- [Crew Member] Time capsule, one one.
- Let's do this shit.
Year three.
Ya'll been asking for it, so here we are.
My name is Billie Eilish.
Billie Eilish.
My name is Billie Eilish.
I think it's October 18th, 2017.
Its October 18th, 2018.
October 18th, 2019.
I'm 15.
I'm 16.
I'm 17.
I have 257,000.
I have 6.3 million.
40.7 million.
That's great.
That's so...
Can you, wow, that's crazy.
1.13 million.
9.6 million.
152 million Google searches of me.
Bing?
Who the fuck uses Bing?
[laughing]
It's a picture of me and Charlie XCX.
Isn't it the one about me smiling?
That's a lot.
10 million.
That's my face.
No, that makes me feel good though,
because sometimes the most liked picture's like,
you with like, another celebrity or you with somebody else,
but that's just me.
That's shit's hard, come on.
I'd say probably Khalid, which is weird because he's like,
just a homie of mine.
Oh, Hailey Bieber, Justin Bieber, Young Thug, Avril Levigne
Ariana Grande, Kid Cudi, Ty Dolla Sign, oh, Teyana Taylor.
God, there's so many.
But like Drake, come on.
Drake?
Drake is like, the nicest dude I've ever spoken to.
I mean, I've only like, texted him, but he's so nice.
Like, he does not need to be nice, you know what I mean?
He's at a level in his life where
he doesn't need to be nice, but he is, you know?
Being Apple's Up Next Artist.
Jeez.
Jeez!
I did Ellen last week, Jimmy Fallon, so many festivals.
I met Takashi Murakami.
I went to his studio.
Dave Grohl's daughter did a cover of my song.
He played guitar for her at a talent show, I think.
There's been a lot of shit that's happened in the last year.
Ugh, my skin was so bad.
Jesus.
Look, I'm glowing now.
Yes!
My skin got better.
I was the season opener for SNL.
I just sold out a headlining arena tour.
Did Howard Stern, Rolling Stone cover, Elle cover,
V cover, Billboard cover, released the album,
had a number one single, had a number two single
for like 16 weeks straight or some shit, right.
Biggest selling album of the year.
I have Drake's phone number.
[laughing]
The people that support me, my fans,
which I don't like to call fans,
my, you know, my family, you know.
God, I was so annoying then.
Finishing this album and doing the most crazy shows
I'm capable of doing in the next month.
I finished that album, thank the Lords above
because I was about to jump off a building
to finish that fucking album.
Oh, my God.
Exhausting.
Thank God I finished that shit.
I can't.
Honestly, sometimes I think about it.
Sometimes I'm like, like me and Finneas
have had conversations where we're like,
can you believe we actually finished the album?
I swear to God, we thought we would never finish that shit.
Ever.
I love that album.
Probably like a fucking 10, dude.
I love it.
Fuck it.
Oh wait, it's great, sorry, A.
I never went to school, I never got grades.
Sorry.
A plus is what I meant.
The most important thing right now, though,
probably would be maintaining my happiness,
which I've been experiencing for like, the first time
in many years lately, which is really cool.
And not that my fans aren't like,
also the other most important thing in the world.
And doing shows is also really important to me
and doing crazy shows especially, but I want to stay happy.
That's a big goal for me.
I don't know if I'm more confident,
I just think I know what I'm doing more.
I think I'm less confident, actually.
True. I was less confident, for sure.
I was definitely not as confident last year
as I was before that, but I am for sure a billion times
more confident than both of those years.
I feel like I'm probably the most confident
I've ever been in my life.
I guess.
I don't know how the fuck, I don't know how it happened,
but I guess I am.
I am definitely successful.
I was thinking about that like, earlier today.
Because of this interview, I was like.
Back then I thought it was like,
the biggest I was ever gonna be and I thought, you know,
it was the most I was ever gonna be recognized
and it was the most anyone's gonna know me
and it was the most money that I would have,
the most clothes I'd have, the most shoes that I'd have.
And what's crazy, it wasn't.
Success is not how well people know you.
It's how you're like, looked at.
I genuinely did not think people would care.
I like, can't even stress it enough.
I can't believe people care so much about me.
It's crazy to me.
I might be safe if I go to Trader Joe's.
Nope!
Not safe.
I tried it.
I went to Trader Joe's.
Did not work.
Nope, did not work.
Tried it!
I also tried Costco, which I thought I'd be safe at
and that didn't work.
