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hi
i'm prana bakshi i'm 19 years old i'm a
model
i'm india's first model with autism
autism is my superpower
i first realized that i want to be a
model when i went for
art for autism festival in mumbai i felt
confident when
people clapped for me i always liked to
pose for the camera
and get my pictures clicked i saw models
walking on the ramp
on a big screen in a mall i told mama
nikita
i want to be like them mama nikhta said
to me that i'm my own boss
and i can do whatever i want to do and
mom and nikita proud of me
when i concentrate on what i do
when i went in my car for golf i saw
models on billboards
i admire them when i want to be like
them i click
pictures of the models and i sent to mom
and i said to mom that
i wanted to be like them mom wrote meals
to modelling agencies
and she said that let us hope the
modeling agency will take me
and she said that you need to work hard
on your fitness because models are fit
i started to work out with my fitness
trainer
i've learned small steps of exercises
and breathing in and out
i never miss my fitness session i am
very particular about
eating and i munch on drunken snacks
only on weekends
mama nikta said to me that i am patient
and hard working
and i will do it and mom and nikita are
proud of my struggles
i felt glad when i got selected to walk
the ramp for both
your polo association in article is a
ban it on
we can do whatever we want to do when we
work hard and deal with challenges
when i go for rehearsals for my ram fox
and when i go for photo shoots and video
shoots
sometimes i get anxious but i know how
to deal with that
i stay back after the rehearsal and i
remember
entries and exits in my mind i discuss
things with my mom
i read in my anxiety journal i take a
deep breath
my anxiety gets sorted on may 13 2019
it was my 19th birthday on that day
hindustan times
published a feature on me i am india's
first model with autism
i am india's first model with autism
with a modeling agency
after that there were interviews
articles and
shoots people dm me on instagram
and also people say to me that i'm a
role model
sometimes i get confused but i like it
earlier it was only my family who
praised me and said to me
that i have an awesome superpower
it also feels good when people also
appreciate
when i was a kid i was a big fan of mr
bean
like him i didn't know how to express
myself like him i thought that no one
understood what i
said i used to act like mr bean when i
didn't know how to express myself
i stopped doing that when i learned how
to express my
feelings and emotions but i knew that
i'm different from
everyone and i felt that everyone was
looking at me
because i'm different i felt
uncomfortable and lost
i ignore negative and sarcastic people
soon after i was born i was very sick
but i managed bravely
and my father called me sher khan and i
told mom that
when she was lying upside down on the
hospital bed in the hospital gown
the doctor held my leg and shook and
spun me violently
and i puked in the hospital metal dish
this is my earliest memory
and mom told me that she was not upside
down
the doctor held me upside down
i remember so many things from the past
i remember them in my mind
like photos and videos i remember smells
days dates years peoples and places i
remember
all songs i hear and the years of
release
these are my flashbacks and i love them
i love flashbacks with my sister
i use we used to play and have a lot of
fun i used to trouble my sister
but i stopped doing that
i like to talk a lot with my sister
about flashbacks
i'm passionate about doing things i like
to play golf
i like to listen to 94.3 radio one all
the time
i only go to mumbai in bangalore because
there is 94.3 radio 1
and i don't go to other cities because
there is no 94.3 radio one
i attend music concerts of my favorite
english musicians
when they come to india and perform in
the ncr i went for vh1's supersonic
marshmallow concert
sunburner inaudible snake concert
sunburn arena with wiz khalifa concert
anonymous life concert sunburn arena
with dmitry vegas and like my concert
and san bernardino alan walker concert
i hope that i'm going to see
tomorrowland music festival in belgium
because i'm a big idiom fan i like to do
photography
i click pictures of lakes hills
mountains
winding roads in nature i won an award
in a photography contest
i'm the official photographer of many
events
i study graphic designing i love it
i'm a model i love to be a model
mumbai is my favorite city south mumbai
is my favorite place
i've imagined a new luxury mansion house
in
in mumbai where i'm going to live
i wrote an article on my dream house
and i felt glad when it got published
it's going to be bright and colorful
there is going to be wooden flooring and
glass windows
and there's going to be rooftop swimming
pool with
deck chairs there is going to be luxury
nightclub room with
with pioneer dtj headset microphone
and with disco lights with english
hip-hop and idiom tracks playing
all night there is going to be
luxury bowling alley room there is going
to be luxury billiard snooker room with
winded snooker clock there is going to
be
luxury fitness room with fitness
equipment
and there is going to be luxury swanky
bedroom
i am going to work hard to afford my
dream house
i have autism my experiences are
different from experiences
but learn from them like you do and
sometimes the heart will like you
i like to do things which are planning
try my best
it doesn't mean that you don't face
challenges it doesn't mean that dealing
with challenges is so easy
it doesn't mean that i don't feel
disappointed and frustrated
i face problems easy things can be
difficult
but we have to do it and find a solution
i go for music concerts
it's very crowded and people push from
the back
i stand on the railing in the front to
enjoy the music
and ignore the crowd when i go in the
cab sometimes
i like to listen to 94.3 radio one but
the cab driver refuses
but i give help to the cab driver to put
94.3 radio 1 patiently
when i used to talk with people
sometimes i didn't understand what they
were saying
i got confused and i told them can you
explain me in an easy way
got sorted i practice poses and
expressions in front of the mirror
it helps me exist
my journal is like my best friend i
write in my journal every day
only mom and nikith are allowed to see
my journal
when mom travels in when she's not there
i click screenshots of the journal
and i send to mom and she reads it
i write in my journal about dreams
flashbacks and plans
i don't miss writing in my journal i
carry it along when i travel
posing for the camera and walking the
ramp is the best
i walked the ramp for another colors of
vanity on three times
i did commercials for fbb and big bazaar
i was in the list of 50 coolest people
in south asia
i don't suffer from autism it's not my
weakness
it's my strength all my favorite marvel
characters has super powers
my super power is autism always keep
celebrating small wins
and believe in your superpower thank you
you