hey guys um i just thought i would come on here and share my testimony because it's
long overdue and i think if you have experiences like this it is ultimately our responsibility to
share with everyone i mean i want this to help somebody out there um believe me i used to be a
skeptic myself ah okay so let's get straight into this um so back i am now 31 so this happened to me
when i was 18. and um i do a lot of singing and i was in central london and was performing at a gig
and i came out and i kind of looked around i looked up at the sky and i just said you know
what god if you are there change me if you really exist i need to know that you really are there
didn't think much of it at the time but it probably was the most powerful thing i think
i've ever said and obviously when you are sincere and you genuinely seek what truth is i think you
know when you're in this kind of when your heart is in this desperate place for understanding
i think god just that's the moment god will dive into your life so
got home carried on as normal and then i got really really unwell
and i developed a really severe cough um diagnosed as a whooping cough which is very unusual
um for adults it's it's normally um a case that you find in in very young children so i was kind
of bedridden for i'd say about six weeks and i didn't realize it at the time but i really feel
that god kind of allowed that to happen so i could spiritually start to open my eyes and just stop
and just completely stop what i'm doing and give my chance give myself a chance to to find what
this truth is this question this burning question that was in my mind and i really did use that time
to do as much research as i can and i explored new age practices buddhism islam uh christianity um
sort of all these different things and i thought well maybe there's an element of truth to all of
them um but maybe it's all complete rubbish i wasn't sure what was going on but i knew
i had to find out whatever it was i knew i had to find it find out what was going on so slowly
but surely as the more i've read about jesus i i just was so in awe of who this person was and i
just i'd go into something else and then i'd come back and i'd be like but just this jesus is just
if he's real wow like if he's real this this guy's is a really good guy and he his teachings were
really amazing but what if he really is the son of god and all these questions were in my mind and i
kind of developed developed a fascination with jesus and i just wanted to know more and then
it's a really really strange thing i i did kind of come to the conclusion that wow it's jesus it
it's he's the only truth the only thing that speaks to me and everything i've looked into
wow it is jesus like everything he says everything he did incredible god what what an incredible
sacrifice and i was really overwhelmed with how much i really when i realized god loved me
with everything i had done in my past i i struggle to believe that this god can actually love me this
is the biggest deception of the enemy you are loved whatever remember that people that find god
they were still loved by god before they found god people that don't know god
are still loved by god it's he knows the ins and outs of your heart he knows the depth of your sin
don't ever let that be the reason you don't come to god because you don't feel worthy you
don't feel good enough it's the biggest lie because he forgives in such a gracious way
that it gives you the chance that that's it's his love that makes you want to be a better person
for me it was just wow you love me so much and i developed a kind of
falling in love with god is it's that development of falling in love with a human being it's
you fall in love with god and it makes you want to be better it makes you want to be a better person
so i just had it's like a veil was lifted from my eyes and all of a sudden i just saw the world so
differently and i saw everything beautifully created and i just was i was just blown away
and peace this peace this overwhelming peace just filled my heart and i just felt absolute
understanding of what god is how incredible he is how much he loves us and i was really blown away
and then one night i was sobbing my heart out repenting and just overwhelmed and the more i
sort of said i don't deserve this i i don't i believe i it's enough for me or you're enough i
don't need more more would come i would feel more loved and i was sort of trembling and
shaking and i just i was so overwhelmed by his presence and i didn't really understand
um too much about the bible or jesus at this stage it was just i was just completely overwhelmed with
this almighty presence in my room and i i it was too much for me and the more i said no i can't i
don't deserve this the more love i received and it was unbelievable and to think that there is
no sin that god can't forgive absolutely none if you come to him with a pure heart
let it let it be set free let it be set free don't hold back i promise you you will
find grace and love and peace and joy and you cannot compare that with anything in this world
and then that whole night when i was praying as well i was saying god how
how can i be an instrument for you what do you want from me what what can i do
for you that i know i'm here with a purpose and whatever that purpose is it relates to your glory
so what what can i do but my specific question and i'm a musician and i make songs and i write
music but my specific question is how can i be an instrument for you the next morning i woke up
i decided to go for a walk and on this walk um i walked through the park with i took my dog
and i thought let's just go for a nice walk i just want to be in nature i just want to
just give glory to everything god's created i just want to be there and um i started walking
down this pathway and then i walked into this huge field and at the back of the field was a
bench and this was almost cinematic there's this beautiful piece of light just coming down onto
that bench and i just something in me said i just really want to go to that bench today i
just want to go sit there and as i got closer to the bench i saw that there was a book on the bench
and i just knew straight away i thought that's for me i'm meant to find this whatever that is
i know i've been brought here and i ran up to the bench and on the bench was the brand
new it almost looked untouched unused a brand new book and it said how to be an instrument for god
i couldn't believe it i got on my knees i started crying and i was like praise you god praise the
