i'm so pregnant look at that
oh my god i don't want to document this
because i feel like this is important
for women
oh my god that's so cute
he's a daddy
he's officially a dad
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by the title of this video you probably
know what's going on at this point i'm
currently eight weeks pregnant and in my
first trimester
it took three months of trying to make
it happen and i have to be honest
i was very discouraged because i had no
idea that i can take up to a year to
actually conceive for some people and so
far
nothing was happening this was the month
i was pregnant and didn't know it i
literally thought my period was about to
start and of course at three months of
trying because i was always told by
family and friends it'll happen fast
i was literally conditioned to believe
that fast meant one try
when in reality a normal amount of time
for conception is six months to a year
so in this clip i was being so dramatic
so emotional and super unaware that not
getting a positive test yet was normal
but as a woman we can't help but jump to
the worst when it comes to trying to
conceive i kind of want to document this
because i feel like this is important
for women to see what it's like to like
go through this i feel like i waited so
long but
i mean i'm glad that i waited so long to
start trying because we're in a really
good place right now and we weren't
before and
especially like financially and
emotionally and just
settled into our marriage and i feel
like this is a good time to start trying
i haven't got my period yet but like
i've been kind of obsessing a little bit
over the fact of getting pregnant
pregnancy tests are so expensive and
i went through so many of them and i
regret it because i was like trying to
see if i can get like a an early result
and i did everything right i tracked my
ovulation
anyway i don't know where this is going
or if this is going to be posted or like
don't know
hopefully some good news soon
thanks for listening guys
if this ever gets posted
starting a family in your 30s is an
emotional roller coaster and it's easy
to get into your head as a woman
thinking something is wrong with you so
early on i had fears it just wouldn't
happen especially with gut health issues
and just getting older in general
the next day the uj and i went to a
museum i haven't left the house much and
was currently making some bigger changes
and decisions in my life
going through an ebb which means
whenever you're going through an ebb in
life a flow usually follows so i took
this low moment as a sign that things
are about to get better and as always i
put my trust in the universe
i'm here with you hi i facetimed you
right here
like when i came back from l.a
i just want a bunch of little buddha
statues in my
in my backyard
if we move to america like that's what i
want i want to bring a japanese garden
shrine
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so we made it to the museum and yuji
keeps saying he wishes he brought his
camera
it's really pretty in here it's so cool
i love museums i have obsessed with
museums like i don't care how boring it
is i just love to walk around and look
at art and like museums and
all that stuff but there's like lots of
cool stuff and i guess it's like
all used with like light and everything
this museum was a shadow and light art
exhibition with a touch of yokai which
means ghost and japanese
y'all know how much i love ghosts as
i've made several ghost hunting videos
in the past so this was my jam anyway it
was refreshing to get out and go on a
little date clear my mind and honestly
at this point i subconsciously gave up
in my mind i started to feel period
symptoms as normal so i was like well i
guess it's not happening this month and
i just accepted that so before i get
into the details and keep you up to date
on what's happening and what i'm
learning as a pregnant woman living
abroad
i'd love for you to share this moment
with us as we explore the museum
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we headed to a new place for dinner
right after and after a stressful few
weeks i decided to yup have a glass of
sangria i really didn't think i was
pregnant so i had a bit of a naive
moment here i was not thinking what i
would discover the next morning
oh my gosh this is huge
it looks so good
hi
how's the coffee
it's great what are we doing we're going
home
be careful
i don't know what compelled me to take a
test the next morning but something
inside of me was saying to do it it was
almost like my body and soul knew but i
refuse to believe it
seeing things
my mind was completely lost so i didn't
film this but i ran upstairs until my
sleeping husband made him worry
something was wrong and started yelling
i'm pregnant and you can guess how
excited and happy he was after the
initial scare
good morning everyone okay my heart's
pounding because i wanted to take like
another test but like i just wanted to
take a digital test it's like later in
the day though so like i don't know if
it's gonna pick anything up or because
it's still kind of early it's like two
days after um finding out that i'm
