This is the question I've been needing an answer to.
When was the last time...
Don't try to read it.
No go ahead, go ahead.
When was the last time you faked an orgasm?
[Laughing]
You going to cough again?
[coughing]
I plead the 5th
There's no pleading the fifth, we was instructed on what can be done if you didn't wanna answer a question
[coughing]
I have a bad memory and it doesn't come to my head when was the last time
[laughing]
Come on, don't do that. Please?
I don't remember [laughing]
Come on, I need to know that.
Really?
If you, if you have any, if you have any hopes that you, if you don't mind going through that,
then you don't have to speak on it, you understand? You don't have to answer the question.
What I'm saying to you is if you
That I faked an orgasm?
If you don't want to have to fake again
[laughing]
Okay I'm going to tell you
[laughing]
[coughing]
The last time we had sex
[laughing]
Oh my goodness, okay, yes.
[laughing]
You faked a lot?
[laughing]
Don't do that.
I'm so sorry. I did, no I don't fake a lot.
I just wanted to get if over with, so
I'm sorry, I was tired.
Who's the one that...
You've never done that
Who's the one-
You've never told me that before, because I asked you
Women don't talk about it!
It ain't women, it's you! You're my woman, I don't
Listen, I know I know but listen to me
We don't really talk about how we fake it and how we don't fake it
No but I asked you
What?
If I didn't ask you, you can take that position, this is what women do.
But when you ask me like you know, babe are you alright or whatever, what do I tell you?
Yeah babe but I you know, I didn't get my shit
Yeah I didn't get my...
We gotta go back, we gotta go back in-
So it's the same thing! It works both ways!
But I've never faked. I've never lied like yeah, oh shit, oh my goodness, Marc, damn, yeah I got my shit off
I've never done that to you
No just so you can go to sleep! Not because I want to just fake it because you gotta go- no it's
because so you can just go to bed leave me be because I don't wanna keep on
So that's acceptable?
Of course it's acceptable!
So I can fake, like oh yeah baby I got my shit off
You can't fake! [laugh]
But this is what I'm saying
[laughing] I can, you cannot fake it, sorry, that's the thing we have over you
You know, that's the thing I have as a woman over you that, you are a man, that I can fake it. You cannot fake it.
You disagree?
yeah
Okay, sorry.
Because for you to ask me, did you? What if I said no? I mean what if I said yeah and I didn't?
Okay, so..
This is what I'm saying. For you to ask me-
So lied to you. That's what you're feeling?
That's exactly, it's not faking
It's lying to you that's hurting you? I'm sorry
Listen, I know I'm good money
Please get over it [laughing]
No I'm good money I just don't understand that shit
[laughing]
I don't understand that, you know?
What are you hesitant to tell me?
That I'm, I want to, I want to do my uh, I want to get another spinal fusion
Why?
I can't take this pain in my neck. It's too much, it's overbearing.
It's very very difficult to go to through the day with that pain.
My back is very manageable, my shoulder, my wrist, my body period.
But my neck is really giving me a problem.
Really?
Yeah I spoke to my doctor recently about the,
how big would the incision be for them to do the fusion in my neck
And that's- you-
Oh well that's a good question. You didn't tell me, so..
No
Not only did I, am I hesitant to tell you now, I never even mentioned it to you.
I know
If you could wish one thing for me what it be and why?
I wish that you will be, the way you before November 2011
Before you got assaulted
That really changed your whole
You're paranoid, your eye doesn't work, you know I haven't see your eyes in so long
You see them though, sometimes.
Yeah but it's not the same thing. Seeing your face with glasses on all the time now,
than seeing your face the way it used to be, be
you the way you were before. Now you have limitations, and God forbid a police officer comes near us
I mean, it's like the whole, you know I wish that would've never happened
Truthfully
What's your favorite memory from last year?
My favorite memory? Oh. I have too many.
Just going to the beach with you and our son, Alexie, having a beautiful time.
Okay I have a, my favorite memory? I don't know if it's something that you, I want it to be something that
we've done together but it actually wasn't.
