I like to eat a lot.
That's something that I like to indulge in.
That's my main thing I like to indulge in.
I wrote this song when I moved to L.A. I'm originally from Miami.
Before the move I had gone through some things.
Things that really were discouraging and people were just messing with me, manipulating.
And although I did feel a bit vulnerable, and lost, it was almost like a good kind of
lost.
So then, I got in the studio and it was just something that I was feeling at the moment.
I think a lot of people get alone and lonely
very confused.
It's very possible to be alone and happy.
And it's also possible to be in a room filled with people and feel very lonely.
They don't always have to be in the same sentence.
Personally, I like my alone time.
This was definitely about multiple people.
But it was also just about how I was feeling in the moment.
Throughout my career, I worked with so many people and before moving, it was just a lot
of them who were affecting me negatively.
I think a lot of people are afraid to be vulnerable.
I'm even kind of guilty of that, at times.
Especially in relationships.
But “Confidently Lost” just means not being afraid of that. Everybody goes through
it differently.
Everybody takes their time with allowing themselves to be vulnerable.
But, it's something that I think we're all pretty much capable of.
I'm going to do this by myself.
Like, you can come in later, but right now I want to do this by myself.
I don't need you at this point.
And it doesn't mean 'you' as in a relationship.
It can mean anything.
But, it's just timing, really.
And once you get to that point of, 'OK, I'm good.
Now, you can come in.
But at that moment, I didn't need you.'
So, everything is just the timing.
I was taught how to meditate by my grandfather.
He was very much into that.
So, obviously he knew that I was going to make the big move.
So, before doing that, he taught me how to do it.
He was like, "Once you get there, make sure you try to do this every day.
Try to calm yourself down.
Make sure you're hopeful.
Make sure you're open to love.
Just be different."
Because, I wasn't ever open to that when I was back home.
I was very much to myself.
I was scared.
I was very scared of being vulnerable.
So, once I moved, I was like 'You know what?
I'm going to take on all these characteristics and I'm just going to go for it.'
Well watering my creations is pretty much just planting seeds here and there, literally
and metaphorically.
Planting a seed of 'I'm going to go meet this person.
I'm going to go make this song.
I'm going to go here today and just have something to eat.'
I'm going to water all of that and let it grow naturally, and then I'll grow naturally
and everything will just be a beautiful garden.
There were things that I had to go through to get to this point in my life.
They helped me become a stronger woman.
Going through that helped me learn what I like, what I don't like, what I can take and
what I'm not going to take.
And so, if I didn't go through that I don't think today I would be the strong, opinionated,
stubborn woman that I am, that's led me to so many beautiful, successful things.
I love Miami.
Miami is always going to be my home, but L.A. is the place for me, just because of what
I'm doing.
Miami, there is such a culture there, that helped me become the person that I am today.
It helped me become very grounded.
So I'll always be grateful for that city.
But, I don't think I'll ever move back.