- Look,
I know that just one week ago,
I said that I was done with the Scrap'd Week series,
but I also said that I was never gonna make
a real meanwhile four.
And then I did that.
So clearly I'm not a man to be trusted, okay?
You know what, joke's on you at this point.
Fooled you 12 times, shame on you.
Hey you, my name is Thomas 'TomSka' Ridgewell,
and welcome back to Scrap'd Week.
Something I was never expecting to say again,
as last week I released a video that I thought captured all
the remaining videos that you never saw.
But I realized literally minutes after making it live
that I forgot to account for
the roughly 90 to 100 unlisted videos
that are spread across my two major channels.
These are videos that I gave life to.
I set them out into the world and then took back.
I reclaimed them because, for a variety of reasons,
I didn't want them public anymore.
And I thought it would be interesting,
although in my weird, obsessive, completionist brain,
necessary in order to finish this series to talk about them.
Or at least the ones that are in any way interesting.
So let's talk about some unlisted videos.
First of all, we can write off about 40 videos
which were unlisted for entirely uninteresting reasons.
These were update videos,
merch plugs,
convention announcements.
Things that only needed to be on my channel
for a very limited amount of time
and once they had served their purpose they could go.
They were free to die.
Like a Meeseeks.
- I just wanna die!
- Some of those update videos
were mildly interesting though.
We had my first ever update video from 2010,
called Taking a Break, in which I announced
that I could no longer upload weekly videos to YouTube
for a period of, I think, four months or so.
I was uploading weekly videos and it ruined me.
It was exhausting.
It made me glimpse a future
where I hated making YouTube videos.
To be fair, I only looked about three years into
the future at that point in time.
But hey, I complained about uploading videos
and said I'm not going to do it this much anymore.
Next were a couple of Eddsworld: Legacy update videos,
wherein I basically just bought myself time.
If you were around in the period, you may remember
that it didn't go very well.
It took me a very, very embarrassingly long time
to get videos out and also get people their physical perks.
So pretty much the day that Eddsworld: Legacy finished,
those videos were taken offline because it was done.
I was free.
- Dobby is free.
- And then there were three episodes of
the very shortly lied TomSka podcast,
wherein I would take questions
and talk about upcoming videos.
But between the first episode and the third episode,
I noticed such a significant drop off in views
that I realized no one gives a shit, man.
No one cares.
Now a few years back when I started to take
DarkSquidge as a channel a little more seriously,
it was no longer a place to just dump random footage,
and shit posts, and updates.
I purged a lot of the original uploads to the channel.
The things that happened between 2007 to 2011.
These weren't videos of any significance.
These are more just leftover footage.
Little bits with my friends that meant nothing.
They weren't representative of
the type of content I would make.
They weren't particularly funny.
They just didn't need to be there.
Ranging from extra footage from my earliest videos,
to a demo reel that I was forced to make
that was immediately outdated.
Goodbye, you're not missed.
Onto some more significant video's though.
One thing you may notice missing
from the DarkSquidge channel is possibly
its most popular standalone series,
which was the Fat Loser series.
A series in which I chronicled my struggles with weight gain
and weight loss.
This may surprise you,
but TomSka fat is a very commonly searched term on YouTube
and also Google.
And it brought in a lot of views.
It made me a lot of money.
It would have been smart to leave them up,
but truly I was just tired.
I was tired of being held accountable
for things I wanted to do and things
that I deemed super important back then.
When I was making these videos,
it was with this sort of misguided hope
that in putting it out there in the public eye,
it would force me to follow through with
the weight loss plans that I wanted to implement.
But it didn't work.
It wasn't the solution for the problem I had at the time.
And all it left me with was some videos,
which would garner constant comments
that weren't helpful at all.
They were just stressing me out
and I just didn't want those videos there anymore.
I wanted to have the right to remove that conversation.
I had opened it up.
I had opened up my body to a public discussion
and I didn't want that anymore.
