seven years ago I am led a normal life I
think that what I thought it was normal
and and then I was shocked because I got
a diagnosis with ataxia in a tortoise is
ataxia I don't know if you know it and
it has some similarities to a mess
because the body and the Texas owner of
cells by demonstrating the insulating
layering and the problems the cost is
you have problems with equilibrium and
you see some uncontrollable movement and
lowering in eyesight I had to quit my
job because I couldn't still drive car
anymore I was very high achieving but it
was only possible because of the
hormones of stress and it worked and I
didn't see it as dangerous and our
society value our service because you
you have a high achieving and but the
head it has some very dangerous side of
heads you break down and i enhance like
this what's the cause why why my genes
had developed specialists towards
uncurable go home and the value curse
the Woodcrest and i made the mistake i
did these three things except believe in
surrender because i when I have someone
to repair my my gas heater in the home
I trust him and I myself I want people
to trust me when I say something about
trees and so I also trusted the doctors
but there was a little ray of hope I had
this thought when the diseases caused by
genes that had been quiet for decades
somehow it should be possible to shut
them down again but this was a more
feeling or just it is neat emotion tried
many many things and the advantage was
as the current medicine told me it's
there's nothing to do I had no time to
waste
and with futile appointment was sitting
in waiting rooms so I had tried
otherwise and I tried the Lord I change
my diet I began exercising running in
the morning five kilometres every day I
went to a doctor's with traditional
Chinese medicine I even bought expensive
wonder drugs and I went to a healers and
most of these things were quite
interesting experiences but nothing
worked
and nothing really inspired me and until
I found dr. doe who put it in and so the
simple words that I can understand
I want you to think about this healthy
vibrant man climbs trees for a living
physical takes care of his himself in
his life he his life his livelihood his
job depends on his ability to move up
and down trees and diagnose them and and
now he has a diagnosis of ataxia and
with ataxia the motor neurons in the
body begin to malfunction and so the
side effect of that is what's called
paralysis you start losing motor
control and you start getting
involuntary movements or limitations and
then of course walking becomes difficult
because there's a compromise between
what's happening in the brain and the
body there's a disconnect and those
upper motor neurons they begin to send
aberrant signals to the body and it's
difficult to control voluntarily because
they're involuntary and so then you get
a little nervous you get a little tired
you get a little low blood sugar you get
a little out of balance and then the
symptoms get worse you understand yes
this was a Russia saga I had the fear
that would get worse and I felt
victimized and so the negative spiral
went on so wait wait so do you
understand that
the fear and the sadness and everything
that goes along with it
our survival emotions the long-term
effect of the hormones of stress pushed
the genetic buttons that further create
the disease so his reaction to not being
able to suitably change it makes him
feel like a victim and now it's actually
progressing the condition and this is
why health conditions are difficult to
change I know this from my own personal
experience that getting outside the
veneer of that program that the
the hardening of the personality you
it's difficult to think or to be greater
than how you feel and then you check in
with your body and it hasn't changed and
then you draw the conclusion that
nothing happened but and yet if you
understand that it's going to take some
time to down regulate the gene and up
regulate the gene it's gonna take some
time to work with the body into the
present moment each time you do that
it's a victory and that's the work and
that's how we climb out of the hole you
understand okay no I'm grateful for
every day since two years I I wake up
and I say yes
let's make time for the unknown now I
have a few questions for you you went to
that challenge activity and you could
have easily said hey look I used to do
this for a living and now I'm you know
sick and I can't do it and I don't have
any control over all good control over
my legs and I could fall in a harness I
have a fear of heights
my mother didn't love me my shoes are
too tired I got the wrong shoes you know
Mercury's in retrograde whatever
whatever you come up with but you did
the challenge activity yes I'm very glad
that you are staff member Petra has
she's an angel
she's your angel I think ministers at
least
hey driver are you
you can try happy to take the first
steps and then I noticed Matt worse so
we continued and to finish we made fun
and there was I don't know whether I can
are there some people say there was a
challenge there was a good I always
wanted such a challenge but in former
days I always thought I have I have not
the time to do this my children went
there and I thought shall I let him what
a pity
and in later I noticed that I'm not I'm
not anymore able to do this and I it was
a great opportunity to do this and I
enjoyed it and you went further than you
thought you could go yes now next
question what type of changes have you
noticed in your body I can stand here
and it's amazing
I I don't know if you have seen me
before when I went to the workshop I use
the cane because um it gave me some
security as some safety and yesterday in
the walking meditation I did I said to
myself my future self works without game
now is he not beautiful
you think that I have to be concerned
about whether he's going to do the work
or not
now he's experiencing changes in his
body and he's correlating in his mind
what he's doing to produce those changes
and now he's more convicted it happened
to me when I had my injury I was
struggling so hard and I was so angry
and bitter because I thought my life was
ruined that a 24 year old guy and I I
six weeks I was in hell I I didn't want
to see anybody talk to anybody I was
angry and I realized that I was in my
own way and I started to relax and
surrender to this system this at the
time I thought it was my autonomic
nervous system like up like a machine
that was doing it I left out some of the
elements that I understand now but when
I started noticing that I could begin to
get present and control my thoughts I
started getting happier and I noticed
that I was less worried about whether I
could walk again I was less worried
about if I should sell my home or my
practice or whatever but when I started
getting feeling back and the pain level
started going down whoo that's all I
needed
I just needed that one change and once I
latched on to that one change now I
didn't dread coming up against myself I
was I was excited to do it because I
wanted more of it and now the divine
Luth closer to me because I went in with
a certain level of passion a certain
level of energy and it started matching
my energy and I just moved changed very
quickly ten weeks I was done I was
better I was over it and that's exactly
what's happening to him
he's he's not gonna miss a day because
he's knocking on the genetic door
he every day he's going to make strides
he's going to notice changes small
subtle changes in his body like he's
noticing now that he could stand up
without a cane that he could walk a
little better his body is gonna keep
catching up keep catching up and every
time he connects he's beginning to cause
those microtubules those skeletal
structures of the cells that have little
protein filaments that respond the
frequency they can beat as slow as a
drum
that's matter or as fast as an antenna
that's energy and all of a sudden
they're gonna begin to resonate at a
greater frequency and when they do the
cell emits more light and energy and
information and he's going to continue
to upgrade his biology and it's going to
take a little more time but if he keeps
getting closer and closer to that
unified field and he surrenders more
they'll be less separation between two
points of consciousness which means it
should happen in a shorter amount of
time and that's exactly what's going to
happen he came in one way he's gonna
leave another way it should be a
testament to what's possible for you
there are many possibilities are
infinite facilities to escape from this
and just make a room when when you take
time for yourself and I do this really
every morning I love it sit down be
quiet and ask yourself some augmented
questions that begin with with what if
and for example one one question is what
if the worst thing that has happened to
you turns out to be the best thing it's
absolutely impossible
what her over generally spoken what if
the best case happened it is absolutely
possible and since I meditate I have had
some very profound experiences the
things really develop for my best and
one of these things has happened here in
Berlin during our week-long advance
retreat
I came with his cane and I I wasn't able
to stand in front of you like I do now
before because I always had to sling at
this thing and now I don't need it any
longer and this is why I'm here in the
park and the tier garden I want to leave
this came here because our return
without the skin I'm still a bit insurer
on my feet but I know it will get better
better I feel it
perhaps our goal our meaning of life is
not to achieve something material
perhaps it's something else
and I think the meaning and in my view
the meaning of life is to express the
divine through all of us