We just left LeeAnne's and we're going to camp.
I wish I didn't say at the end of the last video that things
were a little weird because now of course everybody wants to
know what the weird was. Okay, I don't know if it was just weird,
but I got a little cranky about it. When we showed up, Leanne,
more or less insisted that she had to park the bus for me
because her driveway was like so hard to navigate into. It wasn't
a hard driveway. I mean, it had a telephone pole next to it.
That's it. But yeah, I mean, I drive this bus every day. It's a
bus. It's not a van. A) It was not a hard drive way to get
into, and B) No. No, it's my bus. You're not going to drive
it. I parked in the driveway. Everything was fine. Then she
showed us the bedrooms. And Nancy said, which bathroom do we
use? And LeeAnne said, Oh, I don't think you can use the
bathroom. The bathroom in the hallway that was near the
bedrooms - We can't use because her housemates use it and they
won't be comfortable sharing with us. And then the bathroom
that she uses. She doesn't want to share with us because...
COVID. But I didn't really care because I was gonna stay in the
bus, anyway, I already decided that. I have a toilet in there.
But Nancy, she's in a car. So she has a porta potty that she
takes out. What's she going to do? Just take it out in a
suburban driveway? She can come in the bus, of course. But
there's a big difference between sharing someone's bucket and
sharing a flush toilet. Oh, wow, this bridge. It looks like it's
an open drawbridge. Like it's so steep, but then you get on it.
It's not that steep. It's actually it's beautiful.
I mean, she didn't do it on purpose. She just forgot. I
mean, how much experience do any of us have hosting guests during
a pandemic? Pretty much none. I have none. But if we had known,
then we probably would have stopped like an hour earlier
because we were really tired and we would have stopped someplace
like a rest stop. Or a truck stop or a 24 hour grocery, where
Nancy could have had access to a bathroom. But nobody died. You
know what I mean? It was just a simple... It's just... She just
didn't think about it. Not a big deal. And then so after we got
settled in, we sat on the back patio. LeeAnne has a beautiful
house, a really old beautiful house and we sat on the back
patio and just chatted, and LeeAnne told us about her trip
she's about to go on where there's gonna be three people in
her van. I don't think I could take that.
Oh, wow.
Wild horses, feral horses.
Now they've come over here to say hi.
Hi horsies! We're at Assateague National Seashore, which is
famous for its herd of wild slash feral horses. There's a
lot of mystery around how they got here. And I was - I'm not
going to talk about it today, because I'm gonna make a whole
video about that. They tell us we have to stay 40 feet away
from them. But nobody seems to have told them they have to stay
40 feet away from us. I've just been watching them out the
window and they're, they're so beautiful. I don't get to see
horses very often because I'm, I'm really allergic to be
totally honest. So I don't really ride or anything. But I
love them. So I saw this place in the AARP magazine. And I just
went online, I made a reservation, and then COVID hit.
So it's been questionable whether we were actually going
to get to come. And they reopened like three days ago. If
they'd reopened three days later, we wouldn't even be able
to be here. Soon as I made the reservation, though I called
LeeAnne because she lives near here. And I thought, you know,
we had fun camping together before so I figured we'd have
fun. She seemed...yeah, she seemed really into it. And then
after COVID hit and we would talk on the phone about whether
it's going to happen, you know whether they're going to open or
not. And a couple times she said to me, are you sure you want me
to come? And then finally she says, let me know what day you
want me to visit. And I just thought, that's weird, because
it seemed clear that she was going to be coming for the whole
time, you know, and then all of a sudden, when you want me to
visit you, but I know that she has a plan to come back here
with some other friends for the July weekend. So maybe she's
just.. She probably won't stay the whole time. Actually, she
was supposed to park here at the camp spot and Nancy was gonna
set up a tent and then drop her car in the parking lot because
you only have two vehicles. But LeeAnne said, Oh, no, I'll go
park in the parking lot. So that's what she did. But she
said that she wanted to make us lunch. So I haven't seen her in
a while, but I think she was going for a walk on the beach.
I'm sure she'll be back here by then, though. See, this is the
table they set up and that there's these cupboards
underneath. You put your your coolers and stuff underneath
because otherwise they're gonna get it, you know, and the signs
on the table says, a fed horse is a dead horse, so I don't want
a dead horse. Whoo. Look at her. She's making a beeline for the
table.
Nancy, what's on the table?
Nothing.
OK.
That's gas.
Well, hopefully it doesn't like that.
