and the parents were worried
look these are people in the villages they thought something is wrong with the boy we need to get him
you know some with some medicine man to sort him out or some you know boot breath as you know
enter the boy you know some ghost has entered the youngster so let's sort him out they did all these
things the boy was perfectly normal in every sense of course this is the story that carries further
now this boy is there again he's spending more and more time in the cremation ground
now if a boy starts spending time in his very morbid with worrying you have to be worried
you're worried i'm telling you it's alright for ramakrishna but for us it's very worrying
you to be you know taken to the psychiatrist but this boy started spending time in a mood of
renunciation from a very young age beginning to show his tendencies his if you like his
attraction to nothing but the highest anything less will not do for him the story continues
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