Hey guys, welcome to a very long overdue life update video
I've been putting off making this video for obvious reasons umm...
One it's very difficult to talk about
And two I wanted to...
Wait as long as possible really to give some time
For emotions to settle before I said anything
In a video!
I know lots of you guys had some idea what might be going on
Because I did get lots of comment about it
Umm...
I'm moving back to Japan like the title says
I've moved back to Japan actually
Welcome to my new apartment!
I'm here alone
My husband and I aren't together anymore
We haven't been for quite a while now actually
I'm not gonna go into any details
Because I feel like that's very disrespectful to him
And this is something that should be kept private
But basically we just
Our life started going in different directions
And
We weren't making each other happy anymore
I know to you guys
It seems like we weren't together for very long at all
And it was a very short relationship
But umm...
I didn't tell you guys about him until much later
Into our relationship
And we've actually been together for seven years
So it's been a really tough transition
But I think it's best for both of us
So we're trying our best
We have lots of really nice memories together
And I care about him a lot
And I wish him nothing but the best
Even if it didn't work out between us
Something really shit about all of this is that
Maro and Luna aren't with me anymore
I thought very hard about what was best for them
And
Right now that's being in Korea
They're very happy there
They're comfortable
And they're in really good hands
And
I didn't wanna disturb that just for my own benefit
I don't know what will happen in the future
But, umm...
For now this is what we agreed on
I miss them both so much
And
I struggle with it
A lot
But I just try to remind myself that this is what's best for them and
That's all that should matter
But it's really hard
If any of you guys have been in a similar situation
With your pets
Can you please leave me some advice in the comments
I was able to
Video chat with them yesterday
Which was really nice
Umm...
He was playing with them with their new toys and
And they looked really happy
And healthy so...
That made me feel a little better
But...
It's really hard
He loves them so much and he takes really good care of them
So...
I'm not worried or anything
But, it's just...
Really tough not...
Having them here with me anymore
He's gonna continue to post pictures on their Instagram
LIke he has been
And umm...
If he can find some time, he said that he wants to update their YouTube channel again
So if you guys are into cats
Heh
Cat pictures and videos
Umm...
I'll put the links in the description box
And if you could go and support them that would be really nice
He really loves them and he really loves sharing them with you guys
Umm...
So I know he'd really appreciate that
I wanna say thank you to you guys for dealing with me being quiet about this
For such a long time
I'm sure it was frustrating to many of you
Who had some idea of what was going on and I just wasn't talking about it
I'm sorry about that but...
I really needed time to
Umm...
Just deal with things on my own
And figure out what I'm gonna do next
Because for the first time in a very long time
That decision was completely up to me
I thought about staying in Korea
Consider moving back to Japan obviously
Umm...
Canada was never really an option
Because it's just
Not exciting enough for me right now
I really, really
Enjoyed living in Korea
Everybody was so nice to me as you guys saw in my vlogs
I was always...
Really happy
Heh
Exploring outside
And...
The food was so good!
And I just...
It was really exciting...
Getting to explore a whole new culture
But I needed to be back somewhere where I was familiar with everything
There's just too much going on right now for me to be in a country where I don't speak the language very well
My Korean did improve a little bit~
I feel a little more confident with it
But not to the point that I could...
Take care of myself there
So...
Umm...
That's why I decided to come back to Japan!
I'm pretty sad that I...
Uhh...am leaving Korea honestly, but
I'm just gonna do...
My best with how things have turned out
Sometimes I get comments criticizing me for
Being really happy all the time...
People think it's annoying and fake
And I can see that because...
Umm...
I try to just make videos when I'm having a good day
And if I'm not having a good day
And I try to make it look like I am
Because I don't see the point in being
Sad and pessimistic about things
Umm...
That's just who I am even when I'm having a shitty day
I'll try and make the best out of it and try and see the good in things and
I'm gonna do that
With this situation too
So onto happier stuff!
Heh I'll tell you guys about where I'm gonna live
I actually decided to move back to
Morioka in northern Japan
If you've been watching my videos from years back
You've seen me come here a couple times
This is actually my Japanese hometown
This is where I first came when I moved to Japan when I was nineteen
It was also the first place I did a short term...
Uhh...
Ugoku
Uhh English uhh...
So this is like where all my first
Experiences of Japan...
Happened
And I've lots of really nice memories here
And luckily I have a few friends here still too!
Which is really cool
My friends from like 10 years ago
And my newer-ish friend Mark that works at the magic bar
He lives in Morioka too, so
It's kind of nice that I've got a little community up here
And, uhh...
I feel really familiar with the town
And I think it's just a good place for me to be right now
So...
I'm really, really looking forward to sharing it with you guys
It was always...
Kind of my
Dream for my YouTube channel was to
Share northern Japan with you guys because
As you know it's my favorite area of Japan
And I feel like it really doesn't get enough coverage for how awesome it is
So hopefully I'll be able to do that for you now
Now that I'm up here, umm...
I'll finally be able to make the videos that I've been wanting to make
I don't drive a car
Unfortunately I don't have my license in Japan
And the weather is really, really cold right now
So...
Uhm...
My only mode of transportation is walking or bicycle
So it probably won't be outside vlogging for
Maybe another...
Couple weeks or like a month or so?
Up here in Morioka
But umm, I'll actually be going down to Tokyo a lot!
Because I got a new job there!
I'll explain that to you guys in another video
That's like lots to talk about
But umm, yeah I'll be going back to Tokyo tomorrow actually for work and umm...
Maybe vlog a bit there
A few of my friends are coming to Tokyo for an event
And
It'll be nice to catch up with them
But yeah, then once I'm back in Morioka
I'm really looking forward to showing you guys around
I'm really looking forward to exploring it more because
When I lived here for three years when I was nineteen
I was...
Very umm...
I was very poor and I'd spent all my time working
Literally, I worked at like seven different schools
I did tutoring I did like online translation
I did all these different things and I didn't have much time to actually explore much of the town
So...
I think that'll be really fun for us to do together
I'll take you guys downtown and show you the shops and kind of...
Show you how the vibe is different from somewhere like Tokyo
I feel like I've disappointed a lot of you guys
Who are looking forward to videos about Korea
And I totally understand that because I'm also disappointed in myself
But I really hope you'll enjoy these videos as well
I'll do my best to make them really fun and enjoyable so...
*cute thank you gesture*
I appreciate your
Understanding
Thank you so much for all your support guys
Umm...
I could tell that some of you sensed that things weren't going so well for me and
You were extra nice and
Sweet in your comments and I really
I really appreciated that
I sent out umm...
Some private messages to some of my patrons
A little earlier
Before posting this video because I kind of wanted to like
Practice talking about this with people?
And
All the
Responses I got were so kind
So thank you guys so much that really helped a lot
And umm, it helped me find the courage to talk about this in a video
All right, I guess that is all
There is to say about this right now
Umm...
Thanks so much you guys again for being patient with me
I'm really, really lucky to have such a cool community of people watching my videos
You guys are so sweet
And I'm looking forward to getting back to my regular self and
Posting fun vlogs and interacting with you guys again
So...
I will see you very soon!~
Thanks guys!~
Bye~