[MUSIC PLAYING]
(SINGING) Don't worry about it.
I've got it.
Anything you want, I've got it.
Don't worry about it.
I've got it.
How are you guys?
I'm so excited to see.
So good to see you.
Aw, You, too.
You, too.
- I'm so excited! - I know.
How is everything?
Everything is so good.
Thank you, guys.
Today we are at MahoganyBooks store in National Harbor.
I have come to drop off more of my book, "Do That [BLEEP]""
because MahoganyBooks store is sold
out at both of their locations.
Yes, sold out author.
I am planning to do more book events now that the book is
officially out. - I love that.
We need to have you come in and do a sit down talk.
That's all we need. - Yeah.
- Really. - That's what I want to do.
I want to have a discussion now that people
actually have the book.
So Yeah, and like, actually talk to the readers.
But when people say like, Oh, I've read your book
or I have your book.
I am kind of like, oh, OK.
Now you know all my business.
I know.
But you know what?
I love that your book was really personal.
You talked about your bout with depression,
with a lot of different things.
So many Black people in our community deal with that.
But nobody is talking about it or we're
scared to talk about it or there's this stigma.
Yup, it's shame.
RAMUNDA YOUNG: So to have you be out--
Yeah, it is.
So to have you out there on the platform that you're on
and be an author and be accessible, it's huge, Ashley.
Thank you.
RAMUNDA YOUNG: It really is.
A book doesn't have an expiration date.
We're going to be talking about this book in 2023, 2024, 2056.
It'll go in our personal growth section.
Yes. I love that.
Here until forever, I am a published author.
Thank you so much and I'm definitely
going to contact you guys, let you guys know about this event
because we're going to get it popping.
I see you guys have coffee.
I might have to come get one.
Of course, we do.
Hi.
I need some energy.
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DERRICK YOUNG: Hey. How you doing?
Welcome to MahoganyBooks. RAMUNDA YOUNG: Welcome.
Welcome to MahoganyBooks.
Thank you.
Sister.
Hi, sister.
You look cute.
Thank you.
Today, my sister is meeting me at MahoganyBooks store.
She is my older sister.
We have the same mom.
We have different dads.
Let me show you where they put my books.
My sister's opinion holds a lot of value in my life
now that I am older.
How do you feel?
I don't know yet.
You've got one of the first copies
and you had sent me a message.
I already knew what you wanted to talk to me about, so.
What?
What did I want to talk about?
I felt like you wanted to talk to me about how our mother was
going to feel about the book.
My sister is trying to protect my mom.
My sister is trying to protect me
and my sister is trying to protect herself.
Because she knows my mom may have
an attitude about this book.
And when my mom has an attitude with one of us,
my mom has an attitude with both of us.
That's one part.
But I mean, the first part-- the main part is I'm proud of you.
Aw, thank you.
I'm very, very proud of you.
You look like you're about to cry.
I mean.
[LAUGHTER]
The acknowledgment, you know.
I just appreciate you for that.
ASHLEY SILVA: Oh.
We go above and beyond for our mother.
You literally gave her your stem cells so she could be alive.
But I just feel like, if it's like "no" at the moment
or "I can't right now" or "you got to wait," it's like, Oh,
we're the worst people on Earth.
And that is hurtful.
And have you tried to express this to her?
I have and every time I've tried to express it to her,
she responds with, you make it seem like I'm
the worst mother in the world.
I have never said that.
I'm the kind of mom I am because of you.
And I think that bothers her when I say that.
My mom's truth differs from the rest of our truths of what
has happened in the past with me growing up, and even
with my sister growing up.
My mother will give you a different story
now because she's trying to rearrange the past
and rearrange the truth.
You know I've always said like, she
needs some type of therapy.
Another thing I wanted to talk to you about.
There was like certain things that you
mentioned that I had no idea happened
or how that affected you.
And you know, like, for me as a big sister,
it's like I just wanted to apologize,
like, if I wasn't there the way you needed me to be.
What I've have had to come to grip, like,
you are a mom really young.
I felt like sometimes when I wanted
to come to you for things, it was like,
you're struggling with two little children.
I feel like now where we are, that's
why I do try to talk to you more and like,
you have been there for me at my literally at my lowest point.
During those times, I wish you would have come to me.
Sometime with mommy I feel like she wants to save
face almost to other people.
So I just I don't want her to be offended and that was my issue.
I just want her to read past the first couple of pages.
OK.
Has mommy read the book?
She has her copy.
Um.
She told me she got it.
She hasn't said anything about reading it yet.
That's why I felt like either you or I-- well,
more specifically you because it's your book--
probably should have gave her a heads up.
Like, hey, this is my truth.
This is my story.
Don't get offended.
Just read the book in its entirety.
I mean, I didn't really give anybody a heads up.
I said stuff about you.
I said stuff about Quick.
Like, I didn't give anybody a heads up.
I was like, oh, this is giving Best Man meets Queen Sugar.
ASHLEY SILVA: Just put all our business, child.
But yeah, I didn't, like, nobody got a heads up.
But do you feel like it was honest?
Yeah.
I mean, it's my story.
But do you feel like that's what happened?
Yeah.
Because I feel like a lot of times
when mommy and I discuss me being a teenager
and what happened, she has a different recollection
of what went down.
I don't think she's read it yet because she hasn't
said anything to me about it.
But I'm going to go see her soon.
There are several different Kim's.
So sometimes you don't know which Kim you're going to get.
The Kim now who doesn't want to talk about anything
from the past because everything with her now is,
well, I had cancer.
So I feel bad even saying, well, this hurt me.
Yeah, I tell her all the time like,
you need to speak more positive--
ASHLEY SILVA: --positive.
--in your life, positivity in your life.
It's long overdue.
I think the time is now.
My mom is someone who really cares about what her Facebook
friends has to say about her.
So if they read it and she's not painted in the light
that she feels like she should be, she may not be too happy.
Let's look at some books.
I'm going to get some for the kids.
Oh, yeah.
Let's see if they have any recommendations.
Yes.
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