Sometime in the early morning, I just had this feeling, I'm back, I'm back whatever that is,
and it's all about this state of mind that is very, very, vibrant and wanting to extent and it's
involuntary and you can’t even hold it back. And I really felt like this wind like within me and
it was all like and I could like really feel that I want that it cannot be controlled. Like, it's
just gonna take me where it's gonna take me and it will just take a full surrender, it's not even
my choice. Then the prayer is always here, like, help me, help me give it all away spirit, how do
I give it all away, just help me, not wanting to hold back, even a little bit nothing, take it all,
take me, like take it, take it all. And, and this is the state of mind that we're invited we call
it the strawberry state of mind. And we do have, we do have a festival coming and but the more and
more the feeling is that it has nothing to do with the festival, it has nothing to do with the event.
As if it’s the event, it is really the state of mind. And I know like all of us we've been
in the state of mind for actually, for always, I wanted to say for a long time, but always,
like in this place. It's like nothing else is real. Nothing else exists. there is nothing
else I want this. And something else like that there is there is no such thing as something
else or someone else. Somebody even people like it's not a place of people. it's just a place
of the whole merge like true merge of the spirit, which is the prayer heart. And I had this scene,
this scene from Inception where I think it was Mal or Leonardo when she says you're waiting for
a train that will take you somewhere but you don't know, you don’t know for sure. Cuz you don't,
you’re really trusting. But it doesn't matter. Because all that all that matters is that we're
gonna be together, right? And that was exactly the feeling and the even like, the swiftness
of it. It's like, he doesn't know for sure. But like, take me take me now. And that pure feeling
of just, I'm ready. Like I'm just ready. Nothing else, nothing else to say not even knowing ready
for what it's just like, I'm ready. and clear. I'm with you. Let's go and It's amazing. And the thing
is, it's like it was all about the flow of what's in the flow. And it's really not about people like
really isn't. It's just really answering that call within like, I'm ready to just say I'm ready. Are
you ready? I'm ready, and see who joins you. And it's always such a treat, because you never know.
And it's always like you, you oh my god!! It's always the feeling. It's like its always the
loves of your lives. It's like, really, you don't think about it. But it's always such a almost like
such a surprise. It's always wow, wow. It's like, once again, it's just such an amazing journey,
it's all about this amazing movement in the mind. And it's just really opening like,
it feels like new kingdoms are being opened all the time. You know, like, new, like discovering
new kingdoms of Heaven. A lot of us even who came through Christian traditions or Judeo-Christian
tradition, at most we would hear that kind of resonated was you know sometimes bring
the Kingdom of Heaven to Earth but It's clear that Jesus was not talking about a Kingdom of
Heaven that really could be brought to Earth. He would say things like my Kingdom is not of this
world. He didn't say My Kingdom is on earth. And then we read things be in the world but not of it,
i’m calling you out of the world. Oh that’s pretty radical, but be in the world but not
of it. In the end we have to see that the present moment is the closest approximation to eternity
that this world offers. And we have to come to an admission that while we have a lot of future
goals and ambitions and strivings going on, we're efforting to try to make a better life in the
world that we're not really actually following the teachings of Jesus Christ, you can’t really mix,
the kingdom of heaven and eternity with linear time. And, and yet, it's not like Jesus is saying, okay,
in order to reach the Kingdom of Heaven you must be lazy or you must come into inertia or
something like that. He's basically saying you know, be still.he vibrancy is in the moment,
the vibrancy is in the spontaneity, the vibrancy is, is not trying to find consistency in form,
not trying to find continuity in form. Not trying to find the everlasting in the temporary. we can't
find it. The whole human experience, what we call a human being is really nothing more than the
attempt to find love in form or to find eternity in time. So it's this surrender or letting go and
there could be a moment of gas, like a fear of I'll lose myself if I if I just let go and into
that but amazingly, everything is still flowing just so perfectly when you let go of the quest
to try to make something of this world and when you really let go of trying to make anything
happen in the world or figure anything out in the world. Then all is abundantly provided.
Because it's all it's all your mind. It's all in your mind and in alignment with God.
But you're not trying to control it at all, there is absolutely no control over the world.