I would much rather take my relationship with my weight,
my struggles with weight gain and weight loss
and make it personal.
Not something I wanted to talk about publicly anymore.
So those videos were gone.
And I tweeted about it at the time,
just in case you're thinking I tried to do it very subtly,
very sneakily.
Cause I know there'll be some shitty comments
in response to this no matter what.
But that's the why.
On a semi similar note,
I used to be a lot more publicly inviting
when it came to a particular relationship.
Not in the same way that I have been with,
say, last week and last month,
wherein I've invited you into my life as a whole
to experience the journey that it is to be me.
But back when I was at the peak of my TomSka fame,
when I was something to be looked at and celebrated,
and I was all, wow, how interesting.
I held up one relationship and said, "Look at this.
What a spectacle, what an interesting thing.
Come celebrate it and enjoy it with me."
And so when that relationship ended,
as relationships tend to do,
not only did I have to make a video saying,
"Hey, guys, this relationship's ended.
Please don't leave annoying comments
on our respective channels."
But also a year or so after that, once I felt like everyone
that needed to see those videos,
that was invested in that relationship had,
I just took all of those videos down and let things lie.
Because that's kind of the nature of it.
When you invite an audience into something
and you no longer want them in there,
you have to actively say,
"All right, show's over.
Thanks for coming, hope you had fun, please leave now."
And I'm very fortunate now
that as I am no longer super famous,
I have a lot more of a respectful and chill relationship.
But back then, it wasn't so much like that.
It was more intense.
And, yeah, I had to actively say, this is over.
It's done, stop now,
stop,
stop it.
And so those videos have to go as well.
Speaking of wanting the space to be able to move on,
this next bit isn't fun,
but I'm going to talk about it,
because that's what this video is really about.
And that is that my friend died back in 2012.
My friend and creative partner Edd died.
And I have a lot of videos across my channels
documenting our friendship and discussing his death.
And over the years I've been unlisting some of them.
Firstly, it was the ones that had his name in the title.
Then it was the ones that directly discussed his death.
And honestly, as time goes on, maybe I will unlist more,
if not all of them.
And this is all because, while I hold those videos so dear,
the comments I get on them just fucking suck.
And not just the comments I get on them,
but the comments that I get on all of my videos
because of the continued association between us,
just really fucking suck.
You don't know this,
but I have a word filter on my comments
that filters his name,
words pertaining to our relationship,
and the name of his show,
because, again,
those comments really suck,
and they're not something I have
the right to get angry about.
Because they're mostly from kids,
fans that are just excited,
and they just love the thing that he made,
and the hand that I had in that.
And they will post comments along the lines of,
do ya miss him?
And I'll get maybe a dozen of those every single day.
And at this point I'd anything to wind that down,
to decrease the number of those because they fucking suck.
They fucking suck.
Oh my God.
And I can't really explain to you articulately why that is,
but it's not fun.
And
it hurts all the time.
So
I don't wanna,
but I may continue to take down videos that he's in
or that directly reference him
because
it fucking sucks.
As a palate cleanser,
let's talk about some completely random videos
that have been unlisted across my channels
for of variety of reasons.
This includes Jake and Amir: Partners in Rhyme.
You may not recall the comedy duo Jake and Amir,
from College Humor, who in 2008, had a competition
where you could download all of their sketches
and edit them into a fake movie trailer.
A competition that I won.
Got a free t-shirt and everything,
made a movie trailer pretending they were partners
in a rap battle or something.
And it was very silly.
But it was also the video I uploaded directly
after asdfmovie1.
And I kept it up on my channel
for a really, really long time.
It wasn't relevant to my brand at all.
So eventually,
had to go.
Back in 2013, I put together a DarkSquidge video titled
How I Make Cartoons,
in which I chronicled a fictional dramatization
of me enlisting my housemate and animator friend
into making a cartoon for my channel to show you
the process of how a cartoon on TomSka
and DarkSquidge gets made.
