Hi, lovely people! I can't actually sign today, because yesterday, I was filming my brand new show
Quintessentially Jessica. Exciting.
I don't think I'm actually supposed to tell you much about it...
But!
We were doing some threading of the eyebrows
I was doing it, and because it's quite fine motorwork, my hands were then like
"You're done for the day!"
And by "day", I apparently mean "longer".
They're like paws, it's like I'm a lion.
Grrr
I'm not a lion, I just have really good hair.
It's good hair, though.
*Angelic choir sings*
So. Positivity.
I'm very conscious when I tell people stories about my life, that I don't want to come off as too sad,
or angry, or negative. Not just because, you know, I think that's a bit of a harsh thing to shove into someone's world:
Yo! Here's my aggression. More just because that's not necessarily a feeling that I relate to my life experience.
Some of the things that happen to me can seem a bit weird. I have this nerve condition, and I had a migraine
and it pressed around the nerve from this eye, and now I'm blind.
Okay...
And I run into the sea this time, and I fell over, woo!
And I kinda twisted my ankle a bit, and then I couldn't walk for a year and a half, and I had to be in a wheelchair
Bummer.
The thing is, I'm still quite surpised when people have these big "Oh my God!" kind of reactions to this stuff
But then again, I myself, am quite surprised when stuff happens.
Like, sometimes one of my organs just decides "I don't want to play ball, pff, I'm off. I'm on holiday. See ya later."
And it just stops working, and then I have to go to hospital a lot.
You see, something like that happens, and then, when the people around me act like it's a big deal
They're like "Oh my gosh, really, oh my God, that's so terrible," I'm like "Really, guys? You don't-- you're not used to this by now?
This isn't... you don't just think this is like daily life?" Which is one of the most amazing things about having Claudia in my life
because she also does not act like anything is a big deal. One day, we were going to [get] some sleep, and I'm perfectly fine
We wake up in the next morning, and I just... vomit.
Everywhere.
And she's like "Ah, hm, okay, well. Give this a quick cleanup, and I've got to get to work, darling. Bye!"
There was a wall there. That would've been a lot more dramatic if I'd been able to walk off screen, but
my main thing about positivity and negativity is that I don't really like carrying around negative feelings
in my little heart, and in my soul
I like to take the positive things wherever I go.
So I take the happy things that I see in life, like people helping other people, adorable little children,
or that feeling I get inside when Claudia comes home and Walter's like "Yeah! You are the best person ever!"
Which I'm not going to lie, he doesn't actually do when I walk in the door.
But, it's okay. Cause I just love him and he's-- loves to see her, 'cause I love to see her, too. That makes sense. *angelic choir sings*
But, the thing is, and I don't think it's something that just relates to someone with a health condition or disability,
that you kind of need the positives. You need those nice things, you need to hold them inside you and walk around
with them because then, if something negative does happen, you've got some backup.
Something awful happens, and what? All you've got is negativity? And you'll be like "Raaa, you've hurt me with
your negative feelings. I will throw these negative feelings at you, but also those are the only feelings
that I have to feel inside, so... I'll just be negative." Whereas, if you have lots of happy, positive feelings,
and then someone hits you with some negativity, you can be like "Oh, well. That sucks to be you, doesn't it?
Mm, well. I've got some positive feelings! I'm going to go and watch the puppies now."
Oh, it's a sunflower.
Because, seriously guys, there's a lot of bad stuff in the world. Bad stuff happens. Some days, I have bad hair days.
And some days, I stuggle. With my cognitive brain function, and I'm not entirely sure how to make sure that words go in like, in order.
I don't know what my finger is pointing at.
Neuropathy is really weird.
So, yes. On a macro level, life is kind of scary, and kind of awful? There are like these really big countries in the world
That have things like nuclear weapons.
We could be hit by a nuclear weapon, but no, I don't genuinely think that.
What's the point of being scared of being hit by a nuclear bomb when you've been hit by a nuclear bomb?
You're not going to know.
You're dead.
Tangent.
Sorry.
Yes, so, on a macro level: World. Unfair. Quite unequal. We have a very, very long way to go in terms of creating
a world that has equal and fair societies for all people, where everyone has exactly the same chances in life the
minute they're born, because that is not currently the case in the world.
My point is, if we don't look at the good in the world, and the positives around us, and carry those with us
how can we ever be strong enough to then help the world? To do any good?
And even if you're a hugely selfish person, how can you help yourself unless you've got that strength within you
that comes from focusing on all wonderful, positive things? Whatever they may be.
Wherever you find happiness in the world, carry it with you.
Because, being positive is self-care.
Putting on your oxygen mask first, so then you can put on the mask for the world. *magical sparking*
So, what do you think? Can being happy and positive actually make the world a better place?
Let me know what you think. Subscribe for more, and I look forward to seeing you soon.