[WAILING SIREN]
Why are you sitting in the dark?
Huh?
I did it, Gino.
The captain knows who I am now.
I came out.
I mean, I didn't tell him everything, obviously.
Obviously.
Yeah, I think we have to be careful here.
Always.
What's this, Patrick?
Where'd you get that?
Does it matter?
It's yours.
You know it.
You bought it.
You hid it, so no one could find it.
Not the woman you married, not whatever I am to you.
You are everything to me, Gino.
All evidence to the contrary.
So since you're in a truth-telling mode,
come out to me.
Tell me.
Tell me, tell me all of it or leave.
Now's the time.
[WAILING SIREN]
OK.
I've been with other guys, a lot.
I don't know who they are.
No names ever.
Where?
Different places.
Never where we sleep, ever.
After it happens, like it never happened.
I leave it all behind.
Why?
Because I've always had to.
You know, but this, this right now, you and me, this
is what I need.
OK?
This other thing is a compulsion.
It'll stop.
It's not going to stop.
Yes, it will.
No, it's not going to stop.
Look, I don't actually care if you're out there getting laid.
I can do the same.
We can have a shared agreement.
But no, you don't want that, because it's the lie
that actually gets you off.
And you love that lie more than you can love me.
That is simply not true.
It's a relief really.
It's all makes sense now.
The quiet around this fucking place.
It's not quiet, it's shame.
Can you see how much I've changed?
How much I'm changing?
How much I can change?
Since I met you, I left my wife.
I have come out at work today.
That happened today.
I came out in the New York Police Department.
But why?
Why, Patrick?
Because you only tell the truth when you're about to be caught.
That, that's shame, and I can't.
[BREATHING HEAVILY]
I can't have it in my life.
It's choking me!
It's choking me.
There's this tightness in my heart.
Whoa, whoa, whoa!
What's going on?
I'm calling an ambulance.