And over the years,
that friend got so many annoying comments
from people quoting him and his performance in that video,
that he just asked me to take it down.
And I said, "That is entirely fair.
I am very sorry."
So it was gone.
A little way back,
my management encouraged me to get into the interview scene.
So I got twisted up in the Star Wars Rogue One press junket.
I liked that film, it was pretty good.
I interviewed Mads Mikkelsen and Ben Mendelsohn.
And also in a standalone video,
the director of the movie, Gareth Edwards.
Very nice guy.
The video, however, massively underperformed.
Interviewing is not my strength and it's not a direction
I decided to continue beyond that day.
So after a while, I just took the video down.
It just wasn't me.
I once made a collaboration with therapist, Katie Morton,
titled Why Am I So Angry,
in which I tried to get to the root
of my underlying anger issues.
And you know what?
I learned nothing.
It didn't help me,
it didn't help anyone.
It wasn't that entertaining.
It's gone.
The asdfmovie series.
Every time I upload a new episode, within moments,
someone has upload a new complete collection chronicling all
the installments so far.
So I eventually decided if someone's gonna do it anyway,
if someone's gonna get those views,
if someone's gonna get that ad revenue,
it may as well be me.
So I uploaded
the asdfmovie1-8 complete collection.
Then the one to nine,
one to 10,
one to 11,
and now the one to 12.
And you know what?
They got a shit ton of views.
The most views the channel has ever seen
and probably will ever see,
but because those videos did so well,
we started to notice that they were
the only ones from the channel being promoted.
Every time we uploaded the new video the only thing
that people would be getting to their feeds
was these asdfmovie complete collections.
So eventually I unlisted them because,
well, if it was detracting views away from
the stuff I was releasing now, it wasn't really helping.
Although it was making pretty much all the money
the channel made.
But either way they're gone.
And eventually the 1-12 collection that's up right now
will go as well and be replaced with the 1-13.
It's the circle of life.
All right, let's talk about some problematic videos.
Videos that were taken down
because perhaps they were doing more harm than good
or they were causing a little bit of controversy
that needed to go away.
First off we have The Sex Talk Foreplay,
which when you hear those words coming out in my mouth,
you already know it's not going to be a very good time, huh?
Back in 2013, I made a video called The Sex Talk,
which I'm honestly still largely very proud of.
It was me attempting to use my platform, my relevance,
my influence to provide some education
that I personally never experienced and had growing up
and very much needed to an audience
that I worried like me were being exposed
to too many things in the internet, too young.
And we're growing up with some warped ideas.
And like I said, I'm pretty proud of that video.
However, there was one segment that I included
that was about foreplay.
And while editing the video
I realized it was not like the others.
This was not just information about what these things are.
This was more of a how to on things like oral sex.
And that was not appropriate.
That was not,
that was that wasn't right.
So I cut it from the video.
However, being the big old narcissist completionist
that I am, I still it's my secondary channel.
And it just sat there being weird and cringy and creepy.
And after a few years I killed it
because why do they even upload it?
Weird call man.
Weird call.
In 2013 to 2015, I was feeling particularly virtuous,
particularly self-righteous.
I was discovering.
I was relearning.
I was unlearning.
And I found myself to be quiet a moral authority.
And I made a video called Responsibility on YouTube,
where I talked about being responsible on YouTube.
And instead of talking about my own faults
and things that I've learned and my thoughts,
I decided to point the finger
and say that YouTube is irresponsible.
That YouTube was irresponsible.
Fuck them.
Fuck that.
Fuck them for doing that.
It wasn't a good call.
Nor was it a good look.
And it caused quite a star.
In fact, I think it's the only DarkSquidge video
that ever got a news article about it.
And after the backlash from some of the creators
that I called out, I took the video down
and replaced it with a video called
Ironically Irresponsible, in which I addressed and admitted
that I'd gone about it the wrong way.
