RINGTONE: # You only know you love her when you let her go... #
Shit.
DIALLING TONE
What do you mean missing?
We can't find him.
Well, has his mum...?
Shit.
And the police have...? They're looking.
Great.
But I think we should try to find him first, don't you?
I'm sure he'd rather see a friendly face than a bunch of...
We have to let them do their job. Right. OK.
DIALLING TONE
Hey, it's Joe. Leave a message.
Carol Ann Duffy, for the third year running this term.
How they expect teachers to keep up their enthusiasm with
the same eight poems year after...
Only...
..with Joe around it feels like...
..reading them for the first time.
I'd started them on Havisham,
and he, he's only 15 and he found in it something I'd never seen.
He said, "Miss, have you noticed how even when she's wishing him
"dead she still wants him with her?
"She always wants to be with him, even when she wants to hurt him."
He's so clever.
The first time we kissed, I said to him,
"Joey, are you absolutely sure this is what you want?"
He did this impression of me, of my serious teacher face. He said...
"Yes. I'm absolutely sure."
Every time I see him, I know I'm risking every other
part of my life for this one and I don't care, because he's delicious.
You want to know.
I know what you want to know.
And honestly, the answer is, it's the way he loves me.
To him, I'm the only thing in the universe.
The only thing.
And the next day, that smell of him still on my skin, it's like...
..like wearing armour.
I'm good for him. I am.
My first time, I was 16.
Stuck with some asshole fumbling his way in, thinking,
"I'm glad it's dark in here so I don't have to fake being into it."
Joe's first time was beautiful.
Relaxed, easy, fun, like it should be.
We got a takeaway.
And he's so straightforward.
I tell him what a relationship looks like and he agrees.
Well, but...
It's like I said to him, he started all this. He pursued me.
He asked me to risk my career for him.
I said, "I made you happy before. I'll make you happy again.
"Just tell me what you need."
What sort of girlfriend would I be if I just let him walk out on this?
I'm sure he's fine.
We had a fight...
..last night.
I told him, "Joe, you said this is what you want.
"You can't go changing your mind now."
He got upset, but...
He's got to learn.
At some point, all my boys have got to learn.
This is silly.
He's not going to hurt himself. He's not.
The last couple of weeks, I could feel him...
You can't just give a person all that love and then take it away.
He had to be made to see that.
He's fine.
I haven't done anything wrong.
DIALLING TONE
Hey, it's Joe. Leave a message.
So, I'm not even worth speaking to now?
Just call me back.
OK?
Please.
You owe me that much.
RINGTONE
Zainab, have you...?
He's told us.
What?
Gemma, I found him in his dad's car.
OK, erm...
I...
OK.
I'll be at home.
They've found him.
He sat up all night in his dad's car apparently.
Just...thinking.
Next to several packs of unopened painkillers.
He's told them.
Everything.
Funny thing is...
..if he had gone through with it...