I was pursuing a career as a performer
dancer musical theatre and when I was 18
and I got sick first was an injury that
turned into a debilitating illness where
I couldn't dance anymore and I was on
crutches and that pain spread throughout
my body and until I was bedridden and it
turns out that I had undiagnosed Lyme
disease at the time which then went to
stage three which involved many organs
and my nervous system until I had brain
encephalopathy and I was bedridden and
at my worst I couldn't dress or feed
myself or couldn't leave the house and I
was allergic to everything and I was too
weak and etc etc and for 25 years I
tried to get well and I tried everything
you can possibly imagine and I can see
now in retrospect after dr. Joe's
teachings what I was doing I was trying
to change in the third dimension and
change matter with matters so everything
from diet to tablets to naturopath
acupuncture this therapy that therapy
and I was just constantly going to
therapies I needed to be on very strong
painkillers and at one point I was even
on 12 medications at the same time but I
also tried naturopathic things and for a
good 10 to 12 years I used plant
medicine like regular medicine and I was
still doing matter to matter and I just
couldn't get off the painkillers and I
was on the morphine patch and on tablets
and on liquid form and every two hours I
had to take something because the pain
was so severe because I had so much
nerve damage so much inflammation and
joint swelling muscle spasms any
movement I would just want to scream if
I would just cut a cucumber I was in
such inflammation for days or weeks so I
was I was basically a mess I then went
to the progressive and I heard what dr.
talked about and I was intrigued and I
was intrigued I understood about the
emotional part of the illness but about
the quantum aspect of it I didn't quite
understand and I wasted I wasted 20
years or so doing it the yeah the
difficult way the hard way but I had a
lot of will that I did have but I was
using willpower and I was exhausted it
was in his workshops where I realized
that I need to go quantum and I was so
moved by his lecture that and determined
that I was ready to let go of this and
even though I had tried with my
willpower to cut the morphine patch in
half and reduce and reduce and reduce my
medication I couldn't get off the lowest
dose and at the first workshop I
remember I was trying to do the
meditations and all the long sitting and
I was in agony and I was having a really
hard time focusing on the meditations
and I had the liquid painkillers here
and and they were in the opiate category
and every two hours I had to take a few
drops now I realized when he said who do
you want to be and in the walking
meditation when he said what is your
future it didn't include this aspect of
me because I was a life coach I had
started and working with people to help
them deal with their disability because
I had so much willpower and positive
energy and everything but it didn't fit
that I was still taking pain medication
I mean it really really didn't fit it
disturbed me and I just didn't know how
to get past that so when he gave this
really strong lecture at the advance
follow-up and they were other people
there in wheelchairs in with cancer I
was lying under the table with a woman
with full of tumors there were people
with terrible diseases and they were all
there and the room held this vibration
that I felt you know what I can do this
I can do this here in this field I can
just download this information and we
can do this and so I got myself to the
point where I had that clear vision of
myself but the L
a demotion with the support of all these
amazing you know geniuses around me and
we were in that Park in Zurich at the
advance follow up and I was so
determined and with dr. Joe in my ears
coaching me the whole time it was like
he was back here talking to me I just
decided you know it it's time it's time
I am not 47 they started when I was 18 I
spent my whole life practically my adult
life dealing with this illness and I was
ready to let it go and so I just got
myself in this state and I put the
earplugs in and I stood there and at
first I didn't even want to go cuz I had
a bladder infection and it was cold it
was really cold and I actually wasn't
even gonna go because I was on
antibiotics and I was also gonna almost
gonna make the excuse and I think about
it now if I wouldn't have gone I
wouldn't be in the state that I am now
so I'm so glad that he said come on you
can do it you know how he's like
motivational speaker and so I stood
there and I saw my future and he said
who would you be who do you want to be
what would you walk like how would you
talk what choices would you make those
words over and over again and I saw my
future self and he says and now walk and
I just walked and I walked proud and
high and I just walked right and I
really I just decided right then and
there to never take anything again and I
just did I just did it and the emotion
was so high that after nine years of
being on painkillers opiate painkillers
which you're not really supposed to just
quit the emotion was so elevated that I
managed to do it and the doctor said you
did what you you're not allowed to do
that you're not allowed to just quit
something like that you're going to
severe withdrawal and all I had to do
was was think of the coherence and do
the work and keep myself at that
vibration and so I am so so grateful
that I understood the quantum model that
instead of fighting the pain with you
know massage and acupuncture or plants
or or the wrong type of method
meditation trying to get rid of the pain
I had to go where the pain was not and
that was in my future though
my future self and I had to reside there
and I had to live there and that's how I
could do it the pain slowly the pain
pattern slowly started to reduce the
screaming of the body so to speak
started to go away
the more I did the work and the more I
started to help people in my practice
and take the focus of myself and off my
own healing so I stopped healing I
stopped going to therapies I stopped
going to where I needed an external
input where somebody else was going to
fix me ok as soon as I stopped that and
trying to heal myself and focused on
healing other people but the symptoms
just are slowly till it's like minecraft
that that reality is just cubicle for
cubicle just falling away it's
incredible it really is incredible it's
going to a parallel existence where that
is not anymore you know and how do I
maintain it because on paper I'm still
my blood work is still not quite the way
that I want it to be and I still have to
do as he says shake off a couple of
other things people say you look great
you look healthy you look radiant what
is it and I have to say it's it's it's
it's the field it's the work and it's
not about that they ask me how many
times do you meditate at age and wake up
at 4:00 in the morning and so forth I
can't always do that because I have a
six-year-old son and he would hear me
but you know what I do I just do the
work moment to moment and that means
getting into heart coherence and just
getting myself coherent because pain is
incoherent information and I just go to
where it's not which is the heart and so
that's what I wanted to share and I'm
very thankful for dr. Joe's teaching and
motivation and the support of all the
other people doing the work