Fuck's sake.
The reason it was like, affecting me so much last year
was because all I wanted to do was go out.
I don't even think about going out anymore.
I like this life that I have.
I like being famous.
It's very weird, but it's very cool.
And I can, I feel like I can say that now
because I used to hate it.
I hated doing press and I hated being recognized
and I hated kind of everything that had to do with it.
There's a lot in fame that's fucking gross
and horrible and just miserable,
but I'm very grateful for it and it's really rare
and it's really, I'm very lucky,
so I'm so done with complaining about it.
I complained about it for so long.
Probably that stupid Cheeto head man.
November 6th, there's an election soon.
I really hope everyone votes so the world doesn't end.
There's an impeachment going on.
Honestly, the news is so bad, I can't even.
Oh yeah, Beyonce had some twins and she still looks fly.
Kehlani's pregnant.
Greta Thunberg, honestly.
She's been fucking kicking people's ass.
Esketit.
That can die, okay.
Esketit is supposed to be like, let's get it
but like, esketit is so annoying.
Stop.
Oh, that's stupid Snapchat filter that's like,
[making filter tone].
I'm kinda over the whole like, Juuling shit.
That shit is so ugly.
Like, smoking looks cooler than Juuling.
Don't, like don't smoke but you know, like.
[laughing]
People think I'm pregnant.
A lot of people thought I was pregnant for a second.
They did think I was pregnant.
There was like, a story on Snapchat the other day.
I was like, wait, did Billie Eilish have a baby?
It's like, what?
Biggest rumor though now, that I sold my soul to Satan.
No, I don't have a boyfriend.
I can't, I could not have a boyfriend.
That would just be mean to him.
I don't know, I almost had one for like, a little,
but it wasn't really exclusive,
so I don't know what you call that.
I hate things that are exclusive.
Never.
That's so funny.
I don't have a boyfriend, ha, ha, ha!
I actually did then, but I don't now.
I still am on good terms with everybody.
And I still have so much love for like,
the person that I was with then and,
but I am single and I'd rather turn eight-tingle.
[laughing]
For the first time in my life I don't feel the need
to be with anyone.
For the first time in my life.
I don't have my eyes on anyone, I'm not in the mood,
I don't have enough stamina for it right now
and I'm totally fine with that.
So who knows.
I'm open to it.
I think the month of May, probably mid-May,
I was in a horrible place mentally.
So.
When a friend of mine died in June, it was pretty bad.
In January, I had a meeting showing me the schedule
for the whole year and I sat there and was totally silent
and totally still and just tears like,
just streamed down my face.
I went to my garage and I just cried.
It just was very overwhelming
and I was in a really bad place.
So.
I don't want to take it for granted.
I catch myself.
True.
Even some things I've said today, I catch myself.
What am I doing?
What am I saying?
What? 40,000 people?
What?
Are you ever conscious that you're doing something
that you don't want to be doing but you just,
you're just doing it?
It was like that because I was taking it for granted
and I, that makes me really mad and I don't want to be
and I just was.
I don't know, I worked really hard on not doing that
as I said in that, and I've kind of
held my ground a little bit.
I think I've like, kind of accomplished
not taking it for granted.
I've been really grateful for everything
and really aware lately and I just was realizing
that I was giving too much of myself to other people's lives
and to other people's situations and I was like,
you know what, I need this attention on me right now.
So yeah.
Fruitvale Station.
The storyline is so heartbreaking, dude.
That shit grabs you and pulls you and, ugh.
No, this, I can't afford a real chain.
They are real.
My chains were gifts.
I did not buy anything that I'm wearing.
I stopped wearing real jewelry, like real diamonds and stuff
because A, I'm a break that shit.
B, I'm a lose that shit.
C, I got other shit to buy.
You know what I mean?
I like bright green a lot.
I like black.
It's been pretty dark lately,
so I've just wanted to be dark with it.
Black is like the only time I can go
through the airport and be fine.
That's cool.
Because the airport is normally like,
basically being at a meet and greet,
but if I'm wearing a black beanie and a black shirt
and some black pants and black shoes, I'm pretty good.
Kind of like them all.
Like, I'm not opposed to anything.
Anything.
Nah.
Yep. Yeah.
I feel that there is pressure on me,
but I don't feel the pressure.
You know what I mean?
I feel it less now that it's bigger, in a way.
It's like performing in front of 80,000 people
is way easier than performing in front of eight people.
I don't know why.
