for the past 10 years i've been suffering from chronic pain all over my body and i've
been visiting doctors all sorts of doctors started with tooth pain chin pain headaches
and every time i visited doctors they would say oh you're depressed you have
neuralgia you have migraine you have this or that you know like they came up with all sorts of
illnesses which i believe i didn't have so i kept looking for alternative healing methods and i
started visiting chiropractors here in florida and then even went to atlanta to see two others and
nothing seemed to work and i went to see another chiropractor in miami and i went
back to her after one and a half years and i say one and a half years ago i came to visit you but
we didn't seem to do anything and she said okay you can't have pain for so long let's get an
mri done and we get an mri done of the neck guess what she discovered a brain tumor
so one of the parents of my daughter's friends she the mother she gifted me um three sessions with
with a speech pathologist and uh she's a friend now unity minister and alina she
came visiting me on the very same day and she said you're going to be fine i said i'm in tears
okay and i say look this is a brain tumor surgery they're talking about you know how can you say oh
you're going to be fine and she just had faith and she said well believe me you're going to
get this operation done and everything's going to be all right all you have to do is
you have to have faith and you have to do the work i say what work she said you're not ready yet
go have the operation we'll continue where we left off and then the next morning i am
scheduled to see a neurosurgeon very nice doctor neurosurgeon he says you
you you should be on a wheelchair by now how come you're walking i said uh well i nobody believed me
but i had extreme pains my hands and my feet were numbing and everything and he said
i can understand it took years for this to develop you should have been diagnosed many many years ago
and he says operation and i say what are the consequences and he said well let's not think
about the bad but you know you could be paralyzed you could lose your voice you could um uh
not be able to swallow you could be on a feeding tube for the rest of your life
and you know let's think positive though okay how can you think positive after you hear all this
and i have a 16 year old at school that day because of the ptsa meeting she's not home
so he tells me to go home to pack my stuff go back to the hospital and admit myself
for an operation the next morning i go home said you know pack my things and
my daughter i didn't get to see my daughter i didn't get to see anyone i could only inform my
sister and my brother i couldn't even tell my mom and over the phone they live in turkey and
i had to facetime my daughter and say tell her i love you and i i had no time and i didn't i
couldn't even prioritize anything in my head like what what i wanted to do in life i i should have
done this i could have done this you know i could have lived better i could have not worried about
the past and then i look at the future and you know you can't imagine what you go through in that
12 hours before you go into the operation room and i went into the operation i came out and there was
no one there my sister was on her way still flying over and they said who do you want to call i said
my sister i couldn't she was on the flight as i said so um the neurosurgeon goes out and he says
two people friends who are waiting outside for me say well she might not be able to speak ever
she might not be able to swallow let's see from then on i kept on doing the work with
alina and she taught me how to meditate she taught me how to center myself
she taught me how to manifest things incredible and because she's she had been practicing dr joe's
work for over 15 20 years so um i i was picking up certain things and doing certain
things intuitively we i i didn't quite know the whole concept i didn't know where we were
getting at but she was pointing me in the right direction all the time
then i started watching the videos then i start watching following the events and
the more you learn the more you understand how you can do things better for yourself and from
the brain scan you can see that i have developed this tumor myself living 10 years on the survival
mode now i can name it before i was calling it stress because that's the only word i knew
and it's between five energy centers five and six so i literally blocked the root to six energy
center six by doing all the things that i was doing all the time so i came out of the operation
half paralyzed on the left hand side with a huge question mark on the back of my head
i think that's a sign too to question my life what i've been doing so far and what i should
be doing from now on and because cranial nerves 9 10 and 11 were sort of touched during the
operation process during the operation i could not speak or swallow and i worked as an interpreter
losing my voice meant losing my job or making any making a living so and then
hits covet and i was at home i was thinking oh still i'm very fortunate because i'm stuck at home
in bed and i had traveled around the world i'm a very hyper person normally i'm stuck at home
but so is everyone else so i'm at home but then thinking oh my god i can't do all the things i
used to do to you know help the community do anything but with kovid i got the chance to
start interpreting over the phone for people in the hospitals so people were hospitalized
and i started interpreting for them over the phone which gave me the chance to help others
in the healing process or whatever their condition was but whatever my condition was
at least i was given the chance so in a way i had to rebuild the faith the the the hope the
the future me so and today only 18 months after the operation i'm here when i came in i'm still
partially paralyzed in there with my tongue is as deviated i can swallow or write though which is
fortunate but i had this tingling feeling for the past week that i've been concentrating on
these meditations and i can definitely say it has made a change and i know it's going to get
better if i keep doing the work and you know it's when the student is ready the teacher appears
i think that's it that's the way i feel and i was ready and life
prepared me or brought me to that point and hit me bang on the head so that i could oops stop
and feel and see where i was heading what i wanted or what kind of a new me i wanted you