I tend to talk about the guys who hurt me.
And I feel like a lot of the time, we do.
We talk about the people that hurt us, mostly.
I kinda felt like I never talked about when I had hurt somebody.
The inspiration came from the fact that I was like, "Why don't I miss that person?"
Like, "What is it about that person, and what is it about me that is making me really not
want that lovely person over there?"
I wanted people to see the track title and be like, "What does she mean?"
Because everybody's like, "What do you mean that you wish you missed your ex?
No you don't."
And I'm like, "Nah, just listen."
I just feel like there's this stereotype that girls are the ones who want closure.
And girls are the ones who have to know why this is ending.
I kind of felt like that was the first time that I'd had a boyfriend that I really saw
him break down.
In this case, I was the one who was leaving and he was the one who was there asking me
to tell him why.
In my head I thought, "He's gonna ask me where I am, he's gonna ask me why I'm not with him
anymore, and he's gonna ask me what should he do?"
And I didn't know the answers.
I guess it was just that I really wanted space.
And I felt like I wasn't being allowed to have space.
Weekdays, everyone's working, everyone's doing their thing.
Everyone's got a job, and everyone's kinda busy.
Then it comes to the weekend, and that's when you're thinking about that significant other.
This particular guy always hollered me on like a Friday.
And he'd be like, "Yo, we need to talk."
And I'm like, "Do we?"
It's a very UK thing to be like, "Yo, babe. Come over."
On this holiday, I was away.
I mean I was technically working, so I was writing songs.
Me and the boys who I was with, the musicians, we were in our little bubble.
And so I felt like anybody who was trying to penetrate it was just annoying me.
I think that's why I really resented him.
Because I was just like, "You're bursting my bubble."
When you're getting those kind of messages, if you're resenting somebody at that time,
you won't even read it.
Because you're like, "I'm not gonna read that."
If you care about a situation, you'll read it.
And you'll probably write one back.
But, I remember reading these messages just like, "Look what he said."
Two of the guys who I work with have both got lovely girlfriends.
I remember one, every time he gets a break, he'll go outside and he'll call her, and they'll chat
And he's just so happy.
I remember being in there, and thinking, "Why don't I have that?
Why don't I wanna call my guy and just hear his voice?"
And that's when I knew that I wasn't in love anymore.
I think I couldn't follow his heart because his heart was ready for something different
to what mine was ready for.