I kind of would say that the no respect element
of the getting recognized.
I want a hug.
I want to talk to somebody and hear how their day went.
I don't want a camera shoved in my face.
Mm-hmm.
It's gotten much worse since then.
Excitement makes you be kind of stupid sometimes.
I did this show last week where I went down
into the crowd and I just did this to all the hands
and somebody grabbed my hand and yanked me so hard.
And I had two security guards, two of my security guards
with my hand in one hand and, or my arm in one hand
and their arm in one hand literally going like this
to try to pull me away and it took a minute to do it.
I'm like, bending over and I was also
singing Ocean Eyes at the same time.
I was like, like, and I, and then when they finally let go,
I like fell on top of this fucking thing
and then somebody stole my ring.
Somebody grabbed my hand and pulled my ring off,
stole it, whatever.
I expect that.
And then I leaned back into this one area of all these fans
and this one girl just went to me.
And I, at first I was like, she probably didn't mean to
because she kinda went like this.
They're only trying to be loving and sometimes
it just comes off wrong.
That's it.
Don't post everything you think.
I should give it to myself then too.
[laughing]
But I do it now, I don't anymore, yay.
That's what I was just saying.
Sometimes it's better to just shut the fuck up.
I would tell 16-year-old me to remember
who her best friends are and remember who the people
that care about her the most are and not throw them away
for somebody else or for something else.
I really hope that I'm not an asshole
because I'm really afraid that I will be
and I really don't want to be.
You better not be an asshole or I'll whip your ass.
I don't know if I'm an asshole.
Am I?
Gosh, she's, God.
See, I didn't, oh my God.
I was so bubbly and why?
What was funny is I wasn't actually in real life.
I just was new to interviews and I thought I had to be
all like bubbly and cute in interviews.
When I watched that when the other one came out last year,
I was like, I like didn't know I could swear.
I was saying like frickin'.
What the heck?
Laryngitis as heck.
Tiring as heck.
Am I an asshole?
I don't think I'm an asshole.
Maybe, I don't know.
I performed for a bunch of Jared Leto's friends
and Jared Leto in his house.
I performed for Leonardo DiCaprio in Jared's big,
huge living room.
Bieber watched my Coachella set.
That's crazy.
Mel C, Sporty Spice came to my show.
Avril Lavigne came to my show.
Thom Yorke came to my show.
Dave Grohl is coming to my show.
Billie Joe Armstrong came to my show.
Julia Roberts is coming to my show.
Leonardo DiCaprio watched my SNL show by a backstage.
I don't even know why he was there.
Chris Rock.
Well, I didn't know for those last couple
that they were even there.
Bieber, I was thinking about that the whole time.
Bieber and Hailey were both watching me and I,
luckily I didn't see them because if I had seen them I
would've lost my shit.
Whoa.
Little Wayne.
Oh, and perform with Little Wayne?
That's a great answer.
Myself.
I'm tired of other people.
Doing shows with other people is really stressful.
Brockhampton.
Tierra Whack is sick.
My favorite artist is Tekno.
There isn't one song that I don't like that he puts out.
Every single song that that man puts out, I love.
Shouldn't that count as your favorite artist,
is that artist that puts out music that you only like?
You know what I mean?
Having the approach that no one's had,
trying to write something no one's written.
So stupid.
I remember that.
Try to write something no one's ever heard?
God, what an idiot.
See, that's why I'm still bad at it
because that's what I was trying to do.
Fuck!
[laughing]
It's true.
That's so funny.
Yup. She's right.
Yeah, I still, I'm bad at it.
Honestly, I don't know because I kind of
have no idea what to expect.
Like, I thought I knew like, last year.
I thought I knew what the, what people would like
for my album and I thought I knew like,
what would be popular and I was so wrong.
Bad Guy is like, the biggest fucking thing ever now,
which is so weird.
I did not think anyone would like that one.
So I have no clue.
I almost have a feeling that the one that I would say
is my favorite like, one right now,
people might not even like it, so I have no idea.
The music industry, man.
We're all sad as hell.
All these artists, we're sad as shit, dude.
Everybody I know that's an artist,
we are sad mother fuckers.
So annoying.
Somebody got that tattooed.
That quote tattooed!
I don't think it's fair to say that we're all sad
because I don't think that's true.
I was just 16 and friends with a bunch of other, you know,
young people that were kind of going through the same stuff,
like having this crazy spotlight on them
and they were fucking sad too.
