My mom and I do not have a good relationship at all.
Every time my mom and I talk,
it turns into a screaming match.
She is definitely controlling and overbearing.
I think that she should mind her own business.
My mom and I currently aren't speaking right now.
He was arrested for drunk driving
and I didn't help him.
She said, sometimes I feel
like you just weren't my son anymore.
I told my mom that I had a restraining order on her
because she texted Hanna that she needed to leave me.
And I knew if I threatened her with the police
that she would back off.
My problems in my relationship with Hanna
are no different than any 28 and 25-year-old
that have a kid.
I come in the house,
the kids are screaming,
everything seems like it's going crazy
and next thing you know,
it's me and her are going at each other.
When Hanna and I start to argue,
it escalates pretty quickly.
If we're in the vehicle and arguing,
she starts driving like a pissed of teenager.
I'm telling you to slow down, chill,
it's not a big deal
and you're not listening to me.
So there was one or two times
where it got physical.
The first time, we were both pretty drunk.
I shoved her
and she swung at me
and I think I hit her back.
That's not like a thing in our relationship.
When she's calling me a psychopath or something like that
I kind of lose it.
When I get angry,
I'll either get really loud
or get really nasty with my tone.
Like if this interview went bad,
I would be like I'm done
and just get up and walk out.
And once that happened,
there would be not getting me back in this room.
Okay, so you think you have an anger problem?
Absolutely.
Okay, and you think you have an alcohol problem?
Yes.
Okay, and this is not past,
this is current,
you have that problem today?
Yes, I've been working on it.
Since I got arrested for my second DUI,
I've been completely sober
and it's a decision that I've made for myself,
not anyone else.
Like in the past, I've always thought
that I could stay,
I had to be sober for the courts,
or I had to be sober for other people.
And this is a decision that I made
at this point in my life
that I need to do this for myself
so I can be there for my kids,
for my girlfriend,
for my family.
What gives you the right
to get drunk and operate
a 5,000 pound vehicle on the public roads
where I go, my grandchildren go,
all of these people go with their kids,
and you're out drunk,
driving a 5,000 pound unguided missile?
What gives you the right to do that?
I don't have the right to do that.
But you do it.
And I did
and it's not something I'm proud of.
But what do you say to yourself at the time
that gives you in your head the right to do it?
At the time, I need to get home
to my girlfriend and my family.
My kids are at home
and I need to make sure that I'm there
to take care of them.
And the alcohol makes it
just easier to make that situation.
When I'm not sober,
it's very easy when you're drinking
to let those morals go
that you know so well.
So you realize it impairs your judgment?
Absolutely.
You said at the end of this tape here,
you said, "For example, rage, my anger,
"like if I got upset
"that this interview didn't go the way I wanted it to
"or I was upset about it,
"I would leave and there would be no getting me back."
You said that like you were proud of it.
No, it's just I know myself very well
and I'm a very headstrong person,
like what it would
end up leading to. Because I promise you
I'm gonna tell you some things today
that you don't want to hear.
I'm sure of it
and I need it.
So why did you tell your mother
you had a restraining order against her
when in fact you don't?
Because as she's always done in my life,
she's sabotaged all my relationships.
I don't also need the stress
of my own mother texting my girlfriend behind my back
telling her to leave me
when that's something that hasn't even been on the table.