It doesn't have to be with me. It just, you just gotta speak on what's your favorite memory!
When they transferred my parole officer. When I got a, I got a parole officer that was like,
down to earth, respectful
Not so much down to earth, just understanding, period.
And respectful
She's very respectful, I like her too
That was the most, that was my favorite memory from last year
Nice. I share that with you.
Alright, peace.
What's been the hardest thing for you that I didn't see or understand?
You remember I told you that you sent me a letter on wax paper, like you wrote me a...
Oh yeah yeah
It wasn't a Dear John letter, it was a, you know, I'm gone. But it's Dear John
Screw you?
Yeah
That type of letter? Okay
Well when you sent me that letter and it had that perfume on it and I couldn't believe
I don't know, what was it, like 52 months exactly it last, I'm talking about, no matter where it was at
It was torture
[laughing]
If I opened up the big envelope with all of the mail? That smell, out of everything else that I can possibly smell
That letter...
That was the hardest thing?
That's been the hardest thing that you have not seen or understood
Okay
Because had it not been for that letter, there's no telling, you know,
what could've been the outcome between you and I
Ohhhh. So I was a good thing? Ah, okay.
What do you think I'm learning right now?
You're learning that thinking things thoroughly and good, will not put you, as well as us, as your family
in harm's way. When you do things and think things throughly, you know, thoroughly, however you say it
Okay, I want to, can you ask me?
What do you think I'm learning right now?
I think you're learning right now that despite my inexperience with,
with um, I don't know, I don't want to say
Bad decisions?
No, with freedom, yeah bad decisions, or being
outside?
yeah that I'm very capable of being the man I told you I can be, that I'm really
a good man you know despite
Oh I never, I would never think otherwise. I wouldn't be with you
Ok next question
Yeah
Okay what's your biggest concern that you haven't shared with me before?
That I might become, I might become impotent
Like I might have a, I might have a problem
Making children?
No, having
Oh, because you don't have a problem with that
Impotent, like not having an erection, you know? ED
Oh, that's your concern?
Yeah becuase all of the medication and shit, I'm like, I feel like a lab rat and a guinea pig every day.
I've taken my morning dosage of medication and I'm like
And you recommend, well you don't recommend, you ask
for copulation during the time that I know I'm in no shape
[laughing] in the morning
I'm in no shape in the morning
That's your concern?
Yeah, that I haven't-
That is my concern, too [laughing]
You still talking about that other shit now, you still talking about that other question
No no no no, seriously, no no seriously
Forget about the fake orgasm, let's talk about this
This is my biggest concern because you know how I feel about sex
Yeah so why would you tell me you been, you faked last time
Because when I'm not in the mood, I'm not in the mood
But it's not always about when you in the mood though
Well it is for me!
No it's not like that
Well you know, I share with you but come one, not every time when you want
When I want it, I want it
I mean
I don't think that's right
Why? Why?
Because at any given moment that I want to, I don't care
Really?
I mean, that's how you carry on
And you get an attitude, you get a serious attitude when I'm like, you know, ah babe, I'm tired
I have a headache [laughing]
Yeah, I mean, I, you know?
That's what you say to me- I have a headache!
What would you do if I cheated on you?
What I did
Alright
What did I do?
Alright
Talked to you, asked you, and sent you to the clinic
What would you do if I cheated on you?
I, I answered that before
No me, me
Yeah
Not realistically
What would you do if I cheated on you? That's you-
Realistically? What I did to you. Talk to you, and then send you to the clinic. What would you do?
Realistically
What, me?
Yes
Yeah it still applies, I would tell you, don't do that shit again, and make sure it don't go viral, I don't want
What happens if I bring a child home? Tell you I'm pregnant, what would you do?
I would ask you, is it yours?
[laughing]
I don't know, I don't know, I can't
That was a good one
I can't answer what- I'm lying when I say what I would do if you cheated on me
I wouldn't know what the fuck to do, I wouldn't know what to do
[laughing] good answer
I wouldn't know what to do
Is it yours? [laughing]