Everything's already under the table.
The door's not closed.
under the table on the other side.
Okay.
Get out of here.
I have to say I am super impressed with Captain because,
I mean, he's just he's just chill. And I don't think I've
ever used that word to describe him.
I don't know what just happened.
I mean, I know what just happened. But what just
happened?
LeeAnne is gone. She stormed off.
She came back and I said, Oh, you're back for lunch? And she
said, No, I just had my lunch in the van over in the parking lot.
Okay, um, she's the one who said she wanted to cook lunch for us.
I don't care if she cooks lunch or not. I didn't even say
anything, because I don't care. But why would you say, Oh, I
want to cook lunch for you guys, and then eat your lunch alone in
the parking lot? But anyway, I didn't say anything. We're
sitting down. we're chatting. And, you know, I was expressing
frustration, I was probably expressing a lot of frustration.
I was probably expressing an annoying amount of frustration
with this, with YouTube. Because you know, things are not going
the way I want them to go. It's not growing as quick as I want
it to. And I found something I love and I want it to love me
back. So I, I care. Okay, so I'm frustrated. So I was expressing
my frustration. And I really wasn't even so much talking to
LeeAnne as talking to Nancy. And all of a sudden Leanne jumps up
and says, I can't do this. I can't do this. This is exactly
why I can't do this. And Nancy and I went, can't do what? She
says, I can't - I can't have all this negativity in my head.
And you know what, for my own self care for my mental health,
I need to get away from you guys after how you treated me last
night. And I'm thinking okay, what was last night? And she
says, Well, you didn't care about me at all. You weren't
asking any questions about, you didn't care how things were
going for me you didn't care what I was up to. And I - okay,
I had to take that in because I can be kind of on my own train.
Right? You know, and I'm, I can be oblivious. So I took it in.
And then I remembered like, I know all these details about the
trip she's gonna go on with her housemates. The three of them in
the van driving to the west coast. And, you know, we talked
about that whole thing. I know about her neighbors on either
side. I know what she planted in her yard, and I don't even
garden. So it seems like I took in a lot considering the whole
conversation was like 20 minutes. You can tell me that
I'm negative, or, you know, that I'm boring because I keep
talking about YouTube or like - that I keep complaining about
the same thing. Whatever. You could tell me any of that. Yeah,
I, okay, I have to own that. But this woman's gonna tell me I'm
inconsiderate who didn't even think through where these women
were going to poop. But she didn't even really wait to have
a conversation with that. She's just boom, she's gone. When it
came to the bathroom thing. I just tried to meet her where she
was. She said that she just didn't think of it because of
COVID. And I tried to meet her where she was, and that's just
not something she's willing to do for me, obviously. So she's
gone. She thinks that was negative? It's a good thing she
didn't see the video I made at the beach earlier today. Yeah,
I'm not gonna show that to you. Oh, I'll show you a little piece
but that's it.
(babies crying) I think this is my last video. I'm not blaming
it on anybody. I'm not blaming it on YouTube. I just think
nobody wants to see the videos I make.
self pity is a beautiful thing.
Nancy made us this amazing meal over the campfire. And then look
who showed up
(Music - Every time a star falls down you lose a little piece of mind.
Feels like sinking through the ground like quicksand when you try to fight.
(Right now, things are looking dark and dangerous, always
creeping up. But you'll see,
things are gonna be all right)
(We're all staring at the same moon;
we're all crazy fighters and fools.
And we run in circles when we could be flying. Aim up! Aim up! Aim up!
And shoot the moon.)
Leanne and I exchanged a couple texts.
It doesn't really matter. But when I look back, it kind of
feels like she never - she never really planning to be part of
this thing. It's like she was trying to get me to say no to
her, so she wouldn't have to say no to me.
I'm sad because
I thought I had a friend there. But it's okay.
She's not wrong. What she said is not wrong. I mean, I can go
dark. I can go deep dark, but inside
I'm a freakin' firefly.
If you wish upon a star, you might just find out who you are...
If you set your sights up high,
you'll find that you know how to fly
I definitely lose the inner firefly sometimes. When I do,
you know what brings me back? Making a video. That's how I
know this is gonna work, because you know - feel bad -
Make a video - feel better.
Of course, then I post it.
I'm not getting thousands of views. But you're here. Nancy's
here. And she is a great cook. That's something you should
really look for in a camp buddy.
Okay, I'm gonna go make a s'more. You watch this. And next
time I'm going to tell you about the horses
Good night, friend.