And that's why I think I thought that, but I hadn't,
I didn't, I hadn't experienced it.
I think it's a beautiful thing to get to do.
I think it's really difficult and I think
that's what people don't realize
and that's why I wanted to say that then.
Yeah, it was terrifying.
And it's like, it still is, but I enjoy it and I.
I don't know, I enjoy it.
Oh, I just want to do everything.
I want to create what I want to create
when I want to create it.
It's gonna change no matter what.
Same shit. Whatever I want.
I'm not gonna tell myself to do something different
next year, I'm gonna just do what I want next year.
That's what I'm doing this year.
That I dress and look really different than my music,
which is true for all the old music I have or like,
the stuff I put out like years ago.
But you got to remember I was 13 when Ocean Eyes came out
and then I was 14 when I wrote like, all the rest,
and then I was 15 when I wrote Don't Smile at Me
with my brother when we put that out.
Now I'm 16 and all year, I've just been making music
that's gonna come out when I'm 17.
And then when I'm 17, I'll probably be like,
yeah, this isn't me now, but it was me when I was 16.
And then I'll make music when I'm 17,
and then when I'm 18, I'll be like, this isn't me now.
[laughing]
A genius.
Oh my God, hell yeah.
Damn. Articulate.
She stated it perfectly, dude.
She put it better than I could have put it.
I mean it, the thing is that the ones that annoy me
are the ones that are pretty true.
Like, my voice is really soft and it's not belty and shit.
And that people think that, oh, I whisper in all my songs.
And like, I do in a couple songs, but I feel like
people just say that about when they've heard
one fucking song.
Like, listen to Wish You Were Gay.
That bitch a belting.
And like, my belt is not even close to a fucking Adele belt.
Adele is like a literal God, but it's just different.
Like, you don't have to be shouting to be good at singing.
My brother is my best friend.
My best friend is Finneas, but he is also my brother.
Instagram.
Probably Instagram.
Instagram been hurting my feelings lately.
I really see everything, but that's the problem
is that I see everything
so then I see everything I don't want to see.
And you know, it's just this fucking thing in my brain.
So lately I don't like looking at it.
A fan brought me a notebook filled with huge like,
letters from my fans to me, all from different people
and it's like tons of pages.
It's incredible.
People throw a lot of things at me on stage.
I've been thrown, you know, bras, avocados.
A girl gave me this huge like, stuffed Blohsh that she made
with this like, velvet material and I have been
sleeping with it for a week now.
So embarrassing.
I wasn't gonna tell anyone that.
[laughing]
It's really cozy though.
But the other day I was lying in bed thinking like,
what if she put a camera in this thing?
It's really hard to talk about my life
and have it not sound like I'm bragging.
[laughing]
I said that today, too.
My nose is so cute in that.
Sorry, I just, look at that nose.
Like a little button.
Sometimes I'll catch myself in a conversation with someone
acting like I'm in an interview, and in interviews
you're trained to talk about yourself
and not ask the other person about themselves.
And so I'll catch myself in conversations where I'm like,
shit, like I'm not being interviewed,
I'm acting like I'm being interviewed
instead of acting like I'm talking to a human being.
And I think some artists and celebrities
haven't even learned that and still just do that.
And people I love do that, that I've met where they just,
they're trained to talk like they're in an interview
and that's normal but it's like we forget
that we're not though.
Yeah, the first year I was like,
you better know how to drive, right.
And didn't I say, oh no, I saw this part recently.
It was like, you better know how to drive
because I've been putting off drivers ed
because that stuff stinks.
I hate that stuff. I hate that stuff.
Ew! That stuff stinks.
Why didn't I say that shit sucks?
Like I could've said that fucking sucks!
That stuff stinks.
Oh my God, it's so cringey, jeez.
Hey Billy, a year ago you have your dream car.
Can you believe it?
No, you can't.
But you can though because it's your car now.
It was a Dodge Challenger, matte black.
Actually, literally two months from today is my birthday.
So two months after that day, I got my dream car
and I cried for about three hours.
You better have a Lamborghini.
[laughing]
The mom moment typically is...
This is my mom.
She is sick as a booty.
- I don't mind.
I can stay here that long.
I love you.
- I love you, too.
- Next year, I hope you're very, very happy
and that your happiness you have this year continues
and only grows.
And you have everything you want in life,
and you help change the world for the better.
- Mom's definitely gonna help change the world though,
more than I am.
[crew applauding]