Going into the rose ceremony I'm just really confused obviously those bit of a
bombshell dropped at my hometown about Nick and Cass so that's made me think
about everything and I'm second-guessing things I just don't know what's going on
right now I did ask Nick to tell me the truth
about what they had but we didn't really delve deep so I still have some
questions I definitely feel hurt because Cass is
always very very adamantly told me that nothing happened between them
I don't think Cass has a malicious bone in her body but I still doesn't make it
right that she liked me the whole time so I do need to speak to her about that
and hopefully she just tells me the truth
I guess it's anyone talk to you about and I just don't even know how to do it
yes it's gonna ask you your relationship with Nick what was it before you came
into the house
yeah and honestly so this is really hard because I came in here I didn't know
it's gonna be Nick and obviously there's past history or whatever you want to
call it and before coming here I pretty much explained everything to but left
out a couple of details because I didn't want to hurt you guys obviously you've
met him at a bar dancey team and ran into him on the at the beach and then he
came to my birthday but after that I heard bump into him at the gym and stuff
and yeah he he asked me I did not like a couple of times and so we're not in a
few dates in him and yeah that's what I haven't told you guys
like I feel so guilty for it because I haven't been completely honest with you
guys I didn't know how to handle it I came out for me at my home Channel and I
was mortified never been so embarrassed in my life
and I just feel stupid my god they're really stupid
it's okay but just before me it's one of our life you had
I don't see I don't know what you call it I wouldn't say we're in a
relationship I want to say we were dating I don't even know if you'd call
it seeing each other we went on like a couple of dates and yeah there was
feeling 7-nothing eventuated from that on the outside that's the way it
happened to name like madam yeah I know that sociable if it was reversed I know
your family and they just called him on my sister told me like I don't know if
you know what the media are saying but they've gone through the point where
they're saying that you and he is the whole thing's employee here together
you're the we're not do you know it it's like a publicity sense what people say
it's definitely not
it makes me want to leave because I think like why am I even here at you and
him our show same no no
I'm not angry I just was stupid I'm so embarrassed that I be made to look like
an idiot the whole time I honestly I told you like everything like he was
someone special to me in a way that we crossed paths and stuff was ridiculous I
don't know how to explain it is physical I have my 3x I just tell me we like I
don't know what to say yeah like we kissed and stuff like I don't know I
don't like this is this really in a perfect situation I didn't want to have
to do the it's like I actually don't know how to handle this situation
it wasn't a relationship we staying within hello this is really
inappropriate
it just seems like there's more going on to this story I don't know what even
what to say I'm sorry
we've just been made since like last year after thank you
well that's why I need to talk about
maybe right I honestly had like the best intentions like I didn't want to hurt
anyone and I think maybe I should have just been honest from the beginning
because now I feel like I could be going home
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