Although one of the creators in that video was like,
"Hey, maybe don't do that either.
Maybe just shut the fuck up."
And so I took that video down and didn't bring it up again.
I eventually remade the Responsibility on YouTube video,
where it was just the thing I said earlier,
where I talk about my own failings
and the things I've learned.
I'm proud of that video.
But those two are lost to time.
And yeah, I largely got over that self righteousness
and have learned to somewhat stay in my own lane
and just try to shut the fuck up as best I can,
especially when it comes to other people.
I'm not a moral authority.
I've already addressed this in its own video.
But back in around 2012, I made a think piece, if you will,
called Bullying It Doesn't Get Better.
Which was a tough love brotherly advice type video
in which I said, what I think I needed to hear that time,
which was that the bullies never go away.
That life never gets easier.
That you just get stronger.
Or honestly you just grow out of
the habits for which you're getting bullied for.
I thought that was a pretty good message at the time,
but years down the line, quite recently, I learned
that it actually had a very harmful effect
on a number of people.
Not just because I was inadvertently co-opting
the slogan of an anti gay suicide campaign.
That's where that kind of like was popularized.
And what are I had done was essentially make a video
where I said, "Look, people are always gonna bully you
for being gay.
Maybe just be a bit less gay."
Which not what I was doing trying to do,
but ultimately the impact that it had on a few people.
And if I'm making a video that isn't,
that is hurting people, I had fuck that video.
It wasn't worth it to me to keep that up.
Fuck that, it's gone.
Bye, bye bye.
And finally, a few years ago, but not enough years
that I can blame it on the follies of youth.
I made a video titled No Gaming Channel
in which I talked about the fact
that I would likely never have a gaming channel.
Nor would I seriously take up streaming
because gaming for an audience is not my thing.
Not something I was good at.
Not something that inspired me
and I was just never going to do it.
And I ended that video
by shouting out some gaming rules channels that I did enjoy.
But in that shout out,
I just super objectified one of the creators
and was creepy and sexist.
And years down the line,
I found out that it made them super uncomfortable
and actually led to some followup creepy comments
being posted on their work.
So I apologized directly and deleted that video
because oops, and you.
And finally, finally, finally, to celebrate this,
the final, final, final Scrap'd Week episode,
All About Unlisted videos, I will now unlist a video.
It will, by no means be the last video I enlist.
I'm sure.
But this is probably gonna be
the last time I bothered to talk about it.
The video I'm going to enlist is
The Art is Dead The Asdf Book announcement video
for a couple of reasons.
One because this glorified update video
has served its purpose.
The book he's now sold out.
The warehouses are empty.
The factories aren't making it anymore.
It's done.
But also because the video
just has a really shitty day joke in it
that I'm honestly embarrassed by.
It's a fucking triggered joke.
What low hanging fruit bullshit is that?
I didn't like that joke going in, but I did it anyway.
And I'm just a bit embarrassed by it.
I don't find it funny.
So it can fuck off.
Fairly thee well.
Looking back at this series, if there's one major takeaway,
it's that in life,
be it professionally, creatively or personally,
you're going to make a lot of mistakes and that's okay.
As long as you take the time to look on those mistakes
and figure out where exactly you went wrong
and take the necessary steps to avoid repeating them
in the future.
I wish there was a deeply profound quote
about learning from history or being doomed to repeat it,
to put here, but oh, well.
All right, so that is that.
Those are the unlisted videos.
And like I said,
I'm sure that more video will be unlisted down the line
as I grow out of things
or no longer want to be represented by things.
But I thought you'd be interested to know a little bit about
the process and the reasoning behind unlistifications.
That is a word.
Do not question me.
Now I'd love to say that once again,
this is the final Scrap'd Week video,
but I've already proved myself to be a liar.
So we should just hope
that in my heart I never have to do this again.
So thank you very much for watching
and I shall see you unless I have unlisted this video.
TomSka out.