It's very easy to put yourself in second gear and then treat all the people around you with
all this love but, deciding to love yourself means like being romantic when no one is around.
Like, all the little extra things that make you feel happy and make you feel worthy.
Treating yourself.
Putting bubbles into the bath.
All the little extra things that- I call it like romancing yourself.
The spark began the way that a lot of my music begins, which is just like a hotel writing
session with my long-time collaborator and friend Tavish Crowe.
We come up with melodies and kind of lyrics all the time, and this started as a melody
of da da da da da da and then life happened, and I went through a breakup.
And actually, my kind of breakup came to the final sort of explosion happened in Sweden.
And I just was waiting for room service to come up, and I grabbed my wine bottle, and
I stole that old melody and I went "party for one" and that sort of was what I brought
in the next day to the session.
Was just sort of that rebellious kind of feeling and how I wanted to create a song sort of
around this melody and that sort of concept.
You know that song "if you don't know me by now then you'll never, ever, ever know me"?
I think I was looking for a way to sort of reinterpret that idea.
I think at some point you can try everything to win someone over but you just might not
be getting that you're not right for them.
You're not who they want.
But it's important for you to get to move on rather than just sort of like keep trying
to win them over.
There's a moment where you just gotta be like "you don't get what I get, and I have to go
look elsewhere."
You might not be a hundred percent in a good place.
But it's like, I wanted to win an A for effort.
That night was my first attempt at being like "this isn't working.
I'm alone at Sweden.
I know nobody.
But we're gonna have a good time.
Me and myself tonight."
And I think that it was step one for kind of what it is to spend time alone with yourself
and I had to learn the struggles of that.
Of like dinner for one, movies for one, can I be brave?
And it can be a scary thing but once you get used to spending time with yourself, and really
enjoying it too, then I think you're in a really good place to start fresh again and
be ready to take on a new relationship.
"Party for One" has many different emotions to it.
It began as a sad party.
But it became sort of rebellious and then sort of empowering too.
You can maybe start with a lonely place and sort of end in a kind of victorious place.
I think there's a part of us that when we're kids and we're not aware of ourselves too
much, you know, you really feel like I've connected to who I am and I know what I'm
about and as you get older it's harder and harder to reconnect to that.
I think it's a really important time after a relationship ends to, you know, get back
on your beat.
Figure out like, what did you learn?
And what were the rewards?
And where do I go now?
Sometimes loneliness can be enough of a motivation for someone to start a relationship.
If you're the sucker on the other end of that... that's sort of an extra blow.
We've all landed in that position, and I think that's sort of where I was at this point.
Just being like "was I just the only person within just like kissing distance here?"
I wish I had the perfect potion of like "if you drink this, you'll wake up in six months
and everything will be better."
Or "if you, you know, say this mantra every day" or "hang out with the right people".
I would say for me it is really important to make sense of like not just the bad things
but the good things I got from it.
There is a mourning period and to kind of try to rush that or ignore it or not feel
it, I think it's more dangerous than just allowing yourself to be sad for a bit.