the acknowledgement that to discover the
truth of who you are you need to go into
the belly of the beast you need to go
under the ocean you need to go into the
darkness into the pain that's where you
will discover the true gift of the self
if you never go below the surface then
you will never discover the truth of who
you are you will only vibrate on the
higher frequencies what shall I do where
shall I put the attention
don't put it nowhere nowhere don't put
the attention nowhere surrender my world
with the green means I do several things
I don't want to do each day like a go
for a run with the dog I do Brazilian
Jujitsu
I pray and I meditate on forever
plunging myself in a cold liquids thanks
to wim HOF feel like I've not done my
baby duty I think I used to be quite
lazy when I was signing on and taking
drugs the whole time I'm really be
bothered to do anything don't you
basically think I'd like to not go
anywhere ever again or do anything else
about the rock and Mark Wahlberg getting
up at 3 in the morning to do exercises
and go in cryo chambers and all those
thing that that was why I suppose
they're so successful they were absolute
willingness to gap of 3 a.m.
I love to be cozy though you just want
to be sort of cozy and snug with a nice
cold easter egg or cozy that punter a
little duvet and just watch things
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sometimes when you're actually doing
that now you feel a little bit anxious
and depressed like you should be doing
some akil's dream of individualism and
heroism that somehow resourced from your
inner self you make manifest these
glorious here and heroic lives work and
endeavor the you know apex of human
achievement but then he sounds like a
cat and dog I don't think we're doing
anything at all
look at them they're still there that
was basically as good as you but I
suppose what you don't want to do is
lethargically sluggishly slap on a couch
inert and hopeless surrendered my will
absolutely before awaking is I'd like to
go back to sleep now I'd like to stay in
bed I think all sorts of mad crazy
narcissistic things about myself but
that ain't the person I'm interested in
building when you're building a house
how would you if you sort of go right
this is the room that I'll sit and
crying this is the room where the mud
where the burglars will eventually smash
the window and come in if you plan for
that house that's the house that you're
going to create the person that I want
to become is free from those kind of
lateral comparisons about how cool I am
around nice buyer guys
they say that guilt is because of what
you have done and shame is because of
who you are I felt guilty about a lot of
things I've done in the past aloha could
have been a better person I should have
behaved better I've also dealt with a
lot of shame feelings of worthlessness
low self-esteem the way out of shame for
me has been to address as where possible
incidents in the past where I feel my
behavior was not as it should have been
to ask for forgiveness and to be willing
to forgive others for being less than
perfect I think the ones reality is a
result of your intention and your
attention well what's the point in doing
anything I think it's okay to relax I
think it's okay to rest I think it's
necessary to spend time in quiet
communion with your true self so that
your conscious activity isn't entirely
governed by the thinking mind that you
have time to get in touch with you in
truth situate yourself your emotional
self is good to be restful and in a
repose but for me it is important to how
disciplined don't take on other people's
ideals about what you should be doing of
course I'm lazy because I'm not you know
sort of a roaring Li successful
stockbroker on the life of free am doing
push-ups in a cryo chamber but do find
your own standards and abide by them do
take advice and counsel from those you
admire and help and let them help you to
establish a routine you can live by
because I suppose laziness is only
relevant
you know fulfilling your potential
because some animals don't get back a
lot I'm announcing to live all the
member
anxiety is fear in three syllables fear
is awareness fear is potentially wisdom
in your fear they could be truth in
anxiety there could be truth we don't
want to live lives of continued anxiety
do me that feeling in your gut
I check in myself each morning and I say
ah where is the fear where is it what is
it that I visit my life being like what
is it that I want to achieve these
things these events parties gatherings
it can feel sort of sad to not be
included the answer is not to try and be
included in things the answer is to
address the sadness the fear of missing
out is a illusory thing as a distraction
from the truth of the disconnect from
within you
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maintain as your priority your
connection with who you truly are and
your own personal and ethical code I've
always felt this even price being
invited to sort of swanky stuff I
thought I bet it didn't no good really
all I ever really wanted was nullifying
pleasure that obliterates consciousness
but as opposed to because I'm a drug
addict I've always wanted things that's
all smash you out of awakeness but nice
that is because I deeply and essentially
crave a transcendent state that is truer
than the variance of material reality
which we are forced to endure I have to
necessarily let go of for.we narrative
eyes this feeling of fear we those with
the tendency to addiction
the tendency to the invisible realm the
spiritual realm those of us that are
disillusioned with the material world we
have a tendency to fear because we are
trying to intuit and sense people don't
talk enough of the ambivalence of
mindfulness the cost of being awake the
cost of continually seeing and observing
every single gesture and how close
spirituality sits the superstition fear
is energy as surely as craving is
yearning and all yearning could be used
to drive you to pull you closer to the
truth of who you are so fear contains
wisdom in it ask to see that don't
narrative eyes the fear with your mind
that this is merely mad fear migrating
around in my mind creating unnecessary
narratives of Terror the fear of missing
out FOMO as the daft acronym suggests he
said is a illusory thing as a
distraction from the truth
disconnection within you it's like
people feel a bit ashamed of being
lonely I used to be really lonely too
quite late in life actually
I suppose loneliness implies that you're
not happy with your own company my
solution to that for a long while was to
use drugs when I was alone it was only a
temporary solution
what I have been done is I learned to be
on my own in a more peaceful and
harmonious way just by trying it it's a
sort of thing you have to have practice
with if you're on your own and it's a
choice it can be okay but human
connection is so important it's so
important to have a group identity
it said that grief is the price we pay
for love but if we're going to love
people and adore them that grief is an
unavoidable consequence of that everyone
has their capacity for awaken this when
you get the things your culture tells
you you should be doing and you
experience them now you know now you
know you can stop chasing the carrot
because you've had a bite out it takes a
while to recognize on what this is the
emotional cost on me the spiritual cost
on other people their faculties
preventing me from becoming a father
from becoming a husband from settle in
from becoming rooted from becoming
actually whole from becoming a man from
becoming connected but it resonates with
us when someone is willing to sacrifice
themselves is because it temporarily
makes us recognize when someone's like
willing to die for what they believe in
Malcolm X knew he was gonna die for
doing that and he did it anyway Gandhi
had a good sense that he was gonna die
he did it anyway because what he
believed in was more important than what
he was as an individual and I think that
when that happens it reminds us it puts
breath into us it reminds us we have the
capacity for greatness and we are not
just contained by our body we are these
streams of energy in that moment
there is no disconnection between Connor
McGregor and that crowd there is a
oneness of purpose in that single punch
punching for all of them in that moment
I was so lonely for so long you know you
when I was famous and stuff just lonely
evenings and addictive behaviors
indulged to try to placate my own
loneliness or we can all reach out and
join communities places where we can be
honest we must try to find the wisdom
within fear don't read too many
newspapers don't pay too much attention
to the superficial gloss glazed across
reality the odd polarity that leads
really nowhere just disruption frequency
broadcast across the mainframe stay deep
stay true to yourself
observe the wisdom within your fear and
pray that you will meet your guide
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you