okay so earlier today
I went to make Q&A video with my mom
because it's something we've done before and
I think people like seeing how
great she is with dealing with me being gay
and just even being silly like how normal our relationship is and how awesome our relationship is
and I think people really
get a lot of hope from that and anyways we went to make another video
half way through recording the video my camera ran out of room
so I'm deleting stuff from it and in the middle of that me and my mom just started to have
a conversation
a pretty personal conversation and
she didn't know but I started recording a part of it
and um it's pretty emotional
but uh
I couldn't spread a better message than
what she said and I think
I dont know
it's just.. I'm amazed that that's my mom
and I'm so proud that she's my mom and I just think
it's something a lot of people will benefit from hearing
so even though it's super personal
I decided I'm gonna upload it
so here it is
We've got a better relationship than anyone else
Well I mean I felt so bad for you when you called me that time and you're like "I've got everything going for me. I'm smart and I'm pretty and
people like me" but I've got this thing about me and
you know I was like you don't have a thing, everybody has a thing
it doesn't matter you know. I was trying to make you feel like
that's nothing you know that's just everybody has a thing
and that's just a thing. It doesn't define anything about you. You know?
You're perfect just the way you are.
You know?
You're the best.
You are. You're just like a perfect girl. All that stuff, it doesn't matter. Why do people care about that?
Why are people so involved with your life that they've got to like, make that a big deal.
What is the big deal? Why do they care?
It's not a big deal.-me I know it's not - mom
and people don't get that. I don't think people get that unless
like if somebody has somebody in their life
you know that has that, I mean then they start to get it.
But it's like, until they are in that situation. Some people are just so close minded that they are like
nope this is how it is! and you know,
and it's like no that's not how it is. That's not how it has to be.
We'll teach em' - me But I mean yeah it's getting better and I think it's kind of cool that - mom
you do your
videos. And I mean some people in your situation commit suicide I mean and
then it's over for them and they can't change that
you know then it's done and if you let them know that
yes you're in a bad place, I was in that bad place
you know I felt the same way
What way do I have out of this? But it's like if you just
go with it and get comfortable with yourself and
you know you'll get to a point where you're like, this is okay
you know it doesn't matter - mom yeah it's true - me
but you know some people don't make it to that part
They commit suicide or just
I mean hopefully they get to that and can get past that and don't do that
Mac wants them to make it too
I just feel awful that there are people out there, GOOD people out there in that spot
and then they do that to themselves
and it's like, that didn't have to be that way you know? or other issues, whatever people deal with
that make
you know young people get to the point where they might kill themselves
they don't understand, this can change.
it's like I read that book, It Get's Better
if they don't make it there then you don't know
you don't have the chance to get passed that. If you just think there's no end, there's no way out of this
and that's your choice then you don't have a way to get beyond that and say
Wow, it could be okay and I
can actually be happy.- mom It's so easy to fall into that -me
yeah I mean if you feel trapped
like with you being able to talk to these people
it gives them hope that, Oh wow there's someone who was in my shoes
And she worked through that, and look how happy she is now.
It gives them the opportunity to see, that's not my only option.
My options are wide open.
yeah
what's it like having the best daughter ever
I don't know you'd have to ask my mother.