oh somebody's coming right by me okay shall i let you go
jessica let go no no literally i they pulled out and they're just gonna drive right by me they're
going straight okay they're good just let us know when eskel does leave so we can be ready for him
sounds good i'll call you in a bit
it's so weird to see everyone and they don't even know i'm just sitting right here
behind those gates is where i used to go and worship the leaders of this polygamous cult
paul the order's leader leads every church service unless he's not in town
they're constantly enforcing polygamy and marriage and multiple children i know those people
there's a lot of women with children walking in without their husbands very rarely did i see a
husband walking in with the wife i'm sitting at the church seeing all these people walk in
and a lot of them were my friends and seeing them with multiple children
pregnant bellies and just miserably walking through the motions of life they know they're
supposed to go to church realizing that would have been my future had i not left
hello hey jessica have you seen his car yet no yeah i'm sitting right here at his car and
i don't see him yet but i'm at his car okay because my mom's still here just let me know
eskel wants to escape today during church and he's in the program at church so he has
to show up for the rehearsal of the program and then he's going to try and sneak out
before he's actually supposed to be on stage i'm there to watch and make sure
that he gets out of there safely and that he can drive home and no one follows him
okay there he is
hey i just saw him get in his car jessica i think my mom is still here
is he leaving right now yeah crap if she sees him we're gonna have a problem
oh my gosh there's eskel mom's still home this doesn't make any sense oh my gosh he's running
okay shirley what's our plan for the rest of the day and for tonight and how much stuff are we
gonna get out i don't know i just don't know where i'm gonna put all my stuff if i don't get out
tonight then i'm afraid he's gonna come back he could he's never been physical with me before but
his mind games and his word games and the manipulation right i used to think
that if i left i would be damned so i'm not sure where i stand and if i'm a spiritual wife or not
i'm not sure if i want to be i'm not sure if i don't want to be
i don't know i honestly don't know you okay don't touch me i'll break down
mom we love you and you'll always be it's some really hard stuff that she's going through and i
can't even imagine i left as a child she's leaving everything she thought was righteous behind
and going the path of darkness you doing okay mom it's a big step isn't it
it just feels like have i wasted the last 30 years of my life
i was deprived of an education of a career i was held down
love you all right thanks you guys and then i have to look at my kids and you know i have some
awesome kids they are beautiful children they're intelligent and they've got spunk
and if that's the only good thing that come out of this that's 12 wonderful blessings
oh my gosh there's esco
oh my gosh he's running mom's car's there do you think mom found out about
it no well he would have been texting me if something happened are you sure yeah
i think he would or he would call me he would figure out a way unless mom took away his phone
hey you reached that's cool bye again
hey you reached that's cool die again there's got to be something up
i really think he would have told me i just want to go in there see what's going on
he texted me what do you say he said mom's gone but mom's car's right there wait can we go help
him now hey are the kids are the kids home how did mom take the kids and she didn't do nobody
mommy just everyone inside his little car oh my gosh okay drive over there and call jessica
hello my mom's there they shoved all the kids in a little green car i don't know why she left
her car here maybe the big gas but esco's here packing his stuff right now there's no one home
so we're gonna go help him pack his stuff and let us know if a little green car leaves i think it's
a honda there'll be a bunch of kids stuffed in there and i bet you they'll be leaving earlier
because eskel's here they're gonna be calling him be like where are you sounds good okay bye
hey we got some boxes what's going on when is mom coming back
so she's going to be gone until 1 30. let's just grab the boxes real quick yeah i really just want
to get everything out okay are you downstairs yeah oh yeah you means downstairs what do you
need us to bring out there first so probably the black bags fish those are all done dude
where are the boxes you can start filling the boxes up too sometimes okay i'll take this off
look this is the brother that is not going to talk to eskel after he leaves
it's just sad and he left a little note for him
it's just sad he's not going to understand why eske's leaving he's just not going to talk to
him anymore but his school really cares about him he doesn't want him to forget obviously but this
is what ray cares about this all he cares about is he's been topped that that's all that that's
how he's gonna get to heaven she has to forget about his brother like he's forgotten about us
she's messed up he's only 16. he doesn't understand
jessica's calling me who is jessica she's watching the church hello hey i think i saw
your mom's green card did she leave yep she just left okay guys we gotta hurry this is not good
hey esko do you have your title to your car yeah i got the title to my car all these pictures
yeah no no those stay is this your note to her i want to leave it right here for her we gotta go
all right this is not your typical child moving out to go to college saying bye to his family
you are leaving your family and you don't know if you'll see them again
we're all driving to my place i'm on cami's place and amanda decided it
thought it might be better if somebody was with that school
i might guess up early
oh that's mom dance
hello
hello why would you let me know honestly i don't know i was just afraid of telling you
does that feel better with your family it's not that mom i still want to be a part of the family
why why everyone wants to just run away mom it's not you that i'm running away from it's
that religion i'm just making it a decision for me and my future family
to not have to worry about polygamy because
if i had kids i want to be able to go to a church and tell them this is what we believe
they don't want us to live polygamy they don't think that we have to do weird things it's like
i don't know what to think i really don't because that makes it like that makes me feel like it's
it's not though mom you've got to understand for yourself that didn't die because honestly it's not
your fault i left mom it's dad's you shouldn't be the one feeling bad if anyone should it should be
you just have to be strong mom you have to let them know that you are not you're not a bad person
honestly i feel like oh it's really obvious you've been there for me in
my life way more than he has and i have way more respect for you
i don't know it kills me sometimes it goes first i don't know what to do because i feel
like i want my family to be here together and i have to get there totally devoted to remember
mom i guarantee if you stay somewhere you're not happy your kids are gonna go anyways though
oh it just annoys me that one prophet one leader can cause so much pain in so many families
and actually get people to believe that god gave me this family but they're dead to me now like why
would god do that it doesn't make sense promise you i'll do whatever i can to do that i will
i love you i love you too me too
i'm glad that you're coming with us to cami's house because it makes it better to be with family
then we said she might order some food okay
are you excited at school or are you scared i'm just worried what are you worried about
well mainly just i'm worried about what's gonna happen now yeah hello
hello hey try to sit down put your stuff down
does it feel weird to be away from the family for tonight you're not welcome do you feel
like you're not welcome yeah well yeah mainly because of that just don't let it get to you
yeah it's not that easy to not let it get to you even i still let things get to me even though you
know that they all are brainwashed it gets to me and it hurts me to know that all of my happiness
but they can't hate me they can never convince you to go back right that's what i'm saying
don't let that no i would never go back and i think we all can agree that
the worst day on the outside is still better than the best date in the order because you're free
you