pregnant and things like that
i don't know why i'm like freaking out
like i know that i'm pregnant yep oh my
god you guys
i got it on a digital test i am so
pregnant look at that
oh my god i wanted to take the digital
test just to see the words you know i'm
so pregnant
i'm so excited this is so great
later in the week we had some questions
for my doctor so my husband and i went
to chat with her around week five just
to confirm and do some health checks it
was wild to see a little sack growing
inside my stomach but it was definitely
there and i was as healthy as can be
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so i'm going to my doctor's appointment
i don't know if you can hear me but uh
one of the gates was blocked so i'm
going to go through this harry potter
gate i have a lot of questions to ask my
doctor
when it comes to diet and medications
and things like that so we'll see what
she says and i will update you guys
i also have been seeing a dietitian and
general doctor who i feel really helped
me conceive with the right vitamins and
thyroid medications so i of course went
to her to get a second blood test and do
some more checks and the appointment
went well that day
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she got a pregnancy book good job
it tells you everything i like the
pictures i know
i like it too
wow so what does it talk about it tells
you everything about medicines and
money or gas and doctors and oh my
goodness food that you're supposed to
eat and what you what you should be
doing when you feel
you know when you're sick
we are going to a baby store i'm super
excited this is the first time that i'm
shopping for like actual baby stuff even
though it's like super early
a lot of people are like you should wait
and just wait to see what happens but i
don't know i'm kind of in the present
moment and excited in the moment and
i want to go look at baby stuff for the
first time so that's what we're going to
be doing i will share more in future
videos but living abroad and going
through this first trimester alone has
not been easy which is why i chose to
share the news with friends and family i
also highly believe that living in the
moment is the healthiest for your mind
body and baby so i'm soaking up these
weeks constantly living in the now
instead of the what ifs and worries that
a lot of women tend to have during such
a vulnerable time
so this is a chain it's called nishi
matsuya and they have like pretty cheap
clothing like some of it's like 600 yen
doesn't fit oh my god that's so cute
this place is like for baby clothing um
i guess they have like
baby
toys that like babies r us and stuff but
we're just here looking at the clothes
oh my goodness they're so tiny oh my god
look at these rainbows and unicorn shoes
oh that's these are the japanese school
shoes that they wear
when they go to like preschool or like
elementary school
it's so cute little rain
rain jackets
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oh my god
this is so cute
they have little yukatas these are so
cute look at the oh
it's it's tom and jerry you guys
tom and jerry
i like these little puffy ones
oh my freaking god i have a feeling i'm
gonna have a girl
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not big yet
just
fat and bloated
oh
you put this on the back of the baby's
bed on his back and if he falls and
topples over he doesn't hit his head
i like the penguin that's cute i like
the bumblebee it's cute they have little
baby toys too oh i like the sound this
looks like a nipple
this looks like a nipple on a boob
oh look he has a face
facing like hands and legs
what is this oh it's a little mirror so
he can see himself
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like a rice cooker
oh there's a baby crying
the bento box set
look at all the cooking stuff and the
little
register
i'm like oh my god it's so cute oh my
god okay so it's a baby doll and you
feed her
a little bento and it's so freaking cute
there's like a bunch of sets and you can
feed her
so cute
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he's a
daddy he's officially a dad
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i did it
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bye
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a lot of my friends who were pregnant
said that they wish they could have
enjoyed the first trimester more instead
of constantly living in fear and fight
or flight mode while these moments of
fear do come up and are valid in early
pregnancy i choose to give myself
permission to feel excited in this
moment
to celebrate that my body was able to
produce a human being i wake up every
morning and say i trust my body an
affirmation that gets me through most
days in this early stage
so if you are a woman out there who is
newly pregnant i understand you and i'm
there with you i hope during the weeks
to come that i can share the raw and
real journey of pregnancy
in another country because it's a whole
adventure in itself and i'm learning
something new about my body and the
protocols here every single day so stay
tuned
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