So, where do you want to go for dinner?
Oh no, I’m not having this argument again.
I don’t think that’s it.
I’m gonna put on my therapist hat here.
I didn’t know you ever took it off.
Okay, good.
So, it’s getting there.
You’re trying to, if anything, show me that you’ve grown.
Does that make sense?
So I just want you to have the — we’re gonna have the conversation one more time.
I want to grow, Ken.
Why won’t you let me grow?
Let’s watch.
Let’s rewatch this, okay?
Yeah?
Yeah.
Okay, come around this side.
And here.
We’re watching it down.
So where do you want to go for dinner?
Oh no, I am not having this argument again.
No!
I want to grow, Ken.
Why won’t you let me grow?
Okay.
What do you take away from today?
To trust myself and be myself and to give you a hug.
Aw, you’re awesome.
Thank you, thank you.
You’re awesome.
Okay, we’re done.
We’ll delete this.
No one in else in the history of humankind is gonna see this ever again.
It’s gonna be very fun.
It’s gonna be good.
This is my house.
Ta-da!
This is my bed.
I spend a lot of time sitting here.
This is where I can cook, but I don’t do too much cooking.
So this is my home.
Thank you for coming!
My name is Sandra Bowes, I am 60ish.
I am that old.
I’m 69.
See!
I told you.
I’ve been here for two months.
I was living in Maui with my partner, Ted.
I applied through Backstage from Maui to parts here in L.A. and I got one, so I just came.
When I was younger I did quite a bit of acting and then I got
married and had kids, and then I just realized that I was gonna have to spend night, after
night, after night away from my kids.
And I didn’t want to.
So I just kind of put acting on the back shelf for my mom years.
This is the mom-ish Sandra Bowes.
Do I look like a mom?
And then this is the more elegant, brighter type Sandra Bowes.
On the back is my resume.
And some of the things are on IMDB, which I’m really excited about.
Okay, so this one I would apply for.
So you press the apply button, and then you just, you type your thing and you go apply now.
Voila, success.
Today I’m doing background work.
And hopefully, I thought it said in the ad that we’re featured background.
That they’ll give us lines to say.
I know, but they did three different shots, and then several takes of each shot.
Mm-mm.
No lines.
But it was neat.
One of the other actors, he was sitting across from me and he was like, “Woah, you were
really acting. You were really playing it.”
You know what I mean?
Cause I was, you know?
I was really pretending.
Health food.
But I don’t see any spoons.
No, cause I’m doing it cause I love it.
I don’t really want to get famous, you know what I mean?
I just, I’d like to get really good.
And I mean, my big dream would be to get some kind of award.
And I’d love to have my kids be with me at the award ceremony.
I think that would be so neat.
Or Ted.
Although Ted’s not really into film, so anyway.
I think Ted was very scared of losing me.
I think he was terrified actually.
But I just decided I wanted to start living my dream after all these years.
We’re going to an audition.
It’s called “Singing to the Sheep”.
If you walk out that door right now you’ll be picking a world of strangers over your legacy.
Great, so let’s go through it one more time.
Have her — to have him sort of move more towards the city life is not necessarily the
direction that she thinks is best for George.
So with that in mind go ahead and can you slate for the camera?
And then give a nod to Renee whenever you’re ready.
Okay.
A world of fear that you don’t know and that’ll chew you up and spit you out like Eunice.
Great, so we’re gonna be making our decisions either this week or next week.
Alright.
Thank you so much for coming in to the audition.
Thank you so much, guys.
Have a good one, okay?
You too.
I felt like it was medium.
Yeah, I didn’t — his direction, I kind of had an idea in my head already of how it
was gonna be and I don’t think I took the direction very well, so.
Medium.
I’ve wanted to do this for my whole life.
I put everything on the backburner for everybody else and now it’s my time to do it.
And I really wish that you were on board with me, I really do.
What I was thinking?
I was thinking that Ted was leaving.
And I mean this could be a very real situation coming up in the future cause he’s moving here.
And I really am into doing acting and driving through the traffic and everything, and he’s not.
But I can’t, I can’t not be who I am.
I can’t do that.
I can’t put myself on the backburner anymore.
I have to do what I want to do with the years I have left.
Well that’ll have to be okay.
Every time I push against that fear in myself, it seems to have a positive outcome.
So it’s very wonderful to not be ruled by fear.
Cause it’s the journey is what is important.
It’s not the goal, it’s the journey along the way.
If there’s anything, anything in the world that I really, really, really want, it’s to be good.