lord like what an answered prayer i mean what an incredible god we have right and i ran back home
i was waving it in my dad's face i was like dad look look jesus answered my prayer and i was so
ecstatically happy i think it was the following month i had a horrendous nightmare that i i just
went to sleep as normal this has never happened to me in my life and but i went to sleep as normal
and i had a horrible nightmare that i was in a very very dark dark house and the smell
was awful like the only way i know how to describe it is it it's as only i can imagine i don't know
what this smells like but it smelled like rotting flesh like burning rotting horrible scented
flesh burning it was just it was so powerfully strong i was really taken back just by the smell
and i was trying to get out of this house and every time i opened a door
i saw a demonic figure in each room and it was very very dark very very tall with red eyes and
almost had like if you know like the surface of a rock but like a very black rock and this figure
was in it this large figure was in every room and i was desperately trying to get out of this house
and i suddenly wake up and i couldn't move it was a thousand percent this was a demonic
entity go there was something really dark going on there um then i opened my eyes and i couldn't move
and i felt like a pressure on my chest and around my neck is sort of squeezing
around my neck it was so terrifying and i just struggled but i managed to say jesus
and as soon as i said jesus gone it was like the speed of which that thing left me
is incredible and that's when i learned how true how unbelievably true jesus is and just his name
the power in his name is it blows me away that's why sometimes i'm just in my head i just say jesus
jesus jesus jesus just because i'm so overwhelmed with the power of of the holy name of jesus
it's incredible so then uh just that i'm wrapping this up i promise
um so my final experience was not final he has continued to work through my life since that since
this time frame and but i went to morocco with my best friend zara this was at the sort of the peak
the height of of my spiritual awakening after the nightmare i had i completely and utterly detached
myself from from this world and i tried my best to stay in my spirit body and i really really
tried to focus on the lord and i kept every day like i was clinging to jesus clinging to jesus
knowing how dark and evil that other side is trust me guys you do not want to be without this lord
this incredible god he died for us and he is real and you can choose to believe me
take it with a pinch of salt but it's up to you it's you either hear his voice and you
want the truth and you search for the truth or you just don't it's there's no there's no
ultimatum and it you know god doesn't need us we need god this isn't about him needing us
he died for us he gave us a chance and just that blows me away anyway moving on so we were in
morocco and we sat round a really really large table it was at the beach and it was night time
and and we were with a few of my best friends friends and we all sat around this table and
everyone just we all started not me i didn't really partake but everybody started to discuss
religion and god and it came up and i thought oh oh it's gonna come over to me soon and someone at
the table said oh claire you're a you're muslim right and i said no no i believe in jesus and
it got a little bit awkward and i said look guys each to their own i i don't want to have any sort
of debate about god and they're just coming from a place of passion i didn't take it personally
um you know that's what they believe and and in their defense if you're believing in that
then they're just trying to spread their message of truth so i didn't take it personally
but they said you're wrong you know how can you believe that a man is the son of god
you know it's it's it's such blasphemy how can you believe that and i said look i
i just i believe what i believe you guys believe what you believe let's just let's be in peace
let's not fight about something that you know it doesn't it just doesn't need to be discussed it
never ends well these big religious debates so at the time i just and i didn't really know i
didn't have my spiritual armor on i was like i don't know i don't know um so i left the table
quite quickly and just said i'll be back soon and i just went for a little walk and i sat on
the beach and i sat there and i just looked out at this big beautiful dark ocean and i just said
god am i am i doing the right thing is i i don't want to offend you
i just want to bring light to your truth is this is this true i feel it's true but
let me know right now i need the truth right now is this the right thing and all of a sudden i just
felt this overwhelming peace and like a hot oil from the tip of my head down to my whole body and
i started i just felt like a little child no no like i did the spirit of a child i just became a
little kid and then god spoke to me and he said i am with you i am always with you and it was
the most audible most beautiful most gentle but powerful thing i have ever
experienced in my life and it was the until this day till this day
i i think about that day almost every day and i'm i cannot believe this almighty god
sorry this almighty god let me hear his voice
and let me know that this is the truth
and he is so for us he is so for us he doesn't want anyone to be lost and uh sorry i just
oh i didn't think i was gonna get emotional but he is so for us guys there is nothing he cannot undo
nothing he cannot undo nothing in this world cannot be made new
praise god praise you lord jesus i love you so much and i just hope to god that wherever
you are right now in this time especially in this crazy time right now seek the truth seek the truth
he will find you i can assure you he will find you but you need to see god with
all your heart with all your mind with all your soul and he will reveal himself i can
he's waiting with these big open arms to dive bomb into your life and change you and mould you
so many other things guys that i i could get into but i just wanted to give you my testimony
because god is so good and if this can help anyone i pray for every person watching this video
those with god those without god may we find peace
together may we find truth together lord and if we have you made me stay focused on you oh god
and if we don't have you may we find you in abundance oh jesus we love you so much amen
praise the lord guys and i really hope this video has helped in in some way have a good day bye
you