my name is Jeremy Bradshaw I'm originally from California um so when my mother had found out that
she was pregnant with me um she had told my dad and they weren't together at the time um was like
hey you know we need to raise this child together and he was like that's not my kid and stuff like
that and so it got to this point where like now his other girlfriend and she basically told him
like you can either have me in your life or you can have that kid in your life and so he chose her
um so because of that you know he was never in my life I was born without him and uh it really
like damaged me like I feel like from the moment that I was born even in the womb
I was like born into rejection and so I really grew up really kind of feeling alone even though
I wasn't necessarily alone I felt alone a lot of the time and even as a child you know i'd uh
be laying in my bed and it was like I could hear voices downstairs talking like almost like a crowd
of people talking downstairs and so like there was that that was going on too because um it was just
very like demonic and I realized where it's from now my grandma she practiced a lot of like tarot
card things like that and so because of that you know it allowed a lot of that in there and so we
had like this line of psychics I guess so in that you know it just led to more darkness filling my
heart um eventually led me into doing heavy drugs like marijuana and starting and then into shrooms
after that and then eventually leading to meth and heroin um and so they always say like you know
oh marijuana's not the gateway drug and stuff and yeah some people could smoke it and be fine and be
done with it but for me it was like a thing where I was like oh this wasn't as bad as I thought it
was well this ain't bad maybe the shrooms won't be that bad so then I did that and I was like well if
the shrooms and the marijuana weren't that bad and then you could kind of see where I'm going from
there it led into um smoking meth and heroin and such so in that it just really kind of broke me
and got me to this place of darkness that was so intense that like I started allowing these these
things what I didn't know at the time but now I do it was allowing these demons to come in and
fill me um and I remember being like on shrooms and like I would almost call upon these spirits to
come fill me up in a way I didn't know what I was doing at the time but and so in the year 2013 I'm
drug ridden I'm angry I'm filled with all this darkness and this desire to hurt people and
such and my mom had actually take me to a hospital because I was just not myself I was just freaking
out screaming and just like pretty much lost my mind and they brought me to the hospital
and they had a psychiatrist come in and talk with me and she deemed me unsafe to be out and
so I got put on what is called a 5150 hold which is basically danger to self or danger to society
and they put me into a mental facility for it was supposed to be three days but it ended up being
seven and so I finally get let out of that I end up doing heavy drugs one last time and then I for
some reason and I have no idea why I just decided to stop I guess I was still smoking weed but
I was like the meth the heroin the shrooms all that I need to be done with you know and
I let that go and just continued living my life and a couple months later I was working
at Chipotle actually and this girl got hired there you know she always spoke about Jesus
and so I was like all right I mean she's cool but she's weird and this whole Jesus thing I'm not
about it because at the time I was atheist you know I didn't believe in god so I'm at Chipotle
and ashley is the girl that worked at Chipotle she was like hey I need a ride home you know my
car broke down um can you give me ride home and I was like sure so I like drove her home and and
all of a sudden I just knew in my heart I wanted to give my heart and my life over to the Lord
and so like I told ashley that I was like hey I think I'm ready to give my life over to the Lord
and she's like what really that's amazing you know I was like yeah literally I I went through
the repentance prayer and the the sinner's prayer and just like repented from my ways and
you know asked the Lord to come and live in my heart and it was in that moment I experienced him
for the first time you know a lot of people you know have those moments where they're just like oh
you know I said it and I believe in everything but this was like his presence came so heavily on me
in that moment when I when I uh received him and I actually got baptized in the Holy Spirit in that
moment as well so I was able to get not only saved but baptized the Holy Spirit at the same time
and so I knew without a shadow of a doubt that the Lord was real you know I remember in 2019
I was sitting on my uh my deck and I was reading I was reading about my Bible and I was smoking
a joint at the same time and I remember the Lord's voice so clearly spoke out to me and
he said Jeremy you will never be able to do what I've called you to do while smoking weed
and it was in that moment that I was like yeah I need to be done with this I found a church
home and it was amazing but like I said I was still struggling really bad with just depression
and feeling lonely and just brokenness and so eventually I went to raise to deliver um
there in seattle or federal way in april of 2021 and there I received some deliverance that was
just amazing and like I was so changed so I ended up leaving um arkansas and coming up to this uh
to the discipleship program here at hungry gen and it changed my life so I remember delivering
sunday and I get up there and I close my eyes and I'm just sitting there and all of a sudden I hear
uh brittany's voice I didn't know her at the time but she's just like started praying for me
and then she said I see you in there hiding and I ca you are no longer allowed to hide and all
of a sudden I just started manifesting and I was like ah I knew there was something hiding in there
and so I going through this and she's like asking me like where are you from telling me that it was
a spirit of witchcraft that was in generations um that came from generations ago and it was
using my eyes to cause me to be impure and all these things that had been torturing me and so
like finally that thing gets yanked out of me and I'm finally delivered and I remember sitting there
and I was like crying so heavily because I was like I'm finally free
this is the moment I've been waiting for and praying for my entire life and I'm finally free
and I just remember I couldn't stop crying and I was just so joyful because I was like I can't
it was so surreal I finally got to that point I'm like I'm free after getting set free it
was like the cage was open and I could walk out of it and just be free and I have not been the
same ever since and because of that man the Lord has just been doing so much in my life
and he's changed me completely and I just I'm so grateful to him for everything he's done and
he continues to do even more so every single day and so I just hope that this is an encouragement
to somebody out there just saying like no matter how much darkness you've walked in
you know there's still hope for you my name is Jeremy and this is my testimony