So my sister in law to be, my big sister bought a spot a two flat on 65th.
The outside of the house didnt look that great to be honest with you, but the inside was
very nice.
It was always a lot of women energy there.
They always had their friends over and stuff.
I didn’t really have friends over because it wasn’t that level of kick it yet.
I was just kind of living off them.
The song is about me wanting to pay back or at least make right the things for which I owed.
I met my daughter’s mother.
Our parents actually worked together.
My mom’s boss was her mom at a real estate agent when I was a little boy so the first
time I met her I was probably 9, but we reconnected at South By Southwest.
You know, before the end of the year we were boyfriend and girlfriend.
It was ingrained in me since I was a kid by my dad because his father was a piece of shit.
You can’t be a man waking up wondering where your kid’s at.
I owe her the world because she literally kept me and housed me and fed me when I didn’t
have anything and gave me my daughter and so in reality there’s no way that I could
pay her back.
Obviously me and my girl we watch Martin and Jamie Foxx every night.
I think it was just me relating to him in terms of like not being everything that I
am today like understanding that I hadn’t grown I wasn’t mature yet.
Donald brought me on for like two dates to replace somebody.
So I left got, some money.
After I got the money from the camp tour.
I got brought on a few more tours got some more money.
And I wasn’t really at any point moving my girl in with me.
Like I got a crib, a nice apartment didn’t reciprocate the love and like I just kinda
started trying to live this rapper life yo like I literally got like a rapper mansion
at one point.
And was just like the pools the basketball court and like the all the swag but I wasn’t
keeping it a hundred with like my girl who really held me down.
I felt empty and I felt like I hadn’t been living my life like I was supposed to be.
Nothing felt right until shortly after my girl got pregnant I realized that I needed
to be around her to be with her.
Well she doesn’t do it anymore but my girl used to be a studio rat.
She used to be in the studio with me as long as I would be.
Obviously after hearing it a million times, she didn’t want to hear that shit no more.
But if she was to ask me play a song it was the most validation that I could feel out
of anybody saying anything about my music.
This shit is what happened everytime we went to gas station anywhere.
I think that’s just the Chicago like black south and west side Chicagoans feel is that
PTSD of having seen some shit happen and understanding
how people move that creates your whole like the way you move
I want my daughter to have everything I couldn’t have which was a lot.
You know?
I think that’s what every parent wants like that’s why there’s so many kids’ parents
are like “You better go to college!”
My girl was a real estate agent.
I gave Kanye that line once.
“She in school to be a real estate agent.”
She was a model and she was a waitress at this spot called The Pump Room at the time.
And...so she was getting money.
She had some cash, she had a car, she had a crib.
She was doing decent.
Having real OGs around you, real people that’s been through this shit, that will tell you
what it is, what’s really gangster like what’s really like a real man’s job is
the most important thing you can find as a young man.
My girl is not from Evanston, that’s like a joke for like Chicago people.
Evanston is like the most, is like the first suburb you hit going north of Chicago.
My girlfriend came from better beginnings than I did.
Eggelston is close to my house.
I live on 79th like I live in just like not as nice neighborhood.
The biggest lie I ever told my girl was probably that I couldn’t be with her.
That I wasn’t ready to love her, that I didn’t love her.
Something crazy like that.
Love like has given me some of my best song.
I wrote “That’s Love” about Kiersten, I wrote my first feature with Lil Wayne about
Kiersten.
She is my understanding of love and like how it’s not always what you read about or saw
in a movie it’s like some of the toughest shit you’ll ever have to do in your life.