Hi, my name is Angel Asma. I'm half English half Turkish .I was raised in a
Muslim household and through my teenagers and when I started college I
started to be a bit more independent my dad was very protective of for me quite
controlling at times and but it was just from his heart to protect me which meant
that I couldn't really do a lot of things that other teenagers could do
when I started college I started to be a bit more independent .Started to have
boyfriends and that's when a lot of things started to happen for me where my
heart started to get hurt and I started to get heartbroken I started to read
more about the Quran and really turned to God in circumstances and where I felt
like I was in pain. I started to research more of the Quran and through the many years.
I started to start to run away from situations and try it was scared
because I thought that was that was a way that I could be healed or that's how
I could not feel pain if I run somewhere else or if I went on holiday or if I
moved to another country and live somewhere else that it would be okay but
it wasn't and I realized that if I lived in Australia or if I went to New Zealand
or I was in Turkey it didn't matter because it was my heart that needed to
be fixed and it could only be fixed through Jesus and so many years have
traveled in and moving around and I ended up moving to Leeds and the time
that I was in Leeds and I met up with an old school friend called Jacob Bowas
who was a Christian and he explained why he believed in Jesus Christ I was really
interested in why he believed that Jesus was the son of God because in Islam it's
he's not he's not the son of God he's a prophet if I gots Probert but he's not
the Son of God and I really questioned how can God have a son I was so confused
and to research one day I decided to go to
waterstones to buy a Bible and I've picked up the Bible and I was really
really scared inside and I just thought if I actually purchased this is i'll are
going to be angry with me am I going to be I'm a ashamed I have felt so
scared I felt so many emotions and and at the time when I picked it up I
thought I need to pick up something about Quran so I purchased both books
because it was just through simple fear and I remember being in Leeds in muffler
and I started to read the Gospel of John and I was read alongside and I was
reading more of the Quran and the Bible and trying to understand differences in
them but then similarities and then I started to realize that the Quran
mentioned Jesus so many times and actually said that Jesus the Spirit of
God and then I start to get really confused because I thought if the Quran
saying this and Christians are saying this then why
and I following this and I started to really break down and cry and and I felt
so alone because I'm still felt like I was the only person who was going
through this and at the time my friend Jacob have lived in Budapest so we would
communicate via a message and on the phone but I didn't have somebody there
with me and I felt really scared and I remember breaking down on the floor and
hysterically crying you now crying out to God and just saying God please just
help me fix my heart and help me to understand what's happening and I
remembered somebody saying if you ask who Jesus is Jesus will reveal himself
so I got on my knees and I prayers and I was so fearful but I knew that my heart
knew that it was the right thing to do and I prayed and I said to Jesus Jesus
if you are the light if you are the way just please give me a sign I need a need
a sign because I need to have a clear sign to cop out of Islam
and for the next 14 days I had so many dreams about Jesus about people coming
to me in biblical times about people tell me who Jesus was about people
hold my face telling me that Jesus loved me and so many of the dreams that
was so powerful and I wrote them all down and I knew that this was my sign
one of the most significant signs for me was at the time I would always wear a
necklace with Allah on it because i felt that protecting me. and I woke up one
night I know is it was a nightmare that in my heart and it was actually about the
nightmare was it felt like it was Islam is the spirits telling me that Jesus wasn't
the Messiah. But I knew that that was the enemy and I wake up and my necklace
hadn't been unlatched it was still much so the necklace was in my hand and I was
gripped in hold of it and I opened it and I I could see the imprint in the
necklace which is Allah and pretty much in my hand and I realized this was
something so spiritual and and this was a sign that I needed to remove it and I
wasn't supposed to wear it I wasn't supposed to be in Islam I was supposed
to follow in Jesus Christ and all the dreams combined really give me that sign
and understanding that that's what I'm supposed to do and I connected with the
church in Leeds and give my life to Jesus now it took me a few months from
then from February to August to actually get baptized and I felt that I really
needed to decide the baptism in my heart and it could come from me and April time
that I was around water I was having a shower in the last week that got
baptized I really felt like I need to get baptized God telling me to get
baptized and I really had a feeling that I should be in the river, I 'dont wanted to
be in a church at want it to be around a lot of people I
want it to just be me and God and a person who baptized me if I was
baptized I started getting really really anxious the job that I was in I was
working in law firm in Leeds and I was really struggling because I
just felt that it wasn't who I was and my heart didn't see that sort of role
I remember just got into the toilet and crying out to God and please just just
help me I don't know what to do and I remember speaking to my friend Jacob and
I said I really didn't feel like it's time to be baptized and I feel like I
want to be in a river I want it just me and God and if you can baptize me then I
would like you to baptize me I don't want to be in a church . So as I was off
work and I contacted Jacob and then we arranged a day and I went to the river
and he baptized me there and I just felt that after the baptism I felt like I was
a new person but I've been on a journey the past few years where I'm just trying
to be closer to God and really deny Who I am and get rid of all traits of who
Angel is and really try to find out who I am in God
so then after I was baptized and I said to Jacob had nobody knew when I said to Jacob
please don't tell anybody and I was really scared and afraid that if my
father found out or my brother or certain people that I would lose family
contact and friends and so I kept it quite quiet and then my friend Jacob and
one month latter when we lived in Leeds and said I'm going to my friend
see him a friend at Bradford and you want to call them going to a baptism and
I said who's baptism and he said shafergail and I was like what shafergail
like a full-of Muslim what how is he get baptized but this gave me so
much encouragement that my decision of one month previous to that and was the
right decision and it took me so much fear that I'd done the right thing and I
really feel like God put this person in my life too
encourage me on my journey so I went to the worship on the evening in Bradford
which was a community house and worshiped with everybody and kind of
celebrate this person's baptism and for the next couple of months I started to
go to this community house and just have some like great fellowship together and
then me and this person from shafraif were starting to become like closer friends
we started to go to like conferences together and Hillsong worship and in
concerts and it was really great and I really feel like God brought us together
and really just helped us and encouraged us and now we are due to be married in
September and we're going on a mission and I'm super excited because the times
when I used to run to Australia New Zealand or even there was two to
try to heal my heart but now I feel like God's really healed my heart and
now I've got a person to go to these places with and actually share the
gospel and it's just so amazing what God's done and I feel really blessed and
grateful and that's my testimony and I really hope that encourage you