So the first hook and verse is from the perspective of someone who is calling the hotline and
they want to commit suicide.
They want to kill themselves.
They want to end their life.
When I jumped on a tour bus that started in Los Angeles, California and I ended in New
York City and did a fan tour where I went to fan’s houses and shared meals with them,
hung out with them, played them my album before it came out.
Them along with other people on tour, just fans that I met randomly, they’ve said things
like, “Your music has saved my life.
You’ve saved my life.”
And I was always like, “Aw so nice of you.
Thanks.”
And I give them a hug and shit but in my mind, I’m like, “What the fuck?”
And they’re really serious.
And they tat shit on their arms and get shit like lyrics that save their life and in my
mind, I was like, “Man I wasn’t even trying to save nobody’s life.”
And then it hit me, the power that I have as an artist with a voice.
I wasn’t even trying to save your life.
Now what can happened if I actually did?
And it’s beyond just this song.
It’s the whole album.
What can happen if I took myself out of my comfort zone and made a whole album about
everybody and everybody’s struggles including my own which is one I’ve never done.
What if I silenced my own fear and I say, “I’m scared talk about my race.
I’m scared to talk about the state of this country but I’m going to do anyway.
I’m going to persevere.
Man, how many lives can I really save then?”
I think it was just a record that was years in the making.
Also, it’s like, who really wants to write a song about suicide.
It’s hard.
But I was like, “Fuck it.
I’m going to make this shit an anthem.”
That’s why it’s like, “I've been on the low/I been taking my time,” it’s like
you hear it, who can relate.
I think it’s a bit morbid at first.
“I don't want to be alive.
I just want to die.
I just want to die.”
Like fuck, oh shit.
But I had to write this because you can’t sugar coat it.
Everything is going to be alright mutherfucker, don’t kill yourself.
Like nah, it’s got to be, “Yo fam, yeah you want to take your life.
You want to kill yourself.
You want to slit your wrist.
You want to eat pills.
You want to shoot yourself in the head and eat a bullet.
And it fucking sucks.
I’ve thought about killing myself, sure, a bunch of times.
But the thing is I never...I think about shit all the time.
I stand in line at the grocery store and like, “Yo what if I punch this cashier in the
face right now?”
That's human beings, that's the shit we don't be talking about but we all think but we be thinking that shit.
So I’ve thought about it but never in my life did I ever think about actually committing
the act for real.
And I hopefully I am never there.
But I know a lot of people who have.
A lot of people very near and dear and close to my heart and because of that, I think that
also served for inspiration for this song.
For me, this is something that really allows the listener to feel connected because this
is their outlet.
The song is their outlet.
I’m hurting deep down but can’t show it but Logic can help me show it by playing this
song, he’s letting it be known to the entire world forever how I feel in this moment.
And that’s a scary thing man cause think about all the people who’ll never hear this song.
But it’s something that I feel really needed to be said.
It is a bit dark.
Even the, “I’m hurting deep down but can’t show it,” think about the people that actually
do show it.
But don't’ have anybody there that loves them enough.
That’s another person who this song is for.
Their parents don't give a shit or they think they are going through a phase or they are
older in their life.
And it’s like, “I’m hurting, somebody help me.”
And nobody gives a fuck.
And that’s also why this song, titled “1800” and that’s how I refer to it, is amazing
because hopefully they’ll be able to be like, “Oh shit, I do feel this way.
This song is inspiring me.
Let me call somebody at this hotline and see if they can help me.”
The second hook and verse is from the perspective of the operator on the other end of the line,
“I want you to be alive.
Let me tell you why.
Here’s all the reasons why you should continue to live.”
Switching up the perspective in the second verse is everything because that’s the person
going like, “Hey this is not permanent.
The way you feel, it’s ok.
Things will get better.”
And a lot of people will be like, no it won't.
You know, sometimes, I love to interact with fans so I’ll go on Twitter and I’ll be like, “What’s
positive in your life today?”
And somebody will be like, “Nothing. Fuck you."
Or not even they'll just be like "My life sucks and it’s so dreary.”
I usually hit them with, “Too bad.”
And I’ll go on a fucking rant and be like, “Tell me what’s positive in your life.
Don't tell me this or that.
I want to hear what’s positive in your life.
Can you breathe?
Can you see?
Can you taste food?
Can you walk?
Can you this or that?”
These are the things I want to hear.
I want to know because I want you to appreciate them.
I appreciate them and I hope that you can truly appreciate them.
I have been there so much when we focus on the negativity of our situation and I didn't
ask you, “Tell me the negative shit.”
I said, ‘Tell me about the positive.’”
This is one of those songs where it took me a few months to do it and it didn't take
a few months because I wasn't inspired.
It’s just such a hard song to do for me.
I just didn't want to talk about that shit.
I really wanted to...I mean I didn’t want to talk about half this shit on this album
but this was a really, really hard one so I made sure that I didn’t just rush it out.
Sometimes I’m like, “I got to finish this song.”
And I go in and I just write some crazy ass shit.
Like the second verse in “America,” I wrote this shit in five minutes.
And was just like, “Fuck it and just did it.”
This wasn’t like that.
This is was like, “I have to take my time.
I have to be patient because once again, the song can potentially save people’s lives.
So I’m not just going to go in and just, ‘Oh this shit sounds hot